Memories of Life

Merry Christmas

2011-12-21T22:55:00.001+08:00

I felt so sorry to my blog..
It seem like I will only update once or twice in a year.
and of course, the must update it, is when Christmas is around the corner~!
*wow, time flies huh? Hehe*

Anyway, if you are following my blog from the beginning, you will know that Christmas is a season where I will contribute myself towards and yeees, I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!! =D

The reason I love it? Hmmm~
It's going to finish a terrible year? NO!
Waiting for presents? NO!
Great time for shopping? NO!
Chinese New Year is near? NO NO NO!

The reason is, it's my 9th years old birthday for 2011..
Many of you might be thinking, eh Yvonne, I thought your birthday is on 18/7? And you are older than 9 right?
Yea, you are right, that's the day I was born. But I baptist when I was in 13th years old. In Christianity, when a person has already baptist, this means he/she is a new born child in Jesus name.

Well, I was a lost lamb before. a terrible terrible lost lamb! And I clarify again: 'LOST' and 'BEFORE', which means already become past tense. I was arrogant, bad temper and many many more bad habits. Thanks God, he never give up on me. He always remember me when I forgotten him! Thanks to my mom for bringing me back to church.. Thanks to her who never give up praying for me, and now I can stand firmly and declare: Satan, in the name of Jesus, you can't touch me because I am God's precious daughter from now until forever!

This is so sad when people is thinking, 'Christmas? Oh, is celebrating Santa Claus ma~ who cares anyway, as long as I can go club to enjoy myself.'
Dear God, please bless these people with your mercy.

I am here to say that CHRISTMAS DAY is not celebrating SANTA CLAUS!! Yes, it is not!!! It's a season for all of us to share God's love for those who don't know God yet. If you are a non-Christian and you are reading until here, I will say, God is blessing you all the way until you finish reading this article. God love you! Yes, he does~

The only way I can find a real happiness is not from money! The only way I can find peace is not from how good is the police or security are! The only way I can find hope is not from wishing well! I found all these when my relationship with God is getting closer and closer. *praise the Lord!* I worked so hard for the past few years, I saved a lot of money but at the end? It will only making my life sucks.. When theft broken in my house and there is only me alone, God saved me.. Police only came after the theft ran off 45mins.. I went through a lot of so called miracle and I know, God is always be with me whenever I need him, he never forget me. How amazing is the Lord~~!

Many people having a high qualification in certificate or working experience. But God is not looking all these. When you serve him, he is looking in your sincerity, how much do you love him. I am now starting to serve God and yea, learning humble from other brother and sister. We are not looking for a PhD cert or degree, we are looking for ur heart..

Christmas is coming in just few days..
I am joining my church caroling tomorrow.. I join not because of I love singing is I want to tell people about God's love. I am preparing myself to welcome God, how about you?

Wishing you a merry christmas ahead and may God bless you! =)

Love,
Yvonne

What's up?

2011-08-20T09:01:00.002+08:00

These few days, was planning to update (oh wait! or perhaps I should use share something) through the blog. As my previous blog mentioned, I've been moving my blog to wretch. But due to I forgotten my user ID and password, therefore, I am back here~ haha, I am thinking that I got a short-term lost memory.. XD

My life is good~ Working plus Studying plus part time job, that's my daily routine. I believe this is what many people are doing out there everyday just for living.. Can't deny that it is a tiring thing, but take a rest and you can move it better. Always set a target so that it can motivate you to do thing efficiency and keep improving.

I will try to enjoy my life to the max. because time past will never comes back. Read back few of my previous posts, I felt I was so silly at that moment. And I promised, it wont happen anymore. I will share each of my colourful moment and things to everyone! Have a wonderful weekends ahead~ Cheers!

moving to a new place~

2010-12-06T15:20:00.003+08:00

Well~~

* pretend that I am still having some readers, hehe! "

Just a quick and simple notice here:

I am moving my blog back to wretch!

the new address will be- http://www.wretch.cc/blog/yvonnechew07

So, see u guys there~~~

Bye Blogger... :)

Rojak 2~

2010-09-14T14:17:00.004+08:00

Every time when I am having the mood to update my blog, sure I will face some interrupts..
Borrow the maxis broadband to my aunt for few days..
then when I get my broadband, open my laptop, login my blogger account,
:"evon, bring me here, then there.."
so turn up?
now, no matter what,
I need to update finish.. :)

So many things happened within a week..
my mood is like up and down, down and up..
reality is always so cruel..
we just can't do anything,
what we can do now is, leave everything to God..
God, please lead the way!! :(
Working in a restaurant,
facing so many betrayers is actually very heartache,
especially the one who pay for it..
one thing I have learned,
face the reality and accept it!
human's power is limited,
therefore, we can't think of changing others,
if we wanna change others, first, we need to have some changes, be a good example..
these days, two bosses become chef,
mom is helping in the kitchen,
grandma helping me at the bar..
Nemo, helping me serve customer, take order, deliver food and wash those plates..
one thing I really very appreciate and be grateful is,
Nemo is here, so at least, I still can walk, can jump now.. :)

Let's say something happy..
I celebrated my dear Yap Ning's birthday last Sunday..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!!
hope you enjoy for that day, and the cupcakes as well.. :)
big girl already..
jom, let's go casino when I can take my off day... ;p
and and thanks for ur treat...
one more thingy, good luck in working..
This is the first time you working right,
don't forget to treat me when you get salary.. hehe
Btw, if not mistaken,
your aunt's office is near to my aunt's restaurant bah..
so, if free, come visit me... :))

Oh ya, almost forgotten,
I changed my style..
my hair style, my image.. :)
my aunt helped me to cut a fringe..
well, at least I look younger now... XD
but one thing,
with fringe,
you must have at least a little bit of the make up,
if not, you will look like a village girl..
and nowadays,
I already get use to make up..
my aunt says I got the improvement ^^
but Nemo always says: make no different.. only you eyes got different, why make up don't want make up the whole face?? LoL
I don't use foundation because my skin is sensitive..
so unless having a big party or event, if not I don't put foundation on..
I do the make up on my eyes because I just wanna make my eyes look more energetic or perhaps bigger? :p
so at least, people will compliment: you have a beautiful eyes.. hahaha
anyway,
one more fact I accepted..
In the world of year 2010 onward,
human are looking at your outlook rather than your inner..
face the fact!
I got the experiences..
when I make up to work, the day I didn't make up to work..
customers' feedback are totally different..

Lately, I fall into this song..
Westlife- miss you when I am dreaming

Today I didn't think of you
Today was alright
I had a lot of things to do
I was moving on with my life

But now I need some answers, some answers
I'm tired and I'm getting weak
Some answers, some answers

I only miss you when I'm dreaming
That's why I don't wanna close my eyes
Tell me why you only hurt me when I'm sleeping
The only time I can't put up a fight
Is when I'm dreaming

Another hour passes by
It's gonna be a long night ahead
Coz I feel you creeping up inside my mind
Every time I look at my bed

But now I need some answers, some answers
I'm tired and I'm weak
Some answers, some answers

I only miss you when I'm dreaming
That's why I don't wanna close my eyes
Tell me why you only hurt me when I'm sleeping
The only time I can't put up a fight (dreaming)

The only time I can't live without you (dreaming)
I can't let you go
Oh no

I only miss you when I'm dreaming
That's why I don't wanna close my eyes
Tell me why you only hurt me when I'm sleeping
The only time I can't control my mind, oh
And the only time I can't put up a fight
I miss you when I'm dreaming

ref: [ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/miss-you-when-im-dreaming-lyrics-westlife.html ]

The lyrics are meaningful to me and it suits my current mood...
I have a happy secret to share here..
Wanna know about it?

STAY TUNED!!!

Rojak~

2010-09-02T15:33:00.010+08:00

It's September already...
Welcome September... :)
I call this post as rojak, definitely not because I am craving for it,
is because, this post is actually going to be random post..
read back my last post,
it was in July...
imagine how lazy I am?
creating an account for blogger, and just dump it in this way?
In this two months, I have so many things to update here..
so, do bare with me with this super duper long post..

First thing, I am going to introduce my funny and crazy group,
'kisiao kaki' or 'craziest kakies'!!
They are MC, LC, Suit May, me and Lisa..
Wonder who are they now?
no worries, I am going to upload the picture.. hehe

The first time when I met LC and MC,
I was so quiet..
Besides than saying hi and bye..
nothing to talk.. haha
but now?
can't imagine when we go travel together,
really no need to sleep at night already.. :p
Yes, I miss them, everyday.. lol
They really brighten my day up.. :)
love them so much...
oh well, why call us as kisiao kaki?
cause we are crazy all the time,
even skype or msn,
we can chat until 3.30am...
wonder how can we survive the next day when we are working?
I believe everyone must survive with at least one cup of coffee.. haha
what to do? we have lot of fun, laughter.. :)

Next,
not to forget mention about my birthday..
the first birthday celebration was a surprised by this kisiao group and my aunt..
Lisa, one of the members, who is actually having a birth date one day before me..
How would I ever to forget her birthday? haha
so, yea, we celebrated together..
Besides the birthday celebration, Suit May is leaving to Perth for her studies..
We do make a farewell party too..
Birthday celebration + Farewell party..
amazing, unforgettable.. It's also the first time in my life who having this experience.. :)
Let's pictures say everything.. hehe

Lisa, 17th July baby.. :)

Me, 18th July baby... :p

Sweet girl, Suit May.. Farewell cupcakes.. :)

lol.. become crazy already.. XD

can't stop laughing everytime when I see this picture... hahaha!

Second celebration is with my wonderful P1's friends, NS's friends and APIIT's friends in my aunt's restaurant.. :)

The birthday cake is ordered by my aunt.. how sweet... my favorite iphone.. When I asked her, why 3GS not 4G?? She said the person who take down the order don't know 4G, so I order 3GS... @@

Thanks for coming to my birthday lunch..
I love you all..
Thanks for the presents..
I appreciate very much.. :)
Thanks for all my lovely friends'wishes..
I keep all in my heart..
During my birthday celebration,
I think I disappointed 2 of my best buddy..
My dear Phyllis and Yap Ning..
I told them that I was waiting someone's wish..
The reason WHY??
is because, since the day i knew him,
every year of my birthday,
He never missed wishing me happy birthday..
but this year..
no sms, no twitter and no facebook wall..
If i say I am not disappointed,
very obvious I am lying..
Hui See said: never give up until 11.59pm..
but ends up?
I m D.I.S.A.P.P.O.I.N.T.E.D
Well..
I expected, just that I don't have the brave to face the fact..
As I know him,
he must be think that my friends can make me more happy, they can give me happiness..
please don't say I like to assume or what, trust me, he really think so.. I know him too well already..
and yea, he is right..
my friends do, always make my very happy..
but one thing he never know..
whatever thing he did, even just a small thing,
can make me happy the whole day, warm my heart and even forget my terrible bad day..
what he thinks about me, might probably reflect his attitude..
that's the reason why in this 2 years, I never wish him happy birthday..
The last time I wished him,
I made him a tiramisu cake..
save all my pocket money,
asked all my friends where to buy the ingredients,
searching websites how to make the cake,
ALL because I wanna give him a surprise..
how naive I was?
yea, I admit..
everything has come to an end..
those sweet and nice memories,
I swear,
I will no longer remember in the rest of my life..
cause those memories will only reminds me how deep he hurt me..
when he doesn't care anymore, why would I still being so stupid and care about him?
when he is still being so selfish, why would I still being so innocent and try to change him?
when he is treating me so so cruel, why would I still being nice to him and give him a chance to hurt myself once more?
when he says: I don't love you anymore', why would I still wasting my time and sacrificed all my love to him instead of other people?

Life ain't that perfect after all..
Human are not perfect as well..
I believe God is very justice and fair when he creates human..
Do you guys can accept when someone tell you this:
I can only accept happiness in a relationship.. when I am no longer happy in this relationship, I will leave.. I choose to let myself happy..
what the heck??
and well,
I met someone who exactly drop into this situation..
so selfish right?
because of his own happiness, he rather give his gf lot of sadness..
I wonder is it most of the guys having the same thought as this guy..
hopefully no..
I prayed hard to my Lord:

Dear Heavenly Father,

your precious child yvonne chew is waiting you to give her a guy that love her more than she do.. a guy that can protect her instead of hurt her.. a guy who really love her family and friends.. a guy who love you as well.. she is waiting and waiting..

TO BE CONTINUED...

Emo 篇

2010-07-04T23:37:00.002+08:00

没有他的日子-第五天

首先，我想对我的表妹说声对不起!
表姐其实不是在应酬你还是什么。。
我真的真的为你能拿到画画比赛第三名而高兴。。
只是，刚好那个时间来得不是时候，我真的真的心情特别差，
所以，好像有点在敷衍你。。
继续努力吧，除了课外活动，多花点时间在温习SPM。。
很重要叻!一生中，只有那么的一次。。加油!!

今天，Jong 真的有给我惊喜。。。
交谈之中，
谈到了某人。。
我的眼泪几乎快流了下来。。
可是我马上以笑容来代替眼泪 (你不知道吧!因为我不想在你和妈妈的面前落泪，所以我忍着)
对你说的每一句话，
都是真的。。
这一次，想要忘记他，真的很难。。

刚才上了Facebook，
无意中，看见了他留言给他朋友的回应。。
突然间觉得很不舒服。。
不舒服不是因为妒忌还是什么，
而是因为，想与他聊天，知道他在做些什么。。
明明他也有在线，却不能交谈，
这种心情真的很难受!
眼泪开始流了下来。。

半途回家中，
想到寂寞在家里等着我，
眼泪又忍不住的流了下来。。
没有他的日子，
真的真的很难过!!!
我知道他是不会读我的博客，
所以，我很放心的把我真正的感受写在这里。。

认识我的人，
会知道，
其实，我根本就没有Facebook所说的那样开心，潇洒!
我越扮的什么事都没发生过，每天生活得很开心，
我越是伤心，眼泪不停的往肚子里吞。。
少了他，对每个人来说，我不会再受伤害!
但，我已经习惯了有他生活的日子。。
所以，每一晚，我都睡不好觉，
做什么事，都有力无力。。
他却却实实在我心里已经有了一个怎么扫，都扫不走的地位。。
讨厌!我的键盘开始又湿透了 TT

我知道他根本就不是什么好东西。。
可是，我却不明白我自己。。
为什么会爱一个一直伤害自己的人这么深?
为什么要这样折磨自己?
为什么不能爱自己多一点?
为什么我会爱他多过与自己?
为什么，为什么，有许许多多的为什么，答案就只有一个。。

不要说你们讨厌我，
有时，就连我自己都讨厌自己。。
你们对我的无言，
让我真的恨不得没有我的存在。。
今晚，又是肯定睡不着。。
在这样下去，真的辛苦的还是我自己。。

今年的生日，
不想办了。。
我根本就没有那种心情。。
办什么鬼生日会。。
待在家，哪里都不去，
是最好。。

顺服。。

2010-07-04T10:31:00.002+08:00

我是一个超不会顺服的人。。
因为一直以来，我要什么，我就得到什么。。
原因，
家人宠我，
他们爱我，
不想我伤心。。
所以，养成了我现在的不好的性格。

我的宗教，我的上帝，
我一样也不顺服他的旨意。。
我还是选择了我要的，
而不是他预备给我的。。
我想他很伤心，看不过眼了。
所以，现在他要插手了。。

三年前，
我听了妈妈的话，
顺服了他，去参加国民服务。。
结果，在那短短的两个多月，是我毕生最难忘的回忆。
出来后，
也听了妈妈的话，
暂时出来打几个月的工。。
结果，那份工让我有着快乐的时光。。
但之后，
我开始不听妈妈的话。。
SPM 成绩出来，
妈妈要我都中六，
打死我都不要!
所以跟她玩了几个星期的忧郁游戏(我很坏吧!)
结果，
她马上带我去 APIIT 报名。。
也就因为这样，
我认识了某人。。
也就因为这样，
今天的我，被伤害得这样深。。

对于某人，
我对他的爱，
家人看得出来。。
上帝看得出来。。。
他对我的爱，
家人一点也看不出来。。
朋友，十个里面，有十个都不赞成!
旁观者清，我却因爱他而不理会他们给我的忠告。
所以现在，
有些完全不理会我，有些还在我的身边陪伴着我。。
当然要谢谢那些还不离弃我的人。。

分手后，
连续哭了三天，
哭到这么累，却还是睡不下觉!
妈妈拿了两天的假期陪我。。
在公司，打破了碗碟，
阿姨看了我一眼，无言。。
她为了让我重拾，这三天，我有的穿美美去上班。。

上帝看见了，
知道我的心有多么的痛，
他让幸运陪了我两天。。
开心归开心，
回到家，
寂寞跟着我。。

我承认，
我不是一个独立性的女生，
所以我是很渴望爱情。。
但是，
我条件不好，对于另一半的条件其实还瞒高!
我想，都以经被枪完了吧。。
妈妈鼓励我向我的阿爸天父请求。。
在祷告中纪念我的另一半。。
我想我真的真的要开始学习顺服，
不要以我自己为中心。。

祝福我吧!

这一天。。

2010-06-13T14:03:00.002+08:00

Finally I got the chance to update my blog XD
这几天，真的忙到我团团转，忙到我都生病了。。
记者会啦，婚礼等等。。

其实今天有点emo，
也许，我看见另一个我了吧！
刁蛮，任性，野蛮！！
因为我被宠坏了。。
也因为这样，
我的占有欲很强。。
我承认！
不喜欢与别人分享我的最爱，
但，却喜欢与别人分享他们的最爱。。
听起来，好像很霸道。。
总之，属于我的东西，我就想永远的霸占着，绝不会让手。。
我会变得更加贪心。。
这也是我一大缺点，所以有时我会无缘无故生气我的男友，哥还有朋友。。
他们也不知道我为何生这么大的小姐脾气。。
因为我有时在吃醋，但却没说出真正的原因。。
女生都是这样的吧，口是心非。。
有时候，我真的很讨厌我的小姐脾气。。
在尝试努力改变中。。
如果真的真的还是死性不改，那就只好包容了咯！（呵呵 XDD）

今天去了教会，
一个字形容，感觉真好。。
很久都没有这样舒服的感觉了。。
很在的我，属灵已经跌到零点了。。
是时候从零出发过吗？
我想是时候了吧！

Today is a wonderful Sunday！
So，enjoy this day.. :):)

有一种女人~ 你伤不起，你要珍惜

2010-05-30T20:16:00.002+08:00

* Well, I have to thanks the person who purposely send this article to me..
and you are right, I am this kind of girl, exactly what I always think, exactly what I always did..
wonder why you can know my inner characterise so well?
haha.. anyway thanks for the sharing..
and I think it is a good article and for those who wanna know me well,
u should read this.. :) *

有这这样一种女人，她们很傻。
貌似很花心，其实很专一；
貌似很坚强，其实比谁都要脆弱；
貌似很开心，可是笑容背后的哀伤谁又能懂呢？

其实很多时候，这一类人都是在自我折磨。
明明很爱很爱对方，却宁愿心痛也选择放手。
然后转身离开，任眼泪随意放肆。

其实很多时候，这一类人很好懂。
她们很害怕孤单，因为一个人的时候，她们会胡思乱想，
她们会想起那个没有结局的故事，会想起那个模糊却又清晰的脸庞；
因为一个人的时候，她们会觉得很没安全感。
她们的要求总是那么的低，只要爱着的那个人陪着她们就好。

其实很多时候，这种女人都很敏感，都很容易猜疑。
一个眼神、一个动作，都会让她们神经兮兮一整天。
所以如果爱她们，不要让她们恐慌，不要让她们伤心，

其实很多时候，这一类女人都在感伤。
不是她们多愁善感，只是容易触景生情罢了。
她们喜欢用文字来刻画她们的心情，这也是她们的一种寄托方式。

其实很多时候，这一类人都处在矛盾之中，
是继续，还是暂停；是放弃，还是坚持。
看似感性的她们，却往往于最后让理性驾驭整个思维。

其实很多时候，这种女人害怕看见别人的甜蜜，
不是嫉妒，只是会觉得和以前的自己好像。
然后会陷入整个回忆，等待过往的疼痛唤醒自己的意识，
再一个人慢慢舔舐自己的伤口。

其实很多时候，这种女人都很执著，有时候不明白她们在坚持着什么。
她们是在期待那个没有结局的故事的结局还是在等待更大的伤害？
她们就是傻，爱上了，就会像个洋娃娃，任意被摆弄。

这种女人，缺点太多，脾气太臭。有点任性，而且敏感多疑。
所以要么不要靠近她们，要么就用真心对待她们。
因为她们的心脆的，很伤不起。

近况与感想

2010-05-23T12:53:00.004+08:00

谢谢惜黎及慧仪。。
因为她们，
我们团聚了 :)

小学六年，我已经换了五间小学。。
新山吉隆坡两边跑。。
五间小学，最让我充满快乐的就是新山班兰华小。。
级任老师，也是我们的华文老师～许松菁老师。。
她让我们拥有非一般的上课乐趣。。
如果她的节是在最后一节，她会要我们全班唱歌，才回家。。
印象最深刻的就是‘萍聚’，因为那是她最喜欢的歌。。
她也自创了‘班兰5B知多少’。。
可惜的是，我在这学校只有仅仅的九个月。。
然后，我又转回吉隆坡读了。。

我只与数位朋友写信联络。。
其中一位还有联络到现在，她就是慧仪。。
而另一位是很特别的，值得回忆的。。
但是最后还是失联了。。
十年了。。。
期间，我尝试去找回他们，还是失败。。
在我脑海里，就只有他们小时候的样子。。。
现在看回他们的照片，如果在街上遇见他们，我们也只能擦肩而过，
因为我完全都认不出他们。。
他们都变了。。
全部同学都变瘦了，变漂亮了，变英俊了。。。
上个礼拜的班聚，我错过了。。
来临的班聚，我很想参与，可是～～～
我真的真的很想念他们。。

说真的，
这次联络回他们，
班上有80％的同学对我的印象‘模糊’。。
所谓的模糊，也就是不记得的意思。。。
直接一点嘛！呵呵

见到老师，
第一见事情就是：
许老师！我是周奕雯同学，成绩不理想，常常给你头痛的那位！
哈哈哈。。
那天与老师在面子书交谈。。
还好，老师还记得我的名字，只是记不起我的样子。。
接着，有许多同学陆陆续续问着同一个问题：
老师，你还记得我们吗？
老师说了这一句：你们是我的第一批学生，想要忘记你们还真难叻！
我想我们这一批，是另老师最头痛的吧！

小学，真好！
尤腾的这一句真好！！
每个人都变了，或许性格，行为也变了吧！
唯一不变的是，我们在一起所拥有的回忆及快乐时光！
长大了，
现在的我，依然保留着同学们小时的样子，因为：
那时我们的童真。。
想念你们，希望能尽快与你们相聚。。:):)

A letter to God..

2010-04-30T16:24:00.004+08:00

Dear Heavenly Father,

I am facing many dilemma now.. You know my current feeling the best.. I know, I have been stop attending church since many months ago.. I am just like a lost lamb, turning here and there, just to find my shelter, but I know I let you disappointed deeply..

I don't like this kind of life.. not enough sleep, entertain people until late night just because of wanna earn few more thousand.. Money will never earn finish, but if you still not satisfied with the money that you earning, sorry to say that, the biggest mistake that you have ever made in you life is earning unlimited money.. I really wonder what kind of mind is this.. To earn more money, can even scarified your own health? Do you think that healthy life can't use money to buy back? This is just a wrong way of earning money.

Stressful life is making me can't breathe. You don't allow human to be greedy.. We can't get everything we want. Therefore, we need to learn how to sacrifice. but I believe that you will always besides me, leading me to the best, cause you know me the best.. :)

Why am I still having these feelings? When he is having fun with his friends, I am abandoned.. His friends will always come first instead of me.. He will never rejected his friends but me.. Stop telling me how important I am for you cause you just say, no action at all.. Stop giving me all that empty promises, I am terribly sick of it.. Besides that, I finally can understand the feeling you are having last time cause I am facing the same feeling too.. I can insist of continue but too bad the feeling u r giving me is getting more disappointed.. But I believe, dear father, the right guy you are preparing for me is waiting for me in my future.. I should learn to obey and wait..

That's the end of my feelings..

Love,
Your precious child- Yvonne

last day of march/2010

2010-03-31T15:41:00.002+08:00

sitting on the sofa,
listening songs from my laptop,
looking at my laptop..
I just feel no mood~

have been working in this restaurant for 2 months..
I...
still can't get used in this field..
a lot of time, I keep question myself..
:"Yvonne, did u really put on ur effort in it?"
seriously, working in a restaurant can face many interesting problems..
can learn how to grow up..
can improve myself..
can see different stages of employers..
but now, I don't think I have any improvement at all..
I am just standing at the beginning..
I am just a loser?
maybe..

April is coming tomorrow..
Hopefully everything will run smooth in this month..

*signing off silently*

我挣扎了很久，很久~

2010-03-15T17:08:00.002+08:00

给于一个对我很重要的人：

我们终于有了第一次的吵架。
很多事情都瞒不过你，你总是比任何人都了解我！
知道我在想什么。
很坦白对你说，我被你宠坏了。我渐渐地变得野蛮，任性！
吵架后，心情当然很不好过！
收到你的短讯，虽然没生气你了，但还是不想妥协，因为你还是伤害了我。
我也从没想过会跟你有吵架的一天。
当然，我也不是那么的不讲道理！
不会因为这次的吵架而在我们的关系花上句号。
因为少了你，我想我的生活会少了一份色彩！
今天的你，因该还很担心着我是否还在生你的气吧！
我想对你说：我接受你的道歉，但我也想对你说声对不起，让你担心了！

给于一个在我心里占了一部分的人：

大忙人！你真的真的很忙。
老实说，明天很期待能跟你一起吃晚餐。
所以我留了晚上的时间给你。
我想我们也已经一个月没见面了吧！
可是。。。
我能对你发发牢骚吗？
不知为何，对你总是恨不起来！
可是有时候，我真的很讨厌你！
因为我不知道你真正在想要什么。
你对我说的话，有时我真的没有勇气去相信了。
我们错过了很多时间，因为我们不珍惜彼此。
你有你的忙，我有我的忙。
可是有时为了见你，我牺牲了一些节目。
因为没有任何事情比见你一面来得重要。
可是。。。
回想起来，好像只有我的付出，我看不见你的付出。
这能算爱吗？
因为你真的很自私
到最后换来的是你对我说：我们在一起的时间不够
我无话可说，因为我真的是尽了我的能力。
我想对你说：机会，我会给你最后一次。可是我必须要看到你是真心的对我。
我要看到你愿意为我而改变！不是只用口说说，而是以行动证明，可以吗？

Bad day!

2010-03-14T17:06:00.004+08:00

I hate you for ruining my day up!

kind of randomness? lol

2010-03-09T15:46:00.003+08:00

suddenly I have a 'feel' to update my blog.. so here I come..
time really passes so fast for this year, now only I realize that it's march now!
maybe this year, I am really busy with restaurant stuff..
went for so many restaurants, and I never notice that there are actually many problems that will occur in a restaurant.
after came in this restaurant, one sentence to conclude: I am not suitable in this field.. :)
If u know me well, u will know that I am actually wanna get into a bank, and be a banker and getting higher position. maybe after few years, I got enough money, I will open my own business but definitely not a restaurant especially focus in services. It is very tiring, trust me.
what is if u serving a very troublesome customer? It will made ur day more worst.. so I won't open a restaurant in the rest of my life..

yesterday, I had a 'feel' for traveling. lol
feel like going with my beloved.. =)
my aunt and her bf already 7 years but they are still so sweet..
both of them knowing each other so well until can he predict what she is thinking in her mind..
sometimes, they really made me feel to have a bf just like her bf, caring and protective enough..
for me, if I really wanna get into a relationship, I am serious in it, I will consider the person as my future partner...
and I hope HE is... =)
I hope this time I really can get HIS protect, HIS full love, I hope everything will work out successfully..
I hope to be HIS princess who can share all the happiness and sadness..
I hope to get a secure from HIM..
I hope to see HIM when I wake up every morning..
I hope HE is belongs to me and ONLY me..
can all my hopes come true?
the only thing I can do is, pray hard loh..
only God knows how much I love HIM and miss HIM everyday... :):)

ok, enough for here, I think I should go back to my work.. have a good day!

re-open my bloggie.. ^^

2010-02-23T18:56:00.003+08:00

happy chinese new year to all my beloved friend.. =)
seem like I abandon this blog for such a long time, very sorry..
so yeah, I had graduated from diploma and I got my diploma results few days ago..
many of my friends keep asking me this: so wat's ur decision? where to continue ur study? really don't want to continue ur study meh?
and after I told my decision, that's it! please don't try and convince me anything, I won't change my mind.. =)

so what am I up to? being an artist assistant and assistant manager in a restaurant..
in these 2 months, I learned alot of things, get alot of experiences. somehow, I believe experience is more important than a cert. Even if u get a bachelor or master cert, but u don't even have an experience is equal to useless.. Therefore, what for I should proceed my degree so fast? let me step into a working world and seek for different kind of experiences. Please don't misunderstood my meaning, I didn't say a degree cert is not important, it is important but experience will always comes first if u go for an interview.. =)

enough crapping I think? haha..
anyway, new year I have many wishes.. *wink wink*

I want a new phone..
I want a new mac laptop..
I want new bags..
I want to getting slimmer.. :p
I want to have a good health..
I want to have a bf? lol

so may all my wishes came true this year. XD

Welcome 2010, a brand new year..

2010-01-02T13:27:00.004+08:00

Happy new year~~ XD

well, actually I got a lot of things wanna share with you guys here..
about my taiping's trip and some working experience there, and some secrets.. =)
but, I know the post will be a super long post and since my finals coming in 2 more days, so I decided to write it once I finish my finals, I promise..

so guys, now wish me all the best in my finals.. ermm, especially business law subject..
gotta go for my revision already..
see you guys soon~~

10 minutes..

2009-12-14T22:07:00.003+08:00

so I will just spend 10 minutes here..
arrghhhhhh..
wonder why I feel that I am so bad..
exam is coming so so soon and yet I still got no mood to start with my revision..
maybe my mood is in chirtsmas mood already? or I've lost my motivation..
shit la... I can't ruin my last semester in this way BUT I really need some MOTIVATION!!!

there is only one motivation that can motivate me to go on... but I am so shy to say it out.. haha oh, and sunny guy is not the motivation, never ever! XD

ok la, actually I don't have the mood to study today is because of I am feddup on something.. the whole day, my mood not good anyway.. but it's a long story to write out so I decided to post here some other days..

ok.. I think time's up already right? I have to go for my study now even though I don't feel like doing it.. take care~~ :)

November/2009

2009-11-01T20:28:00.003+08:00

A warmly welcome to November... :p
So before I continue, I wanna wish two people happy birthday..
First person is, my very old friend from high school, a pretty plus adorable girl, a hardworking girl, a friendly girl, a sweet girl which is Missy Adeline Boey!! keke (possibility for her to read this post is 0) XD anyway, all the best in everything.. It has been long time since we last met in high school... :( If not seeing her in future, I am going to forget how she looks like.. hehe hope to catch up soon... :)
Second person is, my ex-high schoolmate plus National Service(Delta) same batch and group which is Mr. Yin Hoo.. and he is such a busy guy.. haha.. anyway, may ur dreams come true... XD

The starting of this blog is so damn lame? yeah, agree! I have so many things to write down, but don't know where to start of.. So, step by step, will start with November.. ~~Oh great~~, it is such a busy, stressful,headache month.. one assignment is going to deal in this coming friday.. and I haven't started yet.. (good student, isn't it? :p) class test and other assignments are coming up... and I still feel so lazy... gosh, please get rid of this lazziness..... anyway, the only assignment which attracting me is accounting, and I wonder who will be my assignment-mate.. *wink wink*

My youngest aunt came back to Malaysia and work for few months.. she will be going to perlis on 4th Nov, if I am not mistaken.. so currently, she will be staying with me and my mom.. even though we are staying together, but hardly can meet up.. By the time she reaches home, I already in my dreamland.. and when I wake up in the morning, she is still sleeping.. so yeah, the timing is really upside down.. oh ya, one thing, she bought a white Iphone 3GS few days ago... *sigh* I wish that she will come to me and say: girl, this phone is for u as ur Christmas's present! XDD nothing is impossible right? hehe

Don't knnow why suddenly no mood to continue writing.. maybe now I am headache-ing with my managing service's assignment.. TT ok la, will back once I finish my college stuffs.. take care dudes!

Hola hola~~ XD

2009-10-17T23:06:00.004+08:00

well well well, I can't deny that I am getting lazier day by day... :)
thanks to the APIIT's holiday lor..
First, is Raya's holiday, then after a week, is our semester break..
Our syllabus still haven't cover until half.. let's see this semester what kind of result I can score.. keke!

I had 2 bad dreams in this weeks..
seem so real..
scared until I woke up in the early morning..
hopefully, it's just a dream, won't happen in reality.. XD

so, let me recall back what kind of wonderful and fun activities I had in this few weeks..

09-10-2009
Hang out with Andrew, Jue Lin, Kelly and Kelly's friend-Guo Bing.. We had sushi zamai for our lunch.. so much of non-stop laughter, from sushi zamai brings to Garden mall, then brings to midvalley and carry the laughter to Andrew's car.. me and kelly really laugh like a mad girl, if you people don't know us, somehow, you guy will think that we got problem, a BIG problem.. lol!enjoyed anyway!! XD

11-10-2009
Kenneth suddenly organized a gathering for 5P1's member.. Those people who joined this gathering were Corey, Choon Yip, Yap Ning, Chee Jong, Billy, Kok Wai, Gee Hau, Gui Yang, John, Siew Ching, Hui Yee, Kit Ying, Hui San, Weng Fei, Kai Yean, Kenneth, and me.. After the lunch, we went for a movie called rebellion? (not sure the spelling is correct or not) The worst part was, THEY ALL throw me to sit with my gor. zzz even yap ning also joined them to bully me.. sad sad... =.=" anyway, overall the gathering is nice.. haha have so much fun ... XD hope we will have another gathering before the Christmas like last year..
*group pictures are in my facebook, lazy to upload here.. hehe*

13-10-2009
This is sui poh, Miss Phyllis's big big day... means she old already, aww~~ fiinally!! :p so, I brought her to pyramid.. my plan was, we will have our lunch at Asia Cafe, then have snowflake, then only go pyramid.. while eating at Asia Cafe, I suddenly remember that snowflake open at 1pm.. but not that sure, so I sent a message to Chen chen for the confirmation.. When I received Chen's message, my heart breaking into many pieces... my snowflake~~~~~ :( ok, we continued our shopping plan in pyramid.. we went to HTC retailer to check out the HTC Hero.. ask ask ask, then the person told me that, if I don't like the chin of the Hero, I can wait until the HTC Tattoo, which is almost same with Hero, but this phone is chinless.. furthermore, they still not sure that HTC tattoo will launch in Malaysia or not.. but when I surf the websites, the Tattoo's features is not as good as Hero.. So, I still prefer Hero.. wait a minute, I think I go out of the topic already.. pai seh, hehe.. After HTC retailer, we went to search for some beg.. Saw a nice beg in treat, well I aim for tat at this moment, waiting for sales or anyone is so kind-hearted can sponsor me that beg? hehe.. then Phyllis spotted a handbeg in playboy, and it costs RM499.. @@ we stayed in Pyramid for 4 hours, then brought her to another place and treated her a cake.. hehe.. may ur dreams come true.. hahaha!
*pictures are in my phone, lazy to upload again.. hehe*

17-10-2009(today)
Happy Deepavali to all my Indian's friends... :):)
Went to Maha's open house this afternoon with my mom.. total got 6 people joining this celebration.. hehe .. had a delicious cookies and food by Maha's mom and aunty.. enjoyed so much and thanks to Maha and her family once again.. XD
*pictures are in Maria's phone.. hehe*

after that, went to Jusco Maluri, and shopping with my mom..
They are having a super mega sales lor.. All the branded beg are having mega discount..
nice but after the discount, still over my budget, RM500 plus plus leh, how to buy o...
so end up, bringing empty hand back.. XD

oh ya, I got my last semester result few days ago..
seriously, I am extremely not satisfied with my result..
somehow, I can do better than what I did..
because of this poor results, my CGPA drops until I got no eyes see.. TT
anyway, I will work harder, harder and harder in this semester..
wish me luck dudes! :)

ok, have to go for my accounting homework..
if not, have to see his bad face on tuesday..
tada~~

update!! :)

2009-09-26T21:55:00.004+08:00

Fuyoo!!
So long didn't update my blog already.. hehe
To make sure that I am still alive in this world, so I've decided to get rid of my lazziess.. :)
Well, I am pretty good, or should say I am very enjoying my life this few months..
cause:

1. I am now in my last semester of the diploma, once finished, I can scream like hell:" I've finally completed my diploma.." It really takes such a long long period to finish this 'wonderful' course..

2. Tried something new such as went gym with Phyllis.. *at the end, still~~~ FAT!!*

3. Catch up with many friends such as my dear Yap Ning, my dear NS gang etc...

4. Went back JB twice and enjoyed myself there..

5. shopping shopping shopping~~~

6. eating eating eating~~~ (my grandmother's food, sushi zamai, haagen dazs)

7.dreaming dreaming dreaming~~~ (HERO, handbag, shoes) kekeke!

so yeah, basically I have many things to update..
but I have to cut everything short and use 7 words to summarize everything~~

I am very enjoying my life now.. :):)

I just back from JB..
I've been spending my raya holidays in my hometown..
last saturday morning, once I woke up, I was so semangat to drive back to JB..
but today, once I woke up, I was so lazy to drive..
I don't want to leave my grandmother.. (sounds like I am still a kid..)
now, I miss my grandmother so badly.. :(

yeah, everytime when I go back to my hometown,
my grandmother will cook my favourite food for me..
whatever I feel like eating, she sure will cook for me..
my beloved grandmother, take good care of me very well since I was a baby, even until now..
but this time, when I went back,
she is getting old, thin and very forgetful.. heartache.. :(
when I hold her hand, I really wanna cry out already..
I love her more than anyone..

but now, she is very easy to feel tired..
this morning, she looks so tired, yet she still insists to prepare a wonderful lunch and some food for us( me and my mom) to take back to KL..
and guess what?
she is actually not feelings well as she is having fever.. :(

so yeah, if I won't continue study in APIIT, I might be going back to JB once I completed my diploma course for some reasons..
I think my mom also will agree with me.. hehehe
anyway, it's still early to conclude and made any decisions now..
so one thing I can do is : go back to church and pray hard..
and God, please give my grandmother a good health...

oh ya.. I am wondering how come so many people are getting marry this few months..
I got many invitation.. should be happy for them but sad for me.. hahaha!
I went for a wedding ceremony last Sunday..
Had a great food, enjoyed their happiness.. (most important, the environment damn nice-the wedding held at Danga Bay..)
and one thing that cannot be missed- both of them really very cute and pretty..
next tuesday, is Fann Wong and Christopher Lee turn..
Congrats.... XD

went many shopping centers in JB..
spot some handbags..
but still, out of my budget..
so, I am saving my money now.. hehe

ok la, drove for 4 hours today, pretty tired now...
gotta go to my lovely bed..
tada~~

End of it..

2009-08-06T22:10:00.007+08:00

Was reading one of my friends blog just now.. In a sudden, got many feelings wanted to say out.. That's the reason why I decided to sign in my blogger.. :)

I agree that is better for a girl not to suspect whether her beloved or lover is cheated over her or not.. Trust is the most important thing in a relationship.. Eason taught me this.. and I learned and applied it.. Somehow everyone has a secret and there is always a reason behind the secret. For an example, if a guy choose to lie to his girlfriend, perhaps he just don't want to see his girlfriend sad..

He lied on me.. in many or perhaps almost everything.. but I choose to remain silence as in I love him so much.. Everyone can feel it whether the person really like you or not.. So far, from the very beginning until end of our relationship, I can't even feel that he loves me.. His friends, phone are much more important than me..

tried to bring the memories belongs to us and happiness to him.. Even as a normal friend, whatever happy incident I bring to them, they will remember, they will keep bringing out the memories in our conversation Unfortunately, if you really can't feel ANY happiness and don't have ANY memories belong to us, there is ONLY one word I can describe about you, which is: HEARTLESS.. and I most hate heartless people..

while I am writing this, I am listening the song of 'Just when I needed you' .. Well, is a sad song, for me.. Seriously, this few days I could not concentrate on my studies.. Thinking of what he told me from the beginning and compare to how he treated me.. sad of course.. but hey! sad because of a person who don't know how to cherish you? worst of all, sad because of a HEARTLESS person? yvonne chew, you are really very insane! By the times when he knows how to cherish me, everything is too late.. Sad moment already over and I am not an insane, that's why, today my study mood finally come back already!! :):)

LOVE and LIFE ..

L- Lots

O- Of

V-Various

E-Emotions

In LOVE, we will have many emotions, which are happiness, sadness, jealousy, angry, trust and untrustworthy, sacrifice and many more feelings.. You will only know what is love when you have gone through all these feelings and action as well..

L- Leader

I-In

F-Final

E-Efficient/Excel

In LIFE, we are not only go through all the happiness as in life is not only a straight road, and there is not only one way journey.. In a worsen situation, if a human can handle it well, that means he/she is an excellent leader in life.. He/She must have to gone through all the complexity and unhappy moments, then only will become a tough person, can only consider he/she is fully succeed in their life..

I will upload my latest picture, which I took it just now.. hehe Well, it's actually kinda scary, I admit.. So, if you guys don't want to have a nightmare, better don't scroll down.. ^^

Don't blame me, already told you guys don't scroll down jor... hehehe :p Anyway, I took this while I am doing my revision, so the expression got abit weird? keke and I know I fat already.. so, my diet plan on back.. ^^ ok la, have to go back to my revision now le, take care dudes!

logging off..

worth or not worth?

2009-07-28T23:18:00.002+08:00

today very tired, but don't know why still feel so energy..
many things happened in a day..
if can, I will choose not to care..

met up with my best buddy today..
planned of doing revision with her..
then recived Dad's call.. (it's a bad news but I will skip it cause is out of the topic)
so we went to Old Town White Coffee..
and then she told me about her love problem..
so this is the reason why I am here..

yea, I asked her to give up cause the fella ain't worth to love with..
somehow, if a guy really likes a girl, he will understanding the girl, care about the girl, not to dump nor leave the girl in that way..
sometimes treat the girl so good, sometimes treat her so cold..
It is really hard to know what is HIM thinking about..
so I immediately ask her to give up..
I know is hard and really needs much time..

after finish listen her story, I feel like I am having the same situation like her..
I really mind the two sentences that he told me..
even though it is just a small matter, but still it's hurt.. deeply hurt..
He will never never know how hurt is that..
sometimes, I really don't know what he is thinking about..
I know he does everything sure got a purpose..
izzit including our relationship?
now, I got the answer already and I know 'how much' he really likes me..
is not that I don't want to trust..
is I feel that I am not even as your friend..
I am worst than your normal friend.. ( not to say no, I can proof it!)
If a guy really likes a girl, he will feel like wanna protect the girl..
he will wanna share the girl's problems with her not leave her alone to face all the problems..
so that day in the phone, i asked about that question, I got the answer now le..

what's really in your mind??
I really want to know..
if you really feel not happy, just tell me you don't feel happy at all..
i don't want everytime when I ask you, you say happy..
but at the end?
I just want an honest answer, not to have lies in a relationship..

well, if you think you will be more happy without me, I will let you go..
if I never bring any happiness to you, then I will just tell you that, I did my best already and tried to create those memories belongs to us..
but now, it seem like all my effords are not working..
until now, still you don't understand me enough..
if not, we won't have so many misunderstanding in between us..

If you are reading this, you might be thinking this is a bad news or whatever.. but I just wanna pour out what I am really thinking of and I really don't want to force you doing the thing that you don't like.. maybe without me, you will feel more happy..

so?

finish my feelings le.. can be another sleepless night for tonight? maybe yes or maybe no... good night dude!

Iphone 3Gs ..

2009-07-27T21:49:00.004+08:00

Basically everyone knows that Iphone 3Gs is going to launch in Malaysia in coming 4 days, which is on this coming friday.. Well, can't deny that I am one of the APPLE's fans.. XD haha, so IF i got money, I sure go and buy the Iphone 3Gs, ELSE I can go to my dreamland and steal the Iphone from maxis le.. :p

And when I read the advertisement in the newspaper, it's really a miracle that maxis is having such a reasonale price for the Iphone.. yea, kinda shocked.. :):) Anyway, I haven't get into the point that why I like Iphone so much right? here we go~~

Many company try to plag Iphone's design, but still~~~ no comment. That's why at last I still like the design of the phone XD
I've been tried for SOME phones which are touch screen series, and seriously, I touch until very frustrated and wanna throw the phones.. I need to press kinda hard only can proceed.. That's another reasons why I prefer the Iphone as their touch screen very sensitive XDD
really improve alots compare to the first series of the Iphone xD
90% of the Iphone users will continue using the latest Iphone. On the other words, they are satisfied with the phone products.
the features are getting more and more such as : video recording and speed increasing
I am one of the Iphone lovers... keke :p

I am currently waiting for the price to drop drop and drop even though now the price is reasonable.. hehehe ( I know I still need to wait for half or another one year, never mind, since I am very patient geh, I can wait =D ) anyway, I can't wait until this friday weh... I sure go maxis there and nosy around there :p

my dream phone-Iphone 3GS!! :):)

Promises~~

2009-07-22T12:00:00.003+08:00

yeah.. I did promised to someone that I will open my blog back after my birthday..
But I am really busy at this moment..
many things happened to me..
I hate it..
the feeling is just like: get out!!
I don't trust everyone in this world..
even the person that I love..
The only person that I can believe is in myself, at least at this moment..

since you already decided to close your blog..
then just go..
I don't care anymore..
I most hate to force people doing the thing that he/she don't like..
anyway, I am kinda emo right now..

For those readers who still read my blog..
I will post a new post up by this week..
bye and take care..

28th June 2009

2009-06-28T21:40:00.006+08:00

Well, well,
when i wake up this morning,
i wasn't in a good mood actually.
maybe,
headache with my assignments and class tests..
starting from tomorrow,
every week, I will be having one class test and hand in one assignment..
month of July~~
I should be happy cause it's my month..
but, this year is different..
unless got people can give me some surprise.. =)
unfortunately,
3rd July- Business economics test
7th July-Business economics assignment
13th July-Organization Behaviour test
14th July-Managing in Information System assignment
20th July-Networks & Networking assignment..
God Bless me plsss. :(:(

maybe too stress in my assignment le..
this morning, when I bathing that time,
guess what I did?
I apply the body shampoo on my hair..
DAMN!!!
argh, maybe when people who are not in a good mood, do what also that blur.. ==

then went tuition..
after the tuition,
go dinner with my gor..
hahaha..
long time didn't meet him up already..
the last time i met him was on Christmas day..
so, we choose some place where are not that jam..
(wanna come back early to do my assignment)
while inside his car, i told him that i feel like eating Madam Kwan..
and whatever food I mentioned, he also say no problem..
anyway, he promised he will treat me REAL shark fin soup just now.. :p

when we reached Madam Kwan..
woah~~~
damn full, if you didn't made a booking,
you won't have a chance to eat it tonight..
so we changed our dinner to fish manhattan!!
whee whee~~

since gor said I can order what I want and there is no limit,
and I am so hungry..
so I order two dishes..
hehe

the first dish, since I am too hungry already, so didn't snap the photo down..
the second dish, taa deng~~~

haha, very very nice ^^

while waiting for the food to come, hehe show you guys who is my gor.. hahaha

very sampat right? yea I know.. keke *he is gonna kill me for uploading this photo up*

he said I changed already oo..
well, for me, he changed alot also..
(or perhaps, I don't observe he is having this attitude?? lol)
he is getting more and more gentleman le..
hahah, *eh, happy or not, i praise you weh :p*
when i bought a packet of sweet, then while we are walking, he asked me: you need I help you to take or not?
then, when he sent me back to take my car, he insists of sending me to my car but I rejected cause I think of only few steps and since I ate until very full, so I wanna do some exercise..
who know?
he really follow me at the back and SEE me getting inside my car then only he went back..
lolx, how sweet he is neh..
feel so lucky to have a gor gor like him.. =)
class going to start next week right?
know you will start busying le, all the best in your studies..

haha, enough crapping le..
so now, have to go back to my assignment..
take care everyone.. :)

peaceful life

2009-06-20T23:07:00.004+08:00

I just want a peaceful life..
Is that so hard for that?
Is that consider a too much request in a life?

I respect you..
but can you just stand on behalf me and think of it?
when you don't have enough money that time, I give you my money..
I never ask you to pay for the petrol money..
but you treat me just like your driver, demand me to send you here and there..
you don't even appreciate me..

Do you really think that I need a part time job if I really have enough money?
when I have a car, service, parking tickets, toll, incurance, road tax, everything just need money!
and my saving is going to finish soon..
I am not a bank that produce money..
but what you said to me?
I like money so much, so I teach tuition.
why wouldn't I spend the time to other places such as hanging out with friends or do revision?
hurt..

you scolded my tuition students..
do you think they will respect you?
you switch on the television and increasing the volume..
what they will think of you?
you already chase all my previous tuition student,
now if this tuition also gone, will you responsible it and pay the money to me?
no, you won't cause I know you extremely well..

I need freedom.
I just want to do the thing that I should do.
but everytime you just control my life..
I have to follow what you want me to do..
this is suffering..
can you being more understanding a little bit?
and stop banging the door, switch off the light while i am bathing..
I just want you to respect me back..

a memorable day..

2009-06-07T22:50:00.004+08:00

Ever since my gor wanna know my latest life, so here is my latest post.. =)

today..
my mood is damn happy..
the whole day, spending my time with someone special..
for someone, he might be crying now..
(you should know the reason why? hehe :p)
take out the receipt and calculate it.. XD

the first time, go hang around inside ikea with him..
It was his idea and I don't keen it when he told me his idea..
BUT,
when we enter in, we test and play alot of their furnitures..
we enjoyed ourselve there..
fun, really fun..
and you know what?
it's a great feeling when you hang out with the one that you like in a furniture shop..
cause you will hope that, one day, you and him will have a sweet sweet home.. =)

you know what's the moment that I hate the most?
the moment of saying goodbye to him..
I don't know when I will be having such a great day with him again..
so, I don't want to say goodbye to him..

leaving him just for the past 1hour and 30 minutes,
yet I started to miss him so badly..
I hope he will just right besides me now..
hug me tightly like how he usually hug me..
give me a goodnight kiss like how he usually kiss me..

ok le..
got to log off now as I am going to meet him in my sweet dreams now..
heheh
xoxo

p/s: my semester break is starting from tomorrow, anyone is free, can ask me out for a drink ya..
:):)

Tagged by Woon Woon

2009-05-31T11:13:00.004+08:00

1. Besides your lips ,where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?
hmm, forehead i think..

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning ?
will wake up 10 more minutes later.. :p

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with ?
pam.. using Afey's mac air.. lol

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled ?
probably yess..

5. Will you ever donate blood ?
can u imagine a person will faint immediately when she sees blood can donate blood? so, what do u think? :p

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex ?
lolx.. yup

7. Do you want someone to be dead ?
nope..

8. What does your last text message say ?
to snuffel de, so it's ~~S.E.C.R.E.T~~ =)

9. What are you thinking right now ?
what I will be doing the whole day..

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right now ?
definitely la..

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
around 1.30am

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
my grandmom bought it from pasar pagi (morning market)..

13. Is someone on your mind right now ?
yes, wonder he is still a pig now.. XDD

14. Who was the last person who text you ?
snuffel XD

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz:
1.Chee Jong
2.Kok Wai
3.Su Chen
4.Hui See
5.Chin Han
6.Phyllis
7.Chee Hoe
8.Kit Ying
9.Keh Huat
10.Yee Feng

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with ?
single.. (kok wai, I guess it correct or not? :p)

16. Is no.3 a male or a female ?
female

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together , would it be a good?
well, I don't think both of them are gay.. xD

18. What is no.1 studying about ?
ACCA in sunway college

19. When was the last time you chatted with them ?
so many, who do u mean wor?

20.Is no.4 single?
not sure wor, only know she got many admirers.. xoxo(dear, don't kill me ya hehe)

21. Say something about no.2
well, he is really a nice friend to be.. very loyal to the one he loves and well, will very easy to get hurt as well.. not a bad guy but is a mature guy..

22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being together ?
lesbian =)

23. Describe no.9?
LOLX.. I used to call him as 'huai zai' when we were in high school time.. a very quiet guy.. like to smile when i bully him.. == his handwriting damn neatly de, at least neatly than me.. xoxo very good in drawing.. =) enough? or still want me to continue? ;p

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight ?
can't imagine that.. no7 will lose cause he will never fight with a girl, somemore is a leng lui.. ;P

25. Do you like no8 ?
definitely, what a cute and nice baby she is.. =)

update time! =)

2009-05-23T18:04:00.004+08:00

It's time to update my blog..
I also don't know where to start.. hehe
Well, I will just start with~~

my classmate KIT WAI came back yesterday..

oh no.. that means I am gonna let him 'zat' back in class already.. :(
anyway, welcome back and where is my present?
I want big big de present ya!! Don't forget to bring it on Monday.. hehe :p

Can't wait until next week..
for three reasons..
first one, not to release at this moment..
second one, my dearest aunt will back to KL for two days..
means, I will have many handbags, cap, watch, and some clothes.. xD
and she came back actually got another thing to do..
hopefully, she won't say: girl, you fat alot already, start keep fit now!! :(
and for the last reason will be: BUH bye to my SAD module..
so after next week, I can watch night at the musuem 2 le.. anyone interested, can ask me along ya.. ^^

was staying at my best friend's house last week..
when I reached her house, her brother came out and bring me in..
and when I step inside her house, her dad and her were waiting me there..
then her dad touch my head and say: silly girl, everything will ok soon..
I really feel so touch..
uncle somemore say: this is part of the experience in life.. when you can overcome it, you are actually learning something on it, this wil make you grown up and be more mature.. don't care about your family stuffs at this moment, be what you should be, do what is your responsibilities..
actually, I knew this principle long time ago..
sometimes, it's just hard, hard to go through it..
but don't know why, when uncle told me that time, I feel so warm, so calm..
and I feel like calling uncle: dad..

let me explain first..
I read an article about friend vs best friend long time ago..

Friend: calls your parents by mr. and mrs.
Best friend: calls your parents dad and mom.

Friend: has never seen you cry
Best Friend: has always had the best shoulder to cry on

Friend: never asks for anything to eat or drink
Best friend: opens the fridge and makes herself at home

Friend: asks you to write down your number.
Best friend : they ask you for their number ( cuz they can't remember it)

Friend: borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back
Best friend: has a closet full of your stuff

Friend: only knows a few things about you
Best friend: could write a biography on your life

Friend: will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing
Best friend: will always go with you

At first, I can't get it..
why you will call your best friend's parents as dad and mom?
now, I completely understand it as I can feel it..
thanks God, let me to meet this friend up..
always be my side no matter what..
cry with me when I am crying..
and I learn one thing from her family, tolerate with each other..
Thanks Phyllis dear..
appreciate many things that you did to me..
I wanna wish you all the best in your final and must update after your exam..
Don't dump your blog in this way wei.. so pity.. xD

Oh ya.. Von von is having a semester break in 3rd week of June..
and I feel like wanna go vacation..
anyone is free, do let me know ya..
ok la, I think I have to get back to my thing..
have a nice weekends.. =)

人生

2009-05-10T22:20:00.003+08:00

突然间，
有很多我的想法，我很想把它抒写出来。
我真的很想知道你们觉得我是个怎样的人。
现在的我，
真的觉得很辛苦，真的!
我很想大哭一场。。

最近，实在发生太多事情了。
终于，
我再也不能承受了，累到我真想睡了就不想再起身!

我想我在朋友们的眼中，
应该算是乐观，脸上常带着笑容的吧!
对我而言，
我的烦恼，我的问题，我从不让我的朋友知道。
除非，那个朋友值得让我信任。。

我的父亲，脾气还是那么的坏；
我的母亲，还是老样子。。
那一天，
我在忍无可忍的情况下，
打了通电话给文诗。。
我竟然说出了这句话: 文诗，我现在很想自杀!
我真的失去了安全感，对这个世界，人为，感觉到十分的厌倦!

可能是我家庭的关系，
使我不想待在家中，
使我很想早点组织一个家庭。。
很可惜，
我在我的感情世界里，受了重伤。。
对任何一个追求我的人，防有戒心!
因为只有这样，我不会再增加我的伤痕。。

突然间，
我很想念我的阿嬷。。
从小到大，她把我照顾得无微不至。。
到现在，每每我遇到问题时，
她都会很紧张的联络我。。
听到她那紧张的声音，我觉得我真的很没用，
我都这样大了，还需要阿嬷担心我。。

很多真实的事情，
并非像你们所看见的酱。。
表面上，我很开心，很乐观；
私下的我，开心，快乐都不存在我的字典里。
真我，
只有那些看过，听过我的泪水声。。

人生，
充满着希望，梦想，美好的事情。。
我对我的人生是:
我只希望我能得到真正的快乐，知道‘幸福’，这两个字是怎样写的。

My blog is back..

2009-05-10T20:25:00.002+08:00

yeah, due to my laziness,
so I wanted to close my blog..
too many things happened on me lately..
annoying, stressful, almost wanna burst already..
plus my friends are concerning about my blog,
I decided to re-open back..

lately, very tired..
my mom lost her car..
klang and cheras,
running here and there..

got my result on last friday..
thanks God, I pass all my subjects..
at least I no need to worry about my result..
but, 5 assignments are coming..

anyway,
my blog is back now..
and I hope I can update more often..
take care dude.. :)

机会，不会再有第二次

2009-05-06T19:55:00.003+08:00

曾经何时，
我问过一为朋友，

我: 如果她真的有了你的孩子，你会如何去解决?
他: 能怎样解决，不就把孩子拿掉啦!

我顿时傻了一下。也难怪他会有这样的想法，现今的社会你问同样的问题，十个有八个会这样回答。
男生到底把女生当成是什么啊?
利用完了，就酱把她们抛弃吗?
有没有想过她们的想法是什么?

曾经何时，
我遇过一位女生愿意为了她的男友，什么事情都做。
可是，他的男友根本就不值得她这样的牺牲啊!
她根本不知她的男友在她的背后做了许多对不起她的事。
我看见了，只能把自己当成哑巴。
因为，
当她知道后，她会说:没关系，我相信他，他会改的。
又或着，
她根本就接受不到这个事实!
看了真辛酸。。。
是否觉得这位女生很笨?
她并不是无条件，何必把自己弄得这样不开心呢?
不论你有多喜欢他，可是他所带给你的伤害，足以让你能真正的放弃他。
理由就是:他不值得你这样为他!不值得!!

女生真正内心的想法，只有女生才能了解。
也就因为酱，
情侣们，夫妻们，都会为了有的没的吵了起来。
被自己喜欢的人，一而再，再而三的伤害自己，
没亲自体验，是不能了解那是多么的痛!
一次一次的道歉，一次又一次的原谅，
伤上加伤，已形成了一道无形的疤痕。

女生，是否该为了自己而学自私一点，
狠下心肠，拒绝原谅?

或许，女生们自私一点，才能保护自己。
或许，女生们自私一点，才能显示出我们的自尊。
或许，女生们自私一点, 才能让男生们觉得，女生是需要被尊重的。
女生，是被保护的 ‘动物’。
女生，是需要被疼，而不是被伤害的!

是否要等到失去后，才发现她的好，才发现她是多么的重要?
很可惜，机会不会常有，一旦失去了，他们就开始觉得很惋惜。
为何不在失去前，去珍惜她们?
好好对待她们呢?

我是为女生，我想我是时候在感情上学自私了吧! :)

Activities in a week..

2009-04-20T22:10:00.006+08:00

14th April 2009- Tuesday

Went Jogoya with Phyllis dear, Jane, Jasmin and Sharon.. 3 monash gang and me alone is from APIIT.. haha so, while waiting for Phyllis's dad come UM to fetch me, I took some camwhore.. ^^

Hehe, put on some nature make up.. =)

Since the late lunch is the cheapest,2pm-4.20pm, and Jane got the buy 2 free one ticket, we appointed to meet at 1 something at the KL sentral monorail.. So yeah, everyone just didn't take their brunch.. the food is not bad, and each of us only paid RM48.88 including service charge and tax.. I know it's cheap cause we met up a kind-hearted and handsome uncle.. XD so, the group photo, is still with Jane, can't upload here.. hehe

15th April 2009-Wednesday

nothing special.. as usual going to college.. at night.. my mom brought me to connaught pasar malam and she bought 2 rabbits.. lazy to take photo.. hahaha

16th April 2009-Thursday

'dating' with Phyllis dear dear.. buy a creme dress with 10% discount.. and a formal trousers for RM39.. then while having McDonald, accidently saw Kit Wai, Ee Tuck, Chummy and ~~~ hahaha.. so shocked..

Camwhore again before meeting Phyllis dear up.. hehe

20th April 2009-Monday

Today is the third classes of Organisation Behaviour.. and yea the lecturer is making me so pissed off with him.. and not only me alone dislike him.. he is such a sucks lecturer.. the story begins~~
Group 1: when the members wanna explain their points, he determine their point is incorrect without finish listening thier explaination..
Group 2: which is me! when I wanna present our points, he stopped me from presenting and said: Kugan, you present it cause you are the one who write it.. wtf?
come one la please, we discuss and clearly understood each of the points before he write on the paper.. and before Kugan wrote on it, he did asked my permission also.. what the stupid reason you stop me from presenting?? next time when I am not doing anything, please don't say that I am not contribute myself! WHAT A BIAS LEATURER HE IS!! one more time he treats me at the same way and I will do feedback on you..
Group 3: without any asking, straight away scold them didn't listen what he is saying during the lesson.. wtf?
Fine.. I was like: today is monday leh.. why he wanna make each of us so so emo.. then I met my ex-classmate's best buddy in the foyer.. A very long time I didn't meet him already.. so today when I see him, I go and greet with him.. guess what is his first word to me? you changed alot.. "I know I fat already.. I wanna cry jor, so don't mention it anymore.." I answer.. "No ar, you are not fat ar, you change until very pretty only.." He continue.. I was like @@, he very seldom praise people pretty de wor.. LOL made my whole day up.. haha.. happy until I pull Ee Tuck and say: got people praise me pretty leh... wuahahha... very 38 I know.. XDD then while waiting my mom come and fetch me, I meet him up again, and he praise me once again to my another friend.. whee~~ hahahha

haven't finish my blog yet actually, will be continue soon.. good night~~

First day of class..

2009-04-13T22:52:00.005+08:00

Was back from JB yesterday..
My "jiu mu'' gave me some helpful advised few days ago..
seriously I am so so happy when I was at JB..
but when my grandma said: von, it's time to go back to KL now..
my heart starting to beat so fast.. :'(
still, I have to face it no matter what..
even though I wanna go back JB to continue my study, I still have to settle my studies in APIIT now..
so, this is reason why I am here.. :):)
once I graduate my diploma course, then only I think again which college to register in JB..
hehe..

This semester timetable..
I hate it so much..
espeacially Monday, from 10.30am to 6.00pm..
then when I reach home, my tuition kid standing outside the door already..
don't even have a chance to take my bath or rest..
so so tired..
starting from next week, made me can't even breathe..
slot in SAD 's timetable..
made me feel more tiring.. @@

While waiting for my mom to come and fetch me..
chatting with Woon, which I long time didn't have a good chat with him..
seriously, what he scolded me really hurt me even more..
no need to feel sorry for being so straight forward..
Now, when I think back what he scolded me just now,
I feel so so sorry to him and Joey..
(I'm really appreciate I got this 2 friends.. :) )
I am letting go now, trust me..
I need time, just give me 2 weeks time(the max) and I know I can do it.. :)
My timetable for this 2 weeks already FULL of lot of activities..
see, when girls ain't in a good mood, they will go for shopping and eat alot..
and I am one of them.. hehehe
I will update what I eat, what I will buy, what I will do when I am free.. so just stay tuned! ;p

so tired now..
probably is because of it's the first day of the class..
and this afternoon, having such a great day with Maha, her sister and her sister's friends..
they made me laugh until I stomach pain..
the happiness covered my sadness..
thanks for bringing all the joy...

ok, that's all for now..
really cannot stand already...
will be back soon..
good night dudes.. =)

Notice

2009-04-09T22:25:00.003+08:00

so yeah, I am now in JB..
It's actually a very sudden decision of my mom..

these two days,
happened an unexpected thing..
seriously, I am so scared..
now, my heart still beating so fast..
It's so hard for me to calm myself down..
My grandmom, my neighbour, they think it's a kinda serious case..
but my mom, she said I over worry..
I really really wanna tell what's happening to me to Shuffel..
but he is like so busy..
I couldn't have a chance to talk with him..
make me feel even worst.. :'(

When I reached my grandmom's house,
my grandpa, grandma and grandgrandma so happy when they see me..
make me feel like I don't want to go back to KL anymore..
I wanna throw all my sadness in KL..
really, I am really very suffering when I stay in KL..
only a person I don't bear to leave..
I don't know how to make my decision now..
so if you guys ( my classmates) didn't see me in APIIT for a week,
then you guys what's my decision already..
ok le, I got no mood to continue writing..
Ciao!

2009-04-06T23:41:00.003+08:00

another untitled post..
lazy but still have to update.. hehe
so, this post will be a very short and quick post for my kor and Eugene =)

Kor,
so sorry, yesterday wasn't in a good mood, so I released my anger on u..
my bad mood really up to the max, seriously, I also cannot stand it anymore..
called Phyllis in the evening and night for more than an hour..
say until half, then my tears drop down..
when you asked me what's happening that time, I really very angry because my mood still has not back to normal.. that's why I treat you so badly..

Eugene,
aiyo, wondering why each time when you come and find me to chat, I sure in a super down mood.. bad luck.. ;p
I am so so sorry for making you so worry about me..
thanks for be my sides even though you can't help me to settle my problems..
and thanks for still concerning me while you are doing your revision today..
seriously, I am really really touch.. =)
you are really such a nice friend to be.. ^^
tommorow your exam is coming right?
wish you best of luck.. and you always have my support..
looking forward to meet ya soon..

update finish!
hehe

Nine words women use

2009-04-04T16:23:00.004+08:00

I read this from an email few days ago..
For those who haven't read this, let's check it out.. :)

1. Fine
This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2. Five minutes
If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3. Nothing
This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

4. Go ahead
This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

5. Loud Sigh
This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6. That's Okay
This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7. Thanks
A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' .that will bring on a 'whatever').

8. Whatever
Is a woman's way of saying F*** YOU!

9. Don't worry about it, I got it
Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.

For guys, they must be 100% agree with this.. :p
Funny? True? or not true?
Anyway, you guys judge on it! :):)

Random

2009-04-01T22:10:00.003+08:00

Whee~~
First day of April, also known as April Fool.. hehe
But, when we are getting older, we usually don't have any mood to 'celebrate' on this day..
We will think of, you still playing with this ar, so childish?
So yeah, today I won't say something about April Fool..
Anyway, it seems like April will be a good month for me.. XD
becuz in this month got easter day la, will be starting my semester 2, approaching my brithday *wink wink* and so forth..

Oh ya, I changed my blog template already.. =)
very obvious, I know..
cause the previous template, I see until very boring already..
so, how is it?
JJ said: you got a bad taste for choosing your previous template.. ==
Phyllis dear said this template very nice..
for me leh, I think this template is much more better than my previous template..
actually, I wanna design the template out by myself,
but I have no idea at this moment plus those coding stuffs, so I temporary use this template.. =)

By the way, I am having 2 weeks of holiday now.. ^^
Ee Tuck so good loh, holiday-ing in Japan now.. T.T
I wish to go Genting.. =(
if can go with someone then lagi best oo.. :p
so leh, I am actually quite free want..
Anyone is so so free and kind-hearted wanna bring me out for yum cha? hehe

Ok la, crapping enough..
Wanna go sleep early tonight as I will be meeting snuffel tomorrow.. ^^
will be back soon.. =)

100 truths.. Tagged by Yaw Kwan

2009-03-29T22:04:00.005+08:00

001. Real Name :: Chew Yi Wen
002. Nickname(s)::Yvonne, Von, Vonney
003 Age :: 19+
004.Horoscope :: Cancer
005. Male or Female :: Female
006. Elementary :: Forgot already oh..
007. Middle School :: SRJK(C) Yoke Nam, SRJK(C) Foon Yew 4, SRJK(C)Chen Moh, SRJK(C) Pandan, SRJK(C) Yak Chee
008. High School :: Catholic High School, PJ
009. College School :: APIIT/UCTI
010. Hair colour :: Black
011. Long or Short :: Short
012. Loud or Quiet :: depends mood de wor..
013. Sweats or Jeans :: Jeans
014. Phone or Camera :: Phone and camera
015. Health Freak :: not at all =)
016. Drink or Smoke :: Drink
017. Do you have a crush on someone :: LOL
018. Eat or Drink :: eat and drink
019. Piercings :: hehe
020. Tattoos :: never
021. Social or Anti-Social :: Social xD
022. Righty or lefty :: Righty
023. First piercing :: N/A
024. First relationship :: standard 6
025. First Best Friend :: form 2, Phyllis
026. First Award :: primary 3, QUIZ BM
027. First Kiss :: LoL..
028. First Pet :: Dog (Gigi)
029. First Big Vacation :: Standard 5 (Thailand)
030. First Love at first sight :: none
031. First Big Birthday :: standard 1
032. First Surgery :: none
033. First sport you joined :: swimming

This or That
034. Orange or Apple juice :: orange juice
035. Rock or Rap :: rap gua..
036. Country or Screamo :: Country
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys :: Backstreet boys.
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera :: Britney Spears
039. Night or Day :: Night ( I hate sun )
040. Sun or Moon :: Moon
041. TV or Internet :: TV and Internet
042. Playstation or xbox :: both oso not..
043. Kiss or hug :: i prefer hug..
044. Iguana or turtle :: Turtle.
045. Spider or bee :: neither
046. Fall or spring :: Spring?
047. Limewire or iTunes ::iTunes
048. Soccer or baseball :: baseball

Currently
049. watching nba game :: nope
050. Drinking :: nope
051. Excitement level :: 5/10.
052. I'm about to :: sleep
053. Listening to :: 特务J
054. Plan for today :: watch drama
055. Waiting for :: someone's sms
056. Energy Level :: 5/10
057. Thinking of someone :: Yes =)

Future
058. Want kids? :: of cuz
059. Want to get married? :: no married wheregot kids.. ==
060. When? :: when both are ready of cuz..
061. How many kids do you want :: no idea..
062. Any name on the mind :: nope
063. What did you want to be when you were little :: mummy? LOL
064. Careers in mind :: businesswoman..
065. Mellow future or wild :: mellow future?
066. Something you would never try :: be friend with cat
067. When do you want to die :: see when God says: Yvonne, I am going to take you up!

Which is the better in the boy/girl you like (in the future)
068. Lips or Eyes :: lips and eyes
069. Romantic or Funny? :: both
070. Shorter or Taller? :: taller
071. Protective or Caring? :: both
072. Romantic or Spontaneous? :: romantic and spontaneous
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms? :: arms, can hug me warmly.. ;p
074. Sensitive or Loud? :: sensitive
075. Hook-up or Relationship? :: relationship
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant? :: neither..
077. Muscular or normal :: normal..

Have you ever
078. Kissed a stranger :: no
079. Broken a bone :: no
080. Lost glasses or contacts :: yes
081. Ran away from home :: yes
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence :: yes
083. Killed somebody :: if yes, then I won't be here..
084. Broken some one's heart :: yup..
085. Had your heart broken :: yes..
086. Been arrested :: nope..
087. Cried when someone died :: yes..
088. Liked a friend more than a friend :: yes..

Do you believe in
089. Yourself :: half half loh..
090. Miracles :: yes..
091. Love at first sight :: nope..
092. Heaven :: yes..
093. Santa Claus :: nope..
094. Tooth Fairy :: nope..
095. Kiss in the first date :: yes but never try before.. lol
096. Angels :: yes
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now? :: definitely..
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now? :: not really..
099. Do you believe in God? :: yes
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people
-Chin Han
-Kok Wai
-Hui See
-Su Chen
-Yee Feng

NZX

2009-03-16T21:07:00.009+08:00

This post supposed to be here on 13th March 2009..
But when I reached home, my mom is using my laptop..
She is not using for her work or chatting with my aunties in Canada/Hong Kong..
She is playing facebook!!
and yeah, she is addicted to facebook..
When I say I wanna use the laptop for awhile, she push me away and ask me go to sleep..
I can't go to sleep cause I am too full already..

I appointed with Phyllis on Thursday night since both of us were in a bad mood..
So, when my mom reached home, I SMS her and ask her to ready herself and wear BLACK shirt..
why black? cause it represents our mood loh..
when she got into my car, I told her that I wanna go NZX..
so yea, if you are the first time going to NZX, you sure will lost the way..
We reached there at 8.30pm, then decided to eat the steamboat..

The menu..

To save our cost, we ordered one set and two plain waters at first.. But when the food came, it's not enough for us.. So, I add on one more set..

Phyllis's Tom Yam soup.. nice nice^^

My herbal soup.. not bad

They got too many sauces already, we took 5 sauces only.. hehe

guess what happened while we are enjoying our food?
I broke their spoon!!
I know it's extremely embarrasing..
I also don't wish it happened ok..
luckly at that time, not much people there..

next next, look at our expressions..

We asked for the bill at 10.30pm..
then decided to have a walk cause both of us really full die..
all the shops closed except FULLHOUSE..
we went up to look for the clothes..
next time when I go NZX, I will go and try the FULLHOUSE..
before leaving there, we took some pictures with minnie..

Two little girls with the minnie.. Well, if you think we are FAT, you are absolutely wrong! We are just finish our dinner, so the effect, you know la.. =)

we are not only enjoying our food, we chit-chat alot of things also..
like hanging out with Phyllis.. cause I sure will feel better after that..
enjoy myself alot on that day.. =)

sorry..

2009-03-16T20:56:00.003+08:00

sorry for making you guys worry about me..
especially to my gor..
I am not telling anyone is because I think it's the problem between me and him..
The decision made me had a sleepless night..
miss him even more..

anyway, my final exam coming next week..
wish me luck..
especially visual basic..
visual studio, I am back!!
@.@

Short hair season..

2009-03-12T22:22:00.009+08:00

I promised my darling phyllis to blog about our new hair style long time ago..
but since I have been occupied with my assignments last few weeks, so I am delaying to post this up.. sorry dear, and here is it.. =)

well, in my class, Yi Lin is the first girl who cut her hair short.. but, I cut my hair short DEFINITELY is not because of her.. I made up my decision when I saw the picture that I took with Phyllis.. I really can't believe that's my hair!! Then the next day, I immediately went to cut my hair off.. She said my new hair style very nice and I think it's not that bad after all, hehe so I am actually quite proud with my new hair style.. But, when I go to college, GUYS gave me comments that they don't like my new hair style.. ok, I have to made the conclusion that: 99.99% APIIT guys like girls who are in long hair!!

Then, after a week.. It's Phyllis turns to cut her hair.. =)

Steal her pictures from her blog.. hehe XD

Pictures below shown how we currently look like.. better recognize us!! ;p

Lastly:

Adiós to my lovely long hair.. =(

9th March 2009

2009-03-09T19:54:00.003+08:00

Mom came back from JB this afternoon..
Well, I should be happy..
Instead, I am really happy especially my grandmother bought me Annie Chicken Rice and asked my mom to bring back for me..
yeah, I love Annie Chicken rice very much..
have been eating it since I was a kid..
until now, the uncle and aunty still remember me..
each time going back JB, sure will ask my grandmother bring me there..
Besides that, my grandmother knows that my voice wasn't feeling that well, so she brought me an organic honey..

After giving tuition, mom wants me to fetch my three tuition student back as their father is not free.. guess what? While driving my mom's car, I realizes that I am having DRIVING FOBIA!!! =( maybe mom made few times of accidents, plus I made few times of accidents, made me don't have any confidence to drive her car anymore.. I am so scared when I drive her car.. T.T

After that, my mom suddenly asked me a question.. which made my mood totally changed!
I tried not to think..
so I go and play my piano..
but, it made me feel more suffering until I immediately stop my fingers..
what to do?
I got a secret which I promised my dad not to tell my mom..
but I don't want my mom look so upset..
In between them, I can only choose ONE!
somehow, I am not really sure what I want..
If I know, I won't feel so suffering..
I really don't know what to do..
T.T

*snuffel bunny, can I lay in your arm and cry as loud as possible? =/*

The war finally come to the end..

2009-03-07T23:25:00.002+08:00

WHEE~~ =)
I can't believe myself has been gone through the hard period.. hehe
come come, a big applause to von.. xD
In a sudden, I feel so proud of myself...
and I can relax now already..

so, where should I start?
ok, I sick already.. =(
my voice totally changed!
guess what my friends said to me?
"Von, I more prefer your current voice leh.."
ZZZ
and yesterday, after taking the medicine,
I slept 16 hours!!
when I meet my dad this afternoon,
he said my voice is getting better..
for those freinds who like my 'sexy voice',
have to disappointed you guys already.. xD
definitely I MUST get well by this weekends as~~~
I can't wait to hang out with someone who is so important in my life..=)
next thursday, come faster weh..

besides that, von von has been home alone since last thursady.. =(
her mom went back to JB..
coming Monday only come back to KL..
she got no transport to go shopping..
haih
what to do? stay at home to wait 'fa mou'..
santa claus, can I have a car right now?

These few days, received many calls from college friends..
thursday, since morning until night,
non-stop SMSes and calls..
"Yvonne, my flash cannot run!", "Yvonne, my flash is so cacat, how ar?", "Yvonne, what's the code for this and that.." bla bla bla
@.@
I have to put my own flash aside, then settle their problems one by one..
worst of all, when I wanna save my flash, the program stop at that time..
made me have to redo again and again
keep doing the same thing very sien de..
and ya, overall, i think my flash is sucks..
is just good in interacting with the user only..
hahaha...
I know my drawing is so lame..
what to do as I got no talent in drawing also..
friday morning, received a call from *hem* a friend..
well, it's not a good news anyway..
he is just pissed off for something...
and I hope that some some one can STOP hurting other people..
you already hurt me so deeply, and I can still pretend I what also don't know..
but I HATE you keep hurting other people...
your attitude is getting too much!!
hrmmmpt...
please change your attitude..

next, I am going to write an acknowledgement for those people who helped me in my VB assignment..
first, I wanna thank Joey.. he teaches so patiently and really help me alot alot alot.. ok, I owe you a meal and you got my word!
second, Mr.Calvin.. (surprised that your name will appear here? hehe) I keep asking him what are the errors mean when I can't debug my program..
thirdly, Eugene... support me by mentally.. when I wanna give up my VB, his words will appear in my mind.. made me can't give up at last.. so scary.. @@
ok la, I think no more jor..

Just taken medicine, now feel so sleepy..
I have to log off now..
will be upadate soon...
buenas noches! XD

一周年

2009-02-21T00:08:00.003+08:00

不知不觉，已经有一周年了..
去年的今天，
真的不是一言一语能表达出我的心情.
当我知道真相后，
我尊重他的决定..
眼泪开始流了下来。。。

我哭，
不是因为我生气他!
是因为我讨厌我自己!
一直以来在我身边的这位男友，原来他有着自己的苦衷，自个儿的承受下来..
而我却一点都不谅解他，一直向他述说着我的不满!
我真的是一个很失败的女朋友，所以我放手了。。。

今天，
一周年了。。
对他的爱不但没有减少，反而增加了...
原因是因为我们彼此的坦诚，
使我们更了解对方。。。
千万别问我为什么还爱着他!
因为我回答不出。。。
所为他付出的，从没想过要有回报!
只是希望能尽我的能力，来解决他的难关。。。
只要能看见他的笑容，我觉得所付出的，一切都是值得的!

每每看见他时，我真的有股冲动想要紧紧的拥抱他..
因为，我真的很想很想去保护他那受伤的心灵!
别以为男生是很强壮的，所有的问题都能自己去面对，尤其是在他们的感情世界里。。。
我不允许任何一个人去伤害他，
决不允许!!

如果我们还能再从来一次，
我不会让他一个人去面对自己的问题，我会伴着他，牵着他的手一起去面对!
我不怕辛苦，因为能陪伴在他的身边，是我最快乐的一件事情!
会有这一天的到来吗?
我不知道。。
不敢抱着太大的希望，因为我害怕失望的越大!
最后，
衷心的祝福他能在来临的考试做到最好! =)

'Black' Thursday.. =(

2009-02-19T21:07:00.008+08:00

this morning, wasn't feeling so well,
so, my mom stop me at APIIT..
then, when I am trying to go up the stairs,
there are three dogs wanna climb the stairs too..
(black dog, white dog and brown dog)
when they see me wanna climb the stairs,
they come and follow me... zzz
hey, is not ONE dog, is THREE dogs follow me!!
doggies, if you wanna bite me or wat, can you guys just give me a signal such as barking?
if you remain silence there, how would I know what you guys wanna do to me??
so, I try to turn another way to escape them..
they still follow me so closely!!
APIIT guard is sitting there..
I was thinking: couldn't you come and help me?
In a sudden, I step the wet soil and fall down into it..
guess what happened?
they quickly turn away to keep distance from me..
then when I stand up, they turn back and look at me, like telling me:
'you are so embrassed us!!'
zzzzz
laugh laugh laugh!!
APIIT guard is like watching a funny scene there..
fine!!
(lucky still early that time, so no one see what's happening to me..)
then quickly run up to my classroom..
the worst part is: I am wearing white skirt and white shoe!!
before cleaning myself up, I do take few pictures..

thanks to you doggies!!

SAD, SAD and SAD!! =(

Mrs Kwan likes to bully people, everyone knows that..
I already no mood, she still wanna bully me in class.. =(
taxi driver also the same!!
I can't even feel that single of the words that come out from his mouth is actually fooling at me!

then because of meeting some people up,
made my mood feels so happy and temporary forget what happened in the morning..
even though it's just a few second..
when I enter into my classroom, many people come and asked me:
"yvonne, what happened to you? you looks so happy!"
hehehe..
one of my seniors even say this to me:
"eh, you happy that time, look pretty leh.."
LoL

then received an unexpected news!!
we changed our SAD lecturer..
well, it's a good news actually..
but when we checked our timetable..
EVERYDAY also have to go for the class leh..
haih...

go to find my mom in her office after class dismiss...
Mom want me to wait for her an hour as she wanna go and do exercise..
when she comes back, she want me to help her withdraw money from her bank..
on the way to the ATM machine, hell, two motorcyclists whistle at me!!
I was like: you two whistle again and I will yell as loud as I could!!
really damn humsup people!! >.<

specially to my gor...

2009-02-18T13:36:00.003+08:00

If now, u are asking me: mei, don't angry with me la..
I will tell u this: gor, i really forgot what I angry with you jor..
really.. these days i am super super busy..
in the way of sleeping.. lol
ok let's be serious..
I really scared of VB class test on coming monday.. =(
but everytimes when I just open the visual studio,
I feel so dizzy and headache..
I totally cannot face to the laptop..
so, I head into my bed and sleep..
thought of rest for half and hour then continue VB back..
who know? each times of the resting time, ended up at least an hour and half.. =(

VB, really cause me very very stress..
I am so helpless..
like what Eugene said:" where's the princess von's dignity?"
and thanks to him that let me find back a little bit of confidence in my VB..
and thanks for always be my side when I feel so down and helpless.. THANKS.. =)
tell you guys, 24 hours in a day is NOT ENOUGH for von von!! =(

yesterday night, I ignored you..
sorry gor, I was so so emo that time..
as I was doing my assignments and other things are bothering me..
lucky I have two of my bestest friends who accompany me and teach me what to do..
thanks lot ya yap ning dear and phyllis darling..
just feel so hang fok when I think of two of them..
always be my sides whenever I am super down..

see, i know you are having your own stress too..
busy with your dad's work..
that's one of the reason why I don't want to tell you what happened to me recently..
and I know you need me to help you to release your stress down..
(I got read your private blog weh.. hehehe.. see I so good, no matter how busy, also care for you de loh.. xD)
i am so glad that now, you know how hard your dad worked to give you and your family such a wonderful life..
I am so admire you actually, I want this kind of life also don't have..
(sleep less few hours won't die want, just for few days only ma right? because of rushing my assignmnet, I can't even sleep for few days yet I still have to attending morning class, more cham loh.. you got see I am complaining or not? I only complain I sick jor.. hehe)
so, less complain and more appreaciate, you will find out your life is different..
and then about *ahem*, you know who I meant.. XDD
how's you two going on?
you two look so miserable..
and please don't made me blur, I am now lacking of brain cells weh...

ok la, I sure will contact with you once I have gone though this hard period..
take care ya..

visual basic..

2009-02-16T19:57:00.002+08:00

I just hate you visual basic!!
making my whole day so sucks..
so headache...
yet I still gonna deal with you!

when I think of you,
I got no more appetite for my meal..
why are you so cruel?

once I sign in my MSN..
here come eugene's message..
then my reply to him, very obvious that I am so down..
really wanna cry out at that time..
wish some people can just right besides me and hug me tightly..
I am so sorry to eugence actually, really wasn't in a good mood that time..
not purposely wanna ignore you de.. sorry..
and don't worry, I promised you I will get at least a pass back..
pray hard for me ya..
and all the best in ur exam...

log off silently

valentines day..

2009-02-14T23:07:00.004+08:00

so dudes..
how's yours valentines day?

yesterday, my mom brought me to Jusco..
While eating at Mcd, I saw :

1. many guys gave roses to their girlfriend and hugging each other tightly..
2. best friends were talking so happily there..
3. the family members were enjoying hanging out.. (they came from China)
4. single? erm.. very very hard to meet a single people there..

I woke up at 12 noon today.. xD
yesterday, wanna do all my lab visual basic exercises.. but!
I ate my medicines at 9stg pm, at 10pm, my eyes totally cannot open!
decided to lay on the sofa awhile then be continue later.. who knows?
after ahwile, when my mom wake me up, I can't even stand properly,
so my mom chase me back to my room and sleep~~
until early the morning, my mom gave me the medicine again..
made me wake up at 12 stg... zz

then, when I checked my phone..
damn!
valentines wishes from my ex-colleague..
ZZZ
was actually thinking, what's so special on this day?!
If as couple, basically everyday is a valentines day for you guys..
we can also cherish and be with the dearest everday if we want..
I just don't understand why on this day, many guys will buy roses for their girlfriends..
buy chocolates and other things to make their girlfriends happy..
dudes, please don't tell me that you guy do all these only once in a year and it's on valentines day!!
until five something, received a msn Valentines wishes from other friends..
some even feels weird when I said I just staying at home..
what's wrong for a single girl staying at home?
ZZZ

anyway, I did happy for 'something' for awhile, then emo back!!
hrmmmptt..
always dump me in this way..
yea, I use 'DUMP'..
somemore say me always afk pulak..
fine la, suddenly feel so hungry,
I go and eat my supper now..
ciao~~

We come to love not by finding the perfect person,
but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly..
so cherish the one that you loved every single day,
every minutes, second and hour.. =)

2009-02-11T07:26:00.004+08:00

Now, is 7.26am..
Many people are still in their sweet dreams..
don't have any mood to blog anyway..
but I choose to continue writing here cause I don't know what else I can do in APIIT..

Yesterday, I had a sleepless night..
don't know is because of I slept too long for my nap or is because something else is bothering me..
I did something that out of my expectation yesterday..
and there is ONLY one people who know what I did..

To someone ( you know who you are ),
please don't feel bad for telling me straight forward..
I know you told me so is just for my own good,
and I am actually 'purposely' not 'accidentally' made up that decision..

I cried..
even now, while I am blogging in APIIT,
each of the words that I am typing now, still could not stop me from thinking of him..
Each of my firends is getting sickness to me, I know that..
Someone, if your intention is just to wake me up, well, you are successed!

Later, I will be having 4 classes of visual basic..
making my mood getting even more down..
what to do? have to thanks to Miss Debra..

Lastly, wanna write out one sentece that I used to tell my NS friends..

只要笑一笑，没什么事情是过不了的..

sound innocence, I used to think of it when I am in super down mood..
At least, better than I think in negative way right?

sick..

2009-02-10T20:46:00.005+08:00

A very quick update..

Von von fallen sick already.. =(
and I know, for those who saw me in APIIT today, 100% won't believe this..
cause I look so well and still very hyper active tim..
I won't blame you guys cause when I told my mom that I am not feeling well, she also doesn't believe me..
(but I have proof!! )

so, after class dismiss,
my mom brought me to see doctor cause I kept complaining not feeling well non stop.. hehe
then, when the doctor see me, her first question is: why are you here?
ZZZZ
I am here of cause I sick la, if not? come here to play with you ar..
got extra time, i rather go sleep better..
then she checked whether I got fever or not..
when she takes the termometer out, she said: got fever ar! who said no fever?
I was like: damn, then u still asked me come here for what? ZZZ
She continued: If your fever still no lower down in these 4-5 days, come back again and take a blood test!!
@_______________________@
My mom was besides me..
now, she finally believe that I really not feeling well..
(my mom and the doctor quite close want actually)
then, my mom asked her whether she is going to UK soon..
she answered this friday..
then I asked her going UK as travelling or staying there..
then she said she has 3 children, 2 boys 1 girl..
2 boys working there, going there just to visit them..

I requested for more stronger medicines.. as I gotta recover faster..
(3 assignments are still waiting me leh..)
Then she gave, and asked me wanna take MC or not..
tomorrow 4 classes of visual basic, if I take MC, i sure will miss out alot of things..
So, I said no!!
she praised me- HARDWORKING leh... LoL!

ok la, so it's proof time...

cough syrups..

pain killer..

this is not panadol.. this is panadeine.. (for fever and flu)

I hate medicines!! =(

真相

2009-02-09T00:07:00.004+08:00

Due to some people made me emo today, making my mood was in super bad mood.. So, I've decided to pour out whatever things I wanna say it out here..

真相，
对我而言是很残酷的。
但，在这现实的社会里，真相往往都会不存在。
因为有很多人会为了利益而出卖你。
而这些人，可能是我们的朋友，同学，工作伙伴或者是家里的至亲!
他们会在 ‘对’ 的时间踩你一脚。
为的是要夺得多一份的信任。。
这太可怕了!

我，是个不善于表达自己的一个人。
特别是，我真正的想法及感情!
在我不知情的情况下，我被人误会。
到最后，我还是选择默不作声。
不是因为我害怕，更不代表他们误会的就是事实!
是因为，不论我多么努力地去解释，到最后他们还是不相信，反而对我的成见更深。
就连跟自己喜欢的人说声心里话，他都不会相信。。
对他说的那句话，我决不会随随便便去跟别人说的。
可惜，他却从没想过我是提起了多大的勇气才说得出口。
最后，我选择了不把我内心的真正想法让他知道。
心痛，失望，灰心。。。

第一次被同学出卖是在我三年级那年。
知道真相的朋友都叫我把事实说出来，但我始终都没说。
只对他们说了这句话: 让时间及上天来证明一切!
直到现在，当我被误会的时候，我还是会说出这句话。
当我妈妈知道她误会我时，她会责备我不向她解释，我还是对她说出同样的一句话。
因为，我深深地相信，上帝会为我伸冤，只要他知道真相是什么就行了。
要承受这一切的一切，真的不容易，可是我以经习惯了。
不论是朋友，同学，工作伙伴或家里的成员，
我都习惯被他们误会了。

I will just bottle up my feelings..
如果想要知道我真正的想法，就请你相信我!
否则，请不要对别人说我什么事都隐瞒这你们。
好了，终于发泄完了!

what a week..

2009-02-06T22:25:00.003+08:00

I handed up two assignments already..
wheee~~~ =)
(this is what when I think positively, but if I think negatively, what would it be?)
I still have three more assignments to go.. =(

yeah, this week is my super busy week..
well, just two assignments only, I already feel that my brain is corrupted..
this morning, when I wake up, I am so so sleepy..
these days, I slept so late because of assignmnets..
definitely I feel tired, but I could not close my eyes and have a good rest..
maybe is because I am over tired already..
once I closed my eyes, here comes into my mind:
yvonne, how about your visual basic, SAD and the MMA 2 assignment?
Immediately, I open my eyes back..
really damn! making me feel more emo..

not only have to busy with assignments, I still have to handle the CLASS TESTS!! grr...
business statistic and visual basic..
but nowadays, I got to deal with the visual basic..
because Mr.Eugene promised me if I get B and above, he will treat whatever meal I want! If I get just pass, I have to treat him back.. =/ (hehehe! so, if you are free to read my blog, this is just a reminder for you.. and want you fast fast come back to Malaysia.. xD)

I bought a chocalate from yaw kwan today..
seriously I very seldom to buy chocolate..
(wait people to give me... oh ferrero rocher, where are you? ;p)
so, when I meet yaw kwan this afternoon which I last met him during my birthday last until today..
I bought the so called valentimes chocalate.. I bought it is not because of the chocalate or the packaging , is because of yaw kwan.. If he wasn't there, seriously, I won't layan.. (so, woon ar, touch? mamak, ur treat! XD )

Then Yaw Kwan only notice I had cut my short hair.. =( I asked him my new hair style nice ma, guess what he said?
he said: I could not recognize you when I see you.. I can only recognize ur dress..
me: =.=" (let him zhadou) then I asked short nicer or long?
he: long, I will be looking slimmer, short, is fatter..
me: (ok, fine, he really made me become speechless...)
the truth is not I long hair or short, is because I really fat already!!! =(
I am going to on my diet plan back..

ok la.. enough crapping here.. It's time to log off.. take care, dudes!

31th Jan 2009!

2009-01-31T23:11:00.003+08:00

Actually,I am just coming by to release abit bit..
Next week, due two assignmnets which are business statisitc and the proposal for the multimedia application.. =(
After next week, got visual basic test! then have to rush for the system analysis and design assignment and Multimedia assignment.. After that, I am having the business statistic test.. zz...

I am going to ***... How come APIIT's management so sucks want?? They arrage those lecturers that love to take so many leaves to teach us, and it's not only ONE lecturer is TWO lecturers!! and the timetables also.. How can you make the lab for visual studio immediately after business statistic??! (okay, actually got 5 min break time) Brain needs rest after 2 hours of working but not only 5 min!

Tomorrow here comes Feb!
I hate Feb!!
for many reasons of course!!
Feb made me busy like cow cuz of my college stuff and tuition..
Feb made me cry cuz of breaking up with some people that I love the most..
Feb made me crazy cause I will be super busy and sad..
Can I skip feb???

A complicate feelings..

2009-01-15T21:09:00.004+08:00

yeah... Everything that I wanna settle up, finally all done by today.. I am suppose to be happy.. but actually I am not.. maybe the last settlement wasn't like what I expected.. anyway, I won't mentioning here as I know each of my friends hear until very boring already... As I always say: Truth is always the cruel thing! Since it's the final decision, I am going to delete all the pictures later.. I just don't want to leave even a little bit of the feeling in my mind.. nah, I got no mood to continue writing here, I better go find my darling Wen Shi.. Ciao!

Where are you Christmas?

2009-01-14T16:00:00.003+08:00

I fall in love to this song lately..
*i know i know, this song already released long time ago.. hehe*
just love this song, because of the rhythm and lyric..

Where are you Christmas by Faith Hill
Where are you Christmas
Why can't I find you
Why have you gone away
Where is the laughter
You used to bring me
Why can't I hear music play

My world is changing
I'm rearranging
Does that mean Christmas changes too

Where are you Christmas
Do you remember
The one you used to know
I'm not the same one
See what the time's done
Is that why you have let me go

Christmas is here
Everywhere, oh
Christmas is here
If you care, oh

If there is love in your heart and your mind
You will feel like Christmas all the time

I feel you Christmas
I know I've found you
You never fade away
The joy of Christmas
Stays here inside us
Fills each and every heart with love

Where are you Christmas
Fill your heart with love

Thanks God for showing his love to me and made me feel like everyday is Christmas.. =) yeah, perhaps I should listen what my cell group leader advised me. "Bless your enemy! Your enemy will changed one day. Let's keep praying hard." That time, I was like: ok, I am not doing that as it's damn hard! you know, you didn't curse, or do whatever bad to your enemy already consider very good, still want me to bless my enemy? No! NO!! NOO WAAAY!!!

Everytime when I open my eyes from my sleep, I will think of the one that i love but today got a little bit special, I am not only think of the one that I love, I even think of the person that I dislike.. no matter what, it doesn't effect my good mood.. =) "Human is not perfect, it's okay to make mistakes, they will accept you for what you are!" (Bernice,2009) yeah, she is right, if everyone is so perfect, there will be no devil in this world. We are a sinner, but God still never give up, he loves each of us so much.. Ever since God forgives us, why couldn't I forgive my enemy? It's hard as I am a human but I am willing to try on it.. The things we always complain that we can't do it, but in God, he will changed everything into the best situation..

Last but not least, as Yvonne is still trying to bless the one that she dislikes it, she might give up easily.. So when Yvonne is giving up or complaining any bad things of others, do remind her one word: CHRISTMAS! Tata~~~ xD

Randomness..

2009-01-10T22:29:00.004+08:00

Don't know why I suddenly have so many things to blog about.. maybe is because of my good mood and yea, my mood is officially getting better days by days.. xD but, yvonne is still yvonne, cause she is lazy to categorize them so she decided to cut it short and make all into one post.. =)

Part 1:

yvonne already settle her family problem.. well, not 100% but at least 85%.. ^^

Part 2:

yvonne received her paid to get something that she owed to someone.. ^^

Part 3:

yvonne's lovely grandmother went back to JB this morning.. she misses her so much.. =(

Part 4:

yvonne is going to hang out with her darling next week.. ^^

Part 5:

it seems like yvonne is walking out from her sadness and settle everything up is just still left one more thing.. but I couldn't settle up these days as he is busy with his assignment and projects.. =(

Part 6:

Chinese New Year is coming soon, yvonne is looking forward to grab ang pao.. hehe ^^

Part 7:

the last part AND it's the MOST important part!! My darling is having a piano competition tomorrow!! *pray hard* hope to hear good news from you.. no matter what I will always support you want.. gambate!! muackss ^^

Now, I wanna go to bed already even though I am not tired.. cause you guys will see a new brand Yvonne starting from tomorrow.. =) Buenas noches!!

How much calories do I have for today?

2009-01-09T22:16:00.006+08:00

so if anyone knows how to calculate calories, please help me to calculate how much calories that I gained for today.. Thanks!

This morning, I hang out with one of my extraordinary friends, hmm, let's call HONEY! *wink wink*.. We went to Times Square to have our brunch.. We chose pizza Papa Johns.. We ordered 6" pizza for each person.. well, the 6" pizza is actually four slices of the pizza.. After that, we went Secret Recipe for our dessert! honey and I both ordered cheese cake.. honey wants is classic cheese cake mine is oreo cheese cake.. =) *oookaaay, I admit that today my mood is in super duper goooooooood mood!!! =D * after that, we shop shop for new year's clothes and shoes as well.. unfortunately, I don't have money, so~~~ will add them in my wish lists.. hehehe.. we wanted to watch movie, but there is no nice movies for us to watch, or I should say, all the nice movies we watched before.. ^^ We left times square at around 3.30pm..

look at the picture! and I know~~ I am so so so FAT!!! =( so, I decided to have a diet plan again.. today's dinner gonna eat very less.. BUT! haaaaaaaih... My lovely grandmother is going back to JB tomorrow, so my mom brought her and me to a restaurant for our dinner as the celebration as well.. My mom ordered 4 dishes and 1 soup..

This is the restaurant where we had our dinner..

Then we took some pictures while waiting the food to be served.. =)

My mom and lovely grandmother..

My lovely grandmother and me... =)

The dishes~~~

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~~~
This is my reaction when I look at my tummy! Really SHIT!! urggh!!!
I told my lovely grandmother that I swing the hoo la hoop for the whole night also cannot remove that tupid tummy! =/ I need help.. Lastly, please help me to sum up the calories that I have for today.. =(

Belated New Year post..

2009-01-05T09:30:00.003+08:00

Due to some 'things', Yvonne Chew is delaying of updating her post about
NEW YEAR!!
sorry sorry~~ and here I am!! XD

So, how were you guys celebrated for the new year? I am sure it must be very fabulous right?
*wink wink*
I went to pyramid.. then sms to gor, but he said he was at the curve with his college friends..
*was wondering what's so great at the curve there as pyramid not much people also*
I reached there at 6 something, but don't know why, I don't have any mood to shop..
*not because of gor not here is because of other things are bothering me.. *
since then, I decided to go back home..
yeah, basically, I celebrated the new year at home.. XDD
and I know it's the worst celebration in the whole world..

WELCOME 2009!!!

but!! don't forget there is always a BUT!
I don't think 2009 is a good year for me.. :(
on the 2nd of Jan, I bang my dad's car..
on the 3rd of Jan, I got a samon from MPPJ.. thanks alot! :(
when I reached home, I immeediately sms to darling Wen Shi..
but she said I think too much already.. ok loh..
then received a called at night to collect my phone back..
ok, this is what made me feel happy!!
and yeah, I feel like yelling here:

I FINALLY GOT MY PHONE BACK!! HAHAHA~~~

again, there is another but!
I accidentely crush my phone!!
and the scratches are so so so obvious.. :(
Well, if you tell me: "yvonne, it's a new year, everything would turns into another situation.."
yeah.. and my answer is: I hope so..
and don't worry, I will try to make everything into the best situation..

by the way, did i miss out something?
yeah... my 2009's wishlists.. hahaha
dang dang dang!!

Von's 2009 wishlists
1. a laptop
2. a car
3. a new phone
4. flying color results

okay now, it's time for me to get back to my own things.. take care everyone! =)

Christmas Day!!

2008-12-26T22:42:00.004+08:00

Here I am~~
wake up at 8.30am..
my mum keeps saying that she is hungry..
so I ask her to heat up the drumstick and eat first..
but when I get myself everything done,
she forgot that she is heating the drumstick..
while we are on the way going to church,
she suddenly say that she forgot to switch the gas off..
@.@
then she says she open the max fire, dude, this is the worst part ever!
since I can run faster than my mom, so she just stay inside her car..
I have to go up by myself!!
When I step out from the lift, gosh!! The smell is so so heavy!
I quickly take off my shoes and run to the door..
I am praying hard, yeah, pretty hard!
when I push the door, my hand is shaking!
and I can see the smoke is all around the house..
I don't dare to step in, but if I don't step in, the whole block also gone..
*my mom some more shut all the windows and door tightly..*
after switch off the gas and open up all the windows and slide door,
I quickly run out from the house, I can't stand anymore..
not even a minute, cause I feel so hard to breathe..
when I get into my mom's car, my whole body no energy already..
my mom don't even understand how I feel, how scared I am,
only blaming me for asking her to heat the drumstick up.. =(
lucky my beg has a sweet, so I eat that to calm myself down..
when she reach home, then only she realize how serious and dangerous it is..
she says I am brave!! *applause please.. hehehe*
no more next time as I never get train before.. ask me to call guard wor..
guard also scared want and they will call firemen de la!
I tell you, wait until the firemen come, the house units all gone already loh..
haih..

After the church service,
mom brings me to pyramid to meet Yap Ning dear up..
we reach sunway already, but stuck for an hour only reach pyramid..
*whoa, I can't believe that I met two of my bestest friends in a week! XD *
then we buy some presents and some earrings for ourselves.. hehe
then shop until the gathering time, we call John and ask about the venue..
so, total got 23 lovely princes and princess join this gathering.. They are:

John Lee
Chee Jong
Hong Zhao
Corey
Choon Yip
Kok Wai
Kai Yean
Gui Yang
Weng Fai
Gee Hau
Stephanie
Li Shuang
Chia May
Eugene Lim
San Ru
Hui Yee
See Shreen
Kit Ying =)
Xiao Li
Jing Jia
Soo Sien
Yap Ning ^^
ME

and for those people that I wish to meet them up, but they didn't turn up are:

Kenneth
Yee Feng
Jia Bao
Hui San
Hui See
Siew Ching

gather at around five something,
then they say wanna go Red box,
then don't know why, don't want Red box already, they go TGV.. zzz
making all of the girls so tired and say:
"you guys go and check the ticket, we will be waiting you guys here.."
hahaha XDD
then they choose the movie of "Yes Man!".. lol.. this is my second time watching it..
after the movie, we go cafe circle~~
~~to exchange present!! XDD
*I love present very much.. gg*
so since I got abit of unfair as my gor's present is special and expensive from others,
so I gave to him earlier in Red box that time, so he does!!
I love the present that he gave it to me very much, cause of his sincere!!
and gor, thanks for the movie fee and a bite of burger and the don't know what black pepper onion fish rice.. Dear say I eat 3 quarter from that dish.. =(
I love hanging out with them..
as everytime when we are having gathering, we won't bring our another partner along..
the gathering is just only us, 5P1 members.. =)

I leave early, erm, around 10.30pm..
but still, I reach home at 1 something..
tired, but I am happy with it.. =)
normally, the 5P1's gathering won't more than 10 people,
but this time, it's over 20 people some more.. =)

Conclusion of this year Christmas celebration:
firstly,I hang out almost the whole day with somebody special and I know he is very tired.. =)
secondly, as I said, I met two of my bestest friend in a week.. XD
thirdly, have such a wonderful gathering with all my ex-classmates.. ^^
fourthly, I received a watch from my youngest aunt today!! damn like it.. :D

so, this year is a wonderful and perfect Christmas season for me.. xD

Christmas eve..

2008-12-26T21:30:00.004+08:00

While before I get into this topic, I wanna say a little bit about my darling Wen Shi.. She purposely went to UH and visit my mom.. so touch.. I know she won't read my blog but yea thanks for everything.. The only friend that can always hear my tears, can made me feel better after chatting with her.. Enjoy your holidays darling and will yum cha with you before you back to college.. Take care.. Muackss..

Received darling's sms that she could not join the Christmas eve's party on Christmas eve.. So, I went to the party with my mom.. zzz.. My mom keeps asking me to make up.. say what, after make up, will look more pretty and lady.. gek sei.. For those who know me well, you guys sure know that I dislike make up and I don't even know how to make up.. Ever since she keeps nagging there, so I forced to do the make up things.. Guess what she said after I finish the make up process? "How come your eyes look like kena punch want?" She said.. what wor, told ya I don't know how to make up already, you don't believe me only..

The party was okay, ended at 10.30pm.. The main purpose for the party is about the gospel drama.. nothing much actually.. Then my mom brought me to the other church for count down.. Reached the church at 11.40pm.. After the count down session, the church members started to give Christmas present.. oh my, oh my!! I got presents too!!! wuahahha... XDD When I took my phone out, the messages keep came in, I also don't know which one I should open first.. But the most surprising message is from Eugene.. how surprise is it? among those messages, he is the only wishes came from oversea.. =) Thanks for all the friends that wishes me though sms, msn and email as well.. wanna me to list out the names? I don't think I will, as "I rather keep them inside my heart.. hehe

I realized that it's already one something when my gor called me up.. no wonder I super duper tired.. when I reached home, I feel like wanna go to my lovely bed immediately.. but I still have to remove my make up from my face!! Hate it, hate it!! anyway, give me 10 minutes break then I will blog about my Christmas day!! see ya later.. =)

one day of freedom..

2008-12-23T16:54:00.008+08:00

yeah, ever since I was so so tired for my own private stuffs, so I've decided to take one day freedom which was yesterday.. and I called somebody to accompany for the whole day.. yesterday, really really very tired.. but since I received the Christmas present that I wish to receive for this year Christmas, so making me really feel so happy the whole day, what tired also disappear immediately.. I do cherish this present very much, cause I know this would be the last present that I will receive from the person.. (If you are reading this post, I know you will say I am the one who decide it to be the last present, but I got my reasons.. If you wanna know it, do ask me personally..)

met him up at around 11.45am, then since he haven't ate anything yet.. so we decided to eat something first.. choose ar choose, at last we choose Korea BBQ plaza.. we ordered one economy beef set plus a side order bacon.. the so called e-c-o-n-o-m-y set made two of us full die.. After that, we shop shop for some clothes and shoes.. Then until we shop all the new wing, nothing for us to shop already, so I said I wanna watch the Jim Carrey's movie-Yes Man..

I like to watch his movie because of his funny look.. =)

The movie is absolutely great.. I rate it 4 and the half stars.. It's hilarious.. Anyone haven't watch it yet, do let me know as I will join you guys and watch it again.. hehe Then after the movie, I met Christopher with his friend.. well, I will just say something that out of the topic for awhile.. yea, when I was reading your blog, I was wondering why are your friends all saying that you have a new girl friend and I know you are quite emo with those bullshit.. but when I saw you that time, to be honest, my thought was exactly same as them.. just THOUGHT but not the TRUTH!! better be more specification.. hehe why? come on la, is she is really his girlfriend, both of them sure will hold hands want what.. and I also know that he is now still under recovering from his broken heart.. Cheers la, will go yum cha with you one day, don't worry.. and don't forget my Christmas present.. *blek*

Then, I feel so sien while shopping in 1u, so I suggested to go the curve since so many people told me that the Christmas decoration not bad.. When I reached there, I think the decoration ok ok only lor.. nothing much to shop at there seriously.. so he brought me to Ikano.. whoa, the popular is really damn bigger than 1u.. then got a shop that selling instruments which besides the popular.. so we went in.. guess what I saw?! my dream piano!! oh my oh my!!! A WHITE KAWAI BABY GRAND PIANO~~~ XDD feel like wanna hug it and kiss the piano.. hehe

We stayed until 9pm.. When I get into the lrt, I started to feel so tired, energy all gone.. I know, I have to get back to the reality.. dream still dream, I still have to wake up.. and maybe if I wake up earlier, I won't feel so pain.. That's all for now.. take care Mr.Yes Man.. =) Will be back soon, so reader please be patient.. hehe

p/s: When I reach home, my mum welcoming me home.. hahaha (for only some people will understand this.. )

Dedicated to my gor..

2008-12-23T09:38:00.005+08:00

To: My dearest gor

actually I wanna write it down when I finish reading your another blog two weeks ago.. and yeah, you did asked me the same question before.. and I already told you the answer.. this post is actually wanna let you know more about yourself and I am telling myself at the same time as well..

I know that you keep yourself busy because you don't want to think of her when you have the free time.. you try your very best not to mentioning her name, you keep reminding yourself that you wanna let her go, not to think of her anymore and you did so many things just to forget about her.. I tell you, this will made you miss her even more, it will be so hard for you to let go of her..

Don't forget that our characteristic are almost the same.. When I was having hard time that time, I did all the things that you have been done.. Have not been chatting with him for almost two months.. I thought of I already can completely let go of him.. The question is, do you think that I can let go of him? He is no longer important to me? and the fact is, until now, I miss him so much, I need him so badly when I am down.. The memories between him and me, always appearing in my mind..

The only reason that I can't let go of him is because I DON'T WANT to let go, I DON'T WANT to forget him and all the memories that belongs to me and him.. From both of your blog, I know that, you actually still miss and love her very much.. and you are tired of waiting of her.. so do I, I got the same feelings that tiring of waiting! and I know I have to wake up from my dreams, back to reality.. It's hard for me to make the decision, but no matter how, I already got the last decision in my hand yesterday late night.. Just want you to take time and make clear what you actually want..

I will go for the gathering on 25th, as I wanna meet my dear up!!! =) so, I hope that on that day, I will be meeting up a new gor gor.. and hor, I will test test you about your feelings want, better have well prepared.. hehehe... all the best to you and looking forward to meet you.. XDD

Tired enough.. =(

2008-12-16T22:03:00.002+08:00

Actually today the whole day, I don't feel like wanna update my blog.. But, until now I still could not feel any better.. and yea, it might be a long post also but I will cut it short..

After the incident (my mum's tenant), I already knew that my mum will changed cause my mum she can't get any frightening.. By days come, I already sense that something not good will be start happening.. then the incident at The Store, I won't talk much as it's already the past.. making me can't stand anymore, until I wanna go back to JB and have some good rest.. but because of some reasons, I've decided to stay until the holiday..

These days, my grandmom, uncle, and other church members did told me the same thing, my mum is getting serious lately.. (She got an illness, which I won't say it out also..) They all suggested me to send her to hospital.. but because of some reasons, I am still deciding about it..

until today, yeah, she sent a msg to bi..( which I won't say it out also, and I hope only few people will know about this ONLY).. After reading that message, I felt so sorry to bi.. and I know she had the hard feeling at that time.. But at the end, we all close this topic already.. So, after sending Jue Lin to LRT station, I immediately go UH and pick my mum.. When she gets into the car, she told me that she saw my secondary schoolmate.. After saying this, she started to mention about the message that she sent to bi.. and I calm myself down, trying to let her know that she should not sending these kind of message to a person.. I felt very hard to expain to her as she twist my words to other meaningful, making us have arguement again.. at time was 4.10pm..

Then, when we reached her office, she didn't even tell me that she goes canteen to eat.. So far, as I know, she have an urgent document to hand it to her office.. I waited for 15 minutes, then I think of since I am doing nothing in my mum's office and she didn't open the door ( I waited outsides her office), so I decided to go somewhere else which near my mum's office.. BUT! before I leaving her office, I made up a CALL to my mum!! I said: "MUM, I AM GOING TO SOMEWHERE ELSE, AND I WILL BE BACK BEFORE 5.30pm.." I DID INFORMED HER!!

*So bi, do you think that I can go dating within an hour or perhaprs it's less than an hour.. As I told you this morning, he is very tired with his own things, so I don't want any disturbing to him!
and I don't have any mood to enjoy the so call joke at that time.. I just hope that, next time(wish I HOPE no more next time), when can't contact me that time, please please don't ever think of I dating with him! don't ever relate any small small matter with him.. If really go dating, I will let you or Jue Lin know about it..*

After that, my dad came and fetch me from The Store again.. We have to rush back home as I still got tuition at night.. I am tired, really very very tired.. no one can understand how I feel at that moment.. I am like so hopeless.. I need support, need a trust from friends.. again, I am tired by mentally not physical!!

Broke

2008-12-13T20:05:00.004+08:00

*yawns*

oops, sorry, Yvonne is just too tired.. =) these two weeks, I almost wanna broke already.. Let me list down how I spent for my lunch these days and on other things..

last week, I ate TGIF with Jue Lin..
*Salmon pasta and 7-up, it costs me RM 38*

few days ago, went Midvalley with Shelby, Jue Lin and other seniors..
Since I long time didn't eat at Mdm Kwan, so~~
I suggested to Ee Tuck that we chose Mdm Kwan for our lunch..
*Nasi Bojari and Hot Lemon Tea, it costs RM31*
After the meal, we went to buy a tie.. my first time choosing tie, so hahaha no comment..
*The tie is RM23.90.. *
By the way, Samuel who is the driver fetching us there..
Then the radio playing the Akon-right now twice..
"I wanna make up right now now now"
he changed to "I wanna **** ****(18 sx) right now now now..
issh, what an awesome song let him change until so cacated.. zzz
Then I requested him to change to 105.7 ( cause that time sure playing alot of classical song)
guess what he say?
hmmpttt...
"this channel is not for a human to listen want loe.."
I was like~~ What oo, I am not human oo...T.T

Yesterday, went Pyramid with Shelby, Jue Lin, and other seniors..
my first time eating at such a high class restaurant..
SENJYU SUSHI~~~
once I open the menu, I was stunned, don't understand at all..
looked at the price in detail, you can fainted already..
then I rather choose a set meal which has a picture and the price is reasonable..
so me, Jue Lin and Chin Hon ordered a RM39.90 Unagi Oishi Zen set..
The whole table is full of our foods..
Shelby and Samuel were looking us to enjoy our food.. nyhahaha. =p
*the total of the bill ( my part only) is RM 46..*

Seriously, I never spent so much money for eating before.. this is my time and hope is the last time also.. unless got people willing to treat me .. hehehe

this morning, wake up at 7.30am..
going to see a doctor at Imbi KL there..
when I reach there, whoa~~
so many patients already waited there..
the clinic open at 9am but that time only 8.30am..
they all queue up outsides the clinic..
Issh.. normally, we will seeing this scene when people are getting free gifts or meeting their idol.
but now, pay also need to queue up so long! not cheap de wei, hundred hundred counted want.
I got number 14... zzz
so, go eat some breakfast since still got so many time..
then I waited for almost an hour only reach my turn..
while waiting there, I heard the reception girl talking on phone:
"If you wanna make an appointment, please call earlier la, today is saturday leh, booking now all FULL already.. The first call I received by today is at 6am.."
WAT??!! 6 am? I am still sleeping leh..
another patient says: "7.30am I already waited outside the clinic.."
I wake up at 7.30am but you are already waiting there..
zzzzzzz...
but this doctor is really very good..
*I paid RM185 for the consultation and on other things*

nah, I lazy to sum up all the money that I spent.. but one more thing, after having those delicious foods, I feel so so sleepy.. and yea, von von is going to become ~~~

a~~~

PIG!!!

pls: If you guys are interested with the Senjyu Sushi, you guys may CLICK HERE... didn't take many photos cause we were all too hungry already.. hehe

Christmas Presents..

2008-12-07T19:09:00.007+08:00

went to one utama last friday.. Wow, 1u really changed alot, erm, should say only for new wing LG floor.. =) Then, their decoration for Christmas really made me feel so warm.. wish someone was there with me.. =p this morning went to church.. they already started to sing Christmas song.. which is the reason why I am here.. so basically, today's post is nothing special, just some Christmas presents that I wish to receive.. XD

The most present that I wish to receive this year: ~~oops,top secret!~~ but seem like the chances to get it is so so small.. NEXT! the other presents that I wish to receive are:

yvonnehopestogetacaranewgenerationmacbookfewpairsofshoesfewdresses
creativeMP3playerappleIpodtouchwhitebabygrandpianoabunchoflolipopawaterbed
dozenofFerreroRocheratonyromaandTGIFcandlelightdinneranewpanasonicdigitalcamera
andofcoursenotforgettingarealsantaclaus!

ok la, I am not greedy.. these are all the presents that I hope to get it.. *smile evilly* whoa, after the calculation, now only I realize I need to buy so many pressies for my friends.. This month sure broke already..never mind la, it's once a year.. =)

(no title)

2008-12-03T19:38:00.002+08:00

Recently, many many things made me so frustrated..
made me don't feel like staying at home..
I wanna get out from my house doesn't mean I am avoiding the problems..
I wanna get out to relax my mind, making my mind clear to solve the problems..
If not, you guys have to visit me at Tanjung Rambutan..

Wasn't feeling so well yesterday..
(but still can see me online until very late?)
have to thanks to Adobe la..
keep hanging all my applications..
until I can't stand anymore, so I went to sleep..

Today, dad is going to Klang to do his stuff..
Mummy have to go for her checkup..
but when I wake up, mum already left home and I don't want to stay at home alone..
So, I follow my dad out..
I can sleep in such a situation that weather is so damn hot..
no choice, I am so dizzy that time..
Then I suddenly heard my dad screaming.. and when I open my eyes, I wanna faint..
a motorcyclist ride his motor in the highway lane.. the fastest lane somemore..
then he suddenly fall down from his motor and rolling down for 50m..
Lucky there was no car speeding at that lane.. if not..@@
I told my dad: lucky i didn't drive the car, if not the fella already~~~

oh by the way, I sent my phone to repair yesterday..
Don't know when can get it back..
I miss my phone very muchie..
haih...
ok la, stop crapping here.. bye bye

29th Nov 2008

2008-11-29T20:35:00.009+08:00

was kinda stressed up with many things recently.. making my temper become so bad lately, so if I have any bad manner to you guys, I am so so sorry.. What am I doing lately? Well, I am trying my best to deal up with Visual Basic 9.. Don't know why VB9 hates me so much, making me so sad, keep redo again and again.. Then, have to learn the flash, and other software for my multimedia assignment..I bought a Adobe Design Premium CS3 yesterday, but I can't install in my mac as it written: the disc is corrupted or not recognize.. sien.. zzz Then other things like have to solve my mum's tenant since the agreement is due at the end of November which is tomorrow..

yesterday I didn't slept well.. haih.. then this morning wake up at 6 something, but I closed my eyes and rest until 8am.. After that, me, my mum and dad went to my mum's house which located at Serdang Raya to deal the problem with the tenant.. We waited the tenant at the downstairs restaurant.. my mum and the tenant raised up many problems which making my mum increasing her voice volume, everyone was looking at us.. my grandmum called me that time so I went to pick up her phone at the more quiet place.. After finished talking with my grandmum, I went back to the restaurant.. My mum and the tenant left the restaurant already and I don't know where they went.. 2 minutes later, me and dad heard my mum was screaming from her house.. That time, the guard was walking towards us.. Dad pressed the lift button, but it's so damn slow and the lift was at 15th floor.. Then I said: don't wasting time, go by the stairs.. Three of us ran though the stairs.. I quickly went inside the house and I saw my mum almost wanna fainted.. I starred at the fella and his friend and my dad was scolding to the stupid fella's friend..

Dad: this is the matter between landlady and the tenant.. I want you to get out now!
Fella's friend: no, actually.....
Dad: I said GET OUTT!!
Fella's friend: well, we were.....
Dad: I said STOP STAYING IN THE HOUSE!! AND GEEEEET OUUUUTTTT NOWW!!
*he went out quietly*

I was trying to say something and made my mum to feel better.. The stupid fella was mentioning what happened just now with my dad outside.. and my mum was telling me what's happening.. See, usually when this kind of thing happened, sure got two different versions.. but I choose to trust my mum.. I bet he never think of my mum will have this action, so he was shocked at that time! Come la, try to mess up with my mum and see what will happen.. If anything happened to my mum, you will never ever continue your study in Malaysia.. I won't let go of you!! now, everything had settled down, so past already, and better don't made me meet this guy anymore!

okay, let's change topic.. After finished my lunch, I saw an advertisement from the newspaper.. The advertisement is about MAC.. haha...

This is 13-inch Macbook..

This is 15-inch Macbook Pro..

I like the design very much.. Since I am lazy to introduce the features here but if you guys are interested which I think not many people do, you may go here for the more information.. So yeah, my next target is 13-inch Macbook.. the price is Rm3699 and I can get the price which lower than the marketing.. xD

Oh ya, almost forgot.. Tonight APIIT will be having the AYG-Annual Year Gathering which also known as Prom Night.. I wanna go for it but I don't have a partner la and also a nice prom dress.. hehe.. My last prom night that I went was 2 years ago.. Lucky you guys don't know me at that time, if not, you guys will laugh until rolling on the floor and say I am having such a bad taste.. xD but now, my taste improved alot already.. ^^ Hopefully next year I will find a partner la.. *wink wink*

aww... mentioning until partner, now I suddenly missing pussy copy cat so badly.. and I know he is having his dinner with his parents outsides.. yesterday I had a bad dream about him and someone.. haih.. making me feel so upset.. don't know why will had this kind of dream.. Hope he will online soon as I wanna tell the dream to him.. miss him so much... =(

Random

2008-11-28T23:30:00.005+08:00

Starting from 1st of Dec, I will be very seldom to online.. So, I can't update my blog frequently, sign in msn everyday.. It's not a bad thing also.. At least I will get lost and disappear from somebody's troublesome and annoyance.. It might be a good thing to that person also..

I do appreciate very much if you guys don't ask me what happened.. Thanks

A month before Christmas..

2008-11-25T19:07:00.005+08:00

You better watch out
You better not cry
Better not pout
I'm telling you why
Santa Claus is coming to town~~~

I heard this Christmas song came out from a shop few days ago.. Actually, this post supposing to appear in some people's blog, but at last I feel that hmm, is better for me to write those presents that I wanna receive on the Christmas day rather than this.. xD (you know what to do la... *wink wink*)

So, what do you think when someone mentioning Christmas to you? Is it public holiday or Party? Santa Claus? Present? How much do you actually know the exact meaning of Christmas? See, 25th of December is not the birth of Jesus.. According to the bible, from the old and new Testament, they didn't mention that Jesus Christ was born on 25th of Dec.. BUT why, so many websites or books are saying that Christmas Day is to celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ? Pastor told me this real history before.. Unfortunately I forgot already, so hehe, I will write the real story when I ask my Pastor.. =)

I love Christmas.. not because I will receive many presents.. Is because of the feelings that I am with my beloved family and some church members.. I love celebrate Christmas than any other festivals or seasons.. =)

What are the presents that I wish to receive for this Christmas?

Toys?
Sweets?
New dress?
cake?
laptop?
new phone?
car?
pet?
free lunch or dinner?

Wrong wrong wrong.. the present that I wish to receive is: oops, ~~secret~~! hehe.. I am now looking forward to the Christmas Day.. xD

=(

2008-11-21T22:02:00.005+08:00

Actually, I don't have any mood to update my blog today.. but I just got a bad news making me feel so bad.. Still remember in my previous blog, I did mentioned about I have a student's mum, his mum was having a cancer and it's already at the final stage.. Yeah, I just know that his mum passed away last Saturday.. I am so surprised! Before she went for the medical checkup, I did chatting with her about her children studies level. When she knew she had the cancer, the doctor said she can live at least a year if she continue doing the treatment, but now~~~

From this family, I can see how a dad takes his responsibilities, love his children, her wife.. no matter how suffering he is, he never release his anger to his children, he never give up, he did ALL the responsibilities by his OWN! He cherish every moment that he could with his wife.. He shows how much his love to his wife.. Seriously, I am very admire for his mentally and attitude..

God has his plan why he wanna takes his wife earlier.. My mum gave him a lot of CDs and VCDs about the gospel, but still, can't save her soul.. =( Life is short, really.. and we can't predict our future.. Well, actually, the important of living ain't because of how long you can live, is because of how meaningful is your life..

Because of this case, I suddenly realize that I am actually avoiding something.. yeah.. no matter how, I don't want to made myself regret! maybe it's not worth but still, as I promised I won't hide anything from him.. ok, I don't have any mood to continue writing, but before I log out, I have to say: Dudes, please, please cherish EVERYONE that you love and even hate, cherish the moment that you spend with your family, friends, classmates and lover.. God Bless!

20th Nov 2008

2008-11-20T19:50:00.003+08:00

Well well well, today's story is all about, emm~~

about Von day... =)

7.30am reached college, doing nothing and waited until 8.30am only went in to classroom.. Actually got one embarrassing thing happened after I reached college. After I took a newspaper and sat down at the table in front of the guard table, then I started to read it. Once I finished reading it, I felt so lazy to carry this newspaper (eventhough it's very light hehe..) so I decided to put the newspaper back. I was standing in front of the shelf, looking at the shelf and think of: eh, I wanna take one more newspaper or put back this? and my standing position was actually blocking others to take the newspaper.. Here comes a handsome and cute guy standing besides me and looking at me.. I bet he is thinking: this girl wanna take or put the newspaper back want de.. Then I put the newspaper back and looking at him.. He laughed at me and I said: sorry la, I haven't wake up yet.. zzz I wished there is a hole and I can jump inside..

Once I stepped into the classroom, fuyoh~~ Miracle happened!! SAMUEL TAN is the first person who stepped into the classroom.. O_O he somemore sit at the first row.. WOW!! Let's see this miracle can stand for how long... xD Sooner, Mrs Kwan came in.. Her expression~~ Aiks.. Still remember me as a very talkative girl.. =( But somebody is more pitier than me.. keke After her lesson, me, Shelby, Ee Tuck, Samuel, Chin Hong, Kah Kiat and Kit Wai ate our lunch at Sri Petaling near The Store.. Shelby fetched me, Ee Tuck and Kit Wai for the lunch.. After the lunch we decided to play bowling at Bukit Jalil Club House.. So, Shelby went back home and took two pairs of socks.. eeheehee, somebody don't know how to park her car... But at last, we didn't play the bowling cause they only open starting from 12pm, so we decided to head back to college.. ok, about Shelby's driving skills, I don't have any comment, if wanna know it, go and ask Kit Wai and Ee Tuck.. *phew, lucky I am still here to update my blog =p*

Next, is multimedia tutorial class... zzz I felt myself was attending kinder garden class, lecturer taught us how to coloring by using Photoshop... nothing much, then my mum came and fetch me back.. *awww, how sweet she is as she purposely come and fetch me.. I love die you mummy, muacksss~~* Then when we on the way going back home, she told me that her love stories and I told her mine too.. My mum said I really love someone so deeply until she so ~~~ lol each time, me and my mum exchange our love stories, our conversation sure non stop and no quarreling.. Girl ma, no choice...

So yeah, basically, today is just a very normal day to me.. But now I feel so exhausting.. Ok la, I will stop here.. Tada~~

Tagsss~~~

2008-11-19T14:08:00.007+08:00

Since I am so boring now and feel like wanna updating my blog BUT I don't know what to update, so I've decided to complete ALL the tags that I have owed them so long ago.. here we go...

1st Tagged by Mr.Yaw Kwan

1.What's your most favourite colour?
- green

2. Who is the most important to you?
- my family and God

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
- never as I love myself so much.. xD

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
- I don't have enough confidence unless someone who is so generous can give me his/hers ;p

5. How many children you want?
- 4-6?

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- yes, and it gives me hopes

7. What is your goal for this year?
- get a good results in my studies

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
- yeah, the eternity love I got from my mummy and God

9. The first person who comes into your mind now.
- nobody XD

10.What are you really afraid of?
- starting a new relationship.. unless ahem~ can give me back the secure that I lost it

11.What is your bad habit?
- sleep? xD no confidence?

12. Do u hv a secret crush?
- yeah, I do have..

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
- definitely I do

14. What does flying means to you?
- ermm, freedom

15. What do you crave for the most currently?
- I don't know.. so many things happened to me these days..

16. Are you single/relationship?
- single.. sob sob.. nobody want me.. T.T

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words.
- he is SO so SO so UNFAIR...

18.What have you done to yourself make yourself happy?
- drinking red wine, chatting with those people that I can trust on

19. What is the worst case scenario happen to you in your life?
- no idea..

20.What u wish to do 4 this few years?
- completing my degree course and find a job..

*I don't feel like tagging anyone for this tag =) *

2nd Tagged by Mr.Yaw Kwan also

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
- listen his explaination first.. then only decide what to do...

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- only a arr? but I got so many dreams and all of them are very important.. =)

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
- Yaw Kwan.. >.<

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
- I will buy all Yaw Kwan's properties

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
- It's hard to say.. I never and haven't fall yet.. xD

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- both

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- I don't know... have to ask someone whether he is ready or not... =p

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- since it's like, I will let go and find others but if is love, is diffenrent case..

9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? your gf/bf or an actress/actor?
- hehe.. my aunt

10. Will you invite for Ex bf/gf to your wedding dinner?
- If I still contacting with him, I will..

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
- adorable and young von von.. ^^

12. What's your fear?
- speaking in tongue, starting in a new relationship

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
- UNFAIR >.<

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- I want married and rich can arr? xD

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
- breathing of course then only go brush my teeth.. *wink wink*

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
- yes

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- I will pick myself...

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- forgive yes, but forget unless I don't remember anything (even my name)

19.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
- no idea..

20.List 5 people to tag
-again.. I don't feel like tagging anyone.. XD

3rd Tagged by Mr.Yaw Kwan TOO

5 things found in my bag.
- tissue, purse, comb, handphone, spec case

5 things found in my wallet.
- cash, IC, driving license, ATM cards, membership cards

5 things found in my room.
- bed, books, aircond, dolls, cupboard

5 things i've always wanted to do.
- travel, completing my piano course, learn dancing, be a shopaholic, SLEEP *blek*

List out the 4 presents u wish for.
- digital camera, car, PDA phone, a laptop

The person who tagged u was
- Yaw Kwan

The 5 impressions of the most memorable thing she/he has done to you
- I can't think of any memorable impressions except UNFAIR...

If she/he becomes your lover,
-pui pui hates die me.. =p

If she/he becomes your enemy,
- I will eat him up...

4th Tagged by Yee Feng

I was tagged by:
>baobei yee feng
I tag: (hehe..)
>Yaw Kwan (tagged me until so shocked la.. )
>Jiahao
>Joey
>Chin Han
>Chee Hoe

1st : What's your name?
> yvonne chew aka yi wen
2nd : How old are you?
>19
3rd : What are three electronics you can't live without?
>handphone~laptop~TV
4th : Are you amazing?
>yeaah, I am..
5th : What is the brand of the phone you are using?
>sony ericsson
6th : What colour is your phone?
>white and lime green
7th : Have you slept in school before?
>yea... keke
8th : How long are you online in one day?
>it's depends actually, but usually is 6-7 hours
9th : How would you describe yourself?
>crazy? like to smile?
10th : What's your favourite topic to talk about?
>zzz.. no specific
11th : Which teacher do you like?
>my year 5 class teacher
12th : Who do you think is the most handsome in your class?
>EVERYONE ^^
13th : Who are you currently aiming on?
>If I say no one, sure no people will believe.. no aiming but waiting, yeahh.. =)
14th : Do you know a lot of your sibling's secrets?
>I don't have any sibling
15th : How do you rate your sibling?
>zzz.. no sibling how to rate oo..
16th : Is your sibling gorgeous?
>ok, I will count myself in as the sibling category, and I am gorgeous.. HAHAHA
17th : Do you judge people?
>when the person made me angry until the max, I WILL..
18th : Do you run?
>zzz.. I can fly too..
19th : Are you lazy to tag people?
>yes.. don't know wanna find which victims.. *wink wink*
20th : Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?
>my dad
21st : What's 2 + 2?
>perfect match..
22nd : Who's your idol?
>Sharon? haha
23rd : Are you a monster?
>please la, I am a human ok..
24th : Do you play with Barbie dolls?
>when I was still a kid
25th : What was the last movie you watched?
>Madagascar Escape 2.. laugh die me.. XD
26th : What do you think about your English?
>never try, never know..
27th : What do you think about your Bahasa Malaysia?
>belum cuba, belum tau..
28th : Who do you hate?
>no one..
29th : Do you love yourself?
>I love myself more than anyone.. xD
30th : Blurt out 5 random words
>I am so tired now

*phew, I have finally done my blog.. Can you believe that I used 1hour 45minutes to done it? *

Ready for Diploma part 2..

2008-11-16T18:03:00.006+08:00

Tomorrow is going to start my class.. So, for this semester, my timetable consider tight for me to arrange my tuition.. haih..

Welcome TPD2F0811DBT... =)

The 50 reasons why I love HIM

2008-11-13T23:24:00.011+08:00

ok.. since Bibi said the post that she wanna update, don't know why let blogger automatically deleted, so here I am to update the post about my love to HIM.. (The reason that you written too little already la, so blogger don't like it and help you to delete it, rewrite.. blek)

*Press ctrl+A and it's easier for you to read. xD*

1. because he is cute..
2. because he is being nice to me..
3. because he is loving..
4. because he is hilarious..
5. because he is caring..
6. because he is a guy..
7. because he give me the feeling of secure..
8. because he is always there for me when I need him..
9. because he has a warmly arm to hug me..
10. because he has a sexy voice..
11. because he is gentle..
12. because he makes me feel that I am the most pretty angel..
13. because he makes me happy..
14. because he looks great when he is serious..
15. because he is smart..
16. because he got tummy..
17. because I love his eyes..
18. because I love his nose..
19. because I love his ears..
20. because I love his body shape..
21. because he always give me the best..
22. because sometimes he is a crazy..
23. because he never let me worry about him..
24. because he taken good care of me..
25. because his smile attracted me..
26. because of his sincere..
27. because I am priority for him..
28. because he is hardworking..
29. because he is a high expectation guy..
30. because of his independence..
31. because he is special to me..
32. because he is a sweet guy..
33. because he is a shy guy..
34. because he won't flirt..
35. because he don't drink..
36. because he don't smoke..
37. because he loves me..
38. because he is who he is..
39. because I love him..
40. because love is blind..
41. because love is in the air..
42. because of his hobbies..
43. because he is generous..
44. because he is a human..
45. because he makes me feel that I am always a baby..
46. because he always support me..
47. because he is the best boyfriend ever and ever..
48. because he is friendly..
49. because he is kind..
50. because love a guy have to love all his good and bad things..

*my brain is stuck.. will continue when I find out more reasons from him*

good nite dudes...

A long tagged by Yaw Kwan

2008-11-10T16:57:00.005+08:00

THE SELF

[01] Name: Yvonne Chew
[02] Nickname: von, vonney, girl
[03] Married: nope
[04] Zodiac Sign: Cancer
[05] Gender: Female
[06] Age: 19
[07] High School: Catholic High School, PJ (CHS)
[08] University: APIIT/UCTI
[09] Height: above 160cm and below 165cm
[10] Weight: ~~secret~~
[11] Do you like yourself: definitely I do
[12] Piercings: yes
[13] Right or left: =)
[14] Are you a freak: kinda.. haha xD
[15] Hair: long hair with highlight
[16] Skin: light brown...
[17] Allergic: yes
[18] What are you doing now: to complete this duper long tag
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: eat dinner
[20] What will you do 10 years later: open a business with my best friend =)

THE FAMILY

[21] Live with mother/father/parents: mother ONLY
[22] Siblings(included you): one aka 1 ONLY
[23] Eldest: ME
[24] Youngest: ME
[25] Love/hate your family: love of cause

THE LOVE

[26] You found your another half: maybe he is..
[27] If yes, who is he/she: I will release when it's the right time..
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: no idea..
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: 3
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): keke.. yes
[31] Anyone woo you before(0-100000): yes
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: no one is perfect
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: S.K.I.P this
[34] Ever argue with your other half: definitely yes
[35] You with your other half since: i haven't give him my answer.. xD
[36] Are you straight/Lesbo: no comment
[37] Reasons you love your other half: love is blind, just love, no reason why
[38] You and your other half in which stage: zzz... next question
[39] You woo-ed her/him or he/she woo you: he woo me..
[40] Ever think of marry he/she: NEXT NEXT!!

THE FRIENDS

[41] Your first best friend: Phyllis Low Wen Shi (my bestest friend ever! xD )
[42] Your first enemy: nope
[43] The friend you love the most: Choon Yap Ning cause she is my second betest friend.
[44] The enemy you hate the most(1only): no enemy how to hate.. Isssh
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: be fair.. everyone =)
[46] Your most handsome guy friend: have to be fair again, everyone =)
[47] The kind of girl/woman you hate the most: doesn't not respect people and don't have inner behavior..
[48] The kind of boy/man you hate the most: flirt
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: never
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: no
[51] If your friend backstab you: no idea
[52] If your friend betray you: tried before, but I still forgive her
[53] If your friend woo your lover: if me and him already together, I won't let him go BUT if haven't perhaps I will give my friend..
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: still friend
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: don't know.. haven't fall yet.. haha

THE STUDIES

[56] Are you a good student: not at all..
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: assignments yea.. homework is depends
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: my year 5 class teacher
[59] Always late to school/college: seldom
[60] Your class: TPD2F0811-DBT
[61] You love your seniors: they are so cute, yeaaah
[62] Senior who you love the most: be fair.. same
[63] Your classmates good/bad: GOOD xD
[64] Excellent result classmate: Alicia, Shelby
[65] Laziest classmate: no one is lazy

THE PEOPLE

[66] Smart people: Choon Yap Ning
[67] Stupid people: no one is stupid
[68] Good looking people: as long as you have eyes, nose, ears, mouth and teeth
[69] Ugly people: no one is ugly
[70] Funny people: Tan Jun Meng
[71] Cute people: the answer is same as number [68]
[72] Bad people: ...
[73] Honest people: zzz
[74] Acting people: I hate this tag
[75] You are what kind of people: I dislike to describe myself, you judge on me!

THE PREFER

[76] Lip or eyes: lips?
[77] Hugs or kisses: depends
[78] Shorter or taller: taller
[79] Hesitant or spontaneous: spontaneous
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: nice stomach
[81] Listener or talker: be a good listener
[82] Romantic or rich: haha.. both
[83] Good wife or Good mother: both =)

THE FUTURE

[84] Age to get marry: no idea
[85] Numbers of kid(s): 4-6?
[86] Career: be a BOSS
[87] Salary: more than 10k
[88] Retirement age: next
[89] Properties value: ...
[90] Wishes: All the best to SPM and STPM candidates.. me and my mum have a good health

THE TAGS (optional, dun wanna make my frens suffer)
[91] Chee Jong
[92] Kit Ying

For STPM candidates

2008-11-09T20:01:00.003+08:00

STPM is around the corner, so I wish ALL the STPM candidates

best of luck in the exam! =)

L.O.V.E

2008-11-02T15:48:00.002+08:00

These days, I online until very late because of being a listener and adviser of LOVE... Sien lo... wondering how come lately so many of them are facing problems in their relationship.. Wanna break up, but can't let go of her at last; don't want to break up, the problems still there !

Yesterday, someone came and chat with me.. (If you read my previous blog, you will know who is the someone) All these while, I thought of: eh, since he treated you like a stranger, I also have to treat him like a stranger.. If he say hi in msn, ask him who are you and so on.. but yesterday, when I saw his message, I didn't did like what I thought! He apologized to me again, which I think he still do not know that I don't want his apologies anymore.. He wanna know how's my life lately, and my answer to him is just: good! didn't answer more than that.. He tried to find topic to talk, which I don't feel like wanna type more than a word to him.. But since he is being friendly, so at last I chat with him.. He asked me out, but I rejected him indirectly... Frankly speaking, I didn't feel any happy when I saw his message or chat with him.. and I know, I've forgive him, accepted him back just a normal friend.. ^^

When I am counseling my friends, I am thinking of : love, making them suffering so much! which I got this suffering before... but I was turning all the suffering into eating and practices my NS and QMS exercises.. So, I got As for both of this module, I have to thank him also.. I just wish all my friends to enjoy love not to suffer it! Before I end, I will give a quote to my friends who are facing problems in their relationship:

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves."
-- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

What a day!

2008-10-31T23:39:00.009+08:00

Today is the last day of October in year 2008.. I AM SO ~~~

~~EMO-ING~~ while paying the maintenance fees!
~~EMO-ING~~ while giving tuition!
~~EMO-ING~~ while deciding which course I should take!
~~EMO-ING~~ while updating my blog now!

My mum's car got an accident this morning! She bang her car toward the parking wall.. Need to find extra money to repair her car. My face immediately became black colour. I was so frustrated at that moment.. Then, went to pay the maintenance with this kind of mood.. After paying it, called some church's members for help.. Then waited until 11.45am, after Uncle Adam checked the whole engine, he fetched us down to the nearest workshop and asked them to go and checked what's the problem.. The guy asked us to drive slowly to the workshop and have to trouble Uncle Adam to fetch us back.. Thanks a lot, uncle Adam!

Maybe recently, didn't have enough sleep plus so many things happened.. I am getting so hot temper.. better stay away and have a mile of distance from me! The kindergarten students were doing a bit wrong, I started to use my cane(scared them only, wouldn't beat them anyway) and raised up my voice.. They scared until forgot how to write capital t and l.. making me more angry and scolded them again.. My grandmother keep saying:" Don't yell la, tomorrow you sure lost your voice and will having sore throat! Teach them slowly la"

Result had released two days ago.. One word: WORST! My result didn't hit my target.. and I have to decide weather I wanna stay at APIIT or change college.. If I continuing in APIIT, what course I should take! DAMN!! God, please lead me.. I am going to mad..

There are too many things which consider as privacy, making me stressed like hell.. Adding on my own problems, I am going to CRAZY!! Wanna release in my blog, don't know is my laptop problem or streamyx problem, the websites are loading so damn slow, type words also appearing on the screen so slow, MSN messenger keep hanging until making all my browsers and files hang also.. Making me wanna throw my laptop away!

WHAT A BAD DAY I HAVE!! DAMMN!!!

A broken and hurt soul~~

2008-10-26T22:04:00.007+08:00

I am using "A broken and hurt soul" as my MSN display name.. But after reading somebody's blog, I've decided to write this out.. I think this title is most suit to his feelings..

I knew this guy very long time ago, since I was in Form 1.. But, I dislike him alot( sorry, just straight forward) cause he gave me quite a bad impression.. He is being so arrogant about his exam's result.. (That was what I think at that time, but when I know him better, he is not that guy.. xD) Because of him, I quarreled with one of prefect friend.. That's why I seldom talk to him..

When you know him better, you will realize he is a nice friend to be... Being helpful, sporty and nice to bully.. So considerate, I was having same class with him in form 5.. I also don't know how both of us getting so close.. and here come a lot of secrets which I wouldn't written down here.. He will know what's the secret.. For me, I wouldn't forget that in my life cause I hurt him so deeply.. Although is a past, but my reactions against him are so cruel.. I will receive his call and sms every night, he cares about me, but I treated him so badly.. He knew I scared going to NS, every Saturday, when I got back my cellphone and switch it on, his phone number sure will appears in my phone's screen.. not one time, not two times, is at least 5 times.. HE will try calling again and again until I pick up his call.. Every Saturday, I would not miss his call until I ended my training.. So touch, but still no feelings to him..

He really did a lot of things for me.. For me, he is a very very important friend in my life.. He is facing some problems now.. I don't want him to be sad for so long.. I know exactly how he feels now.. I know he needs time.. Life still going on no matter what happened.. Be strong, and I will try my best to make you happy when I hang out with you.. When you are sad, your friends surrounding you will feel sad cause they love you.. Cheers up! We all will support you and always be your side..

Exam coming soon right? Put away your sadness and concentrate on your studies!! I want you to get a flying colour results and show it to me.. because I believe you can do it! Best of luck in your exam.. I sincerely hope that next time when I see you, the laughter, the smile that you gave me are from your heart!! not to entertain me!! Take good care of yourself..

I know you can do it!!

Back from Genting

2008-10-24T14:32:00.019+08:00

Okay okay, I am back now... hehe

Just came back from Genting, so damn tired... Well, actually, going to Genting is a very last minutes plan, my mum said:" no need to pack, we go there for one day only!" FINE!! but still, I pack my personal things secretly...

Wow, so many shocked things happened.. This is my first time driving to Genting. There was no guy inside the car. My grandmum prepared some fried rice and fried mee hoon. When I reached Theme Park Hotel, I said:" We have to stop here, I am so dizzy." Then I ate the lunch that my grandmum had prepared. After that, continue to drive to First World Hotel.

When we arrived there, we went shopping at the second floor. We shop until half way, she said she's hungry, wanna eat something... sweat... Then, we decided to choose something, which the price is reasonable and the quality is good. We went inside a Chinese Food Stall.. FUYOI!! The Bah Kut Teh smell so damn nice.. They have ginseng, claypot, and abalone bah kut teh.. I told my mum:" Mum, I wanna order abalone Bah Kut Teh then we share share ok? " My mum agreed..

Delicious huh? It costs RM140

Since the price is over our budget, then we ordered Claypot Bah Kut Teh.. RM 32.80 for two person; RM 2 for each rice; Rm3.30 for the "yao za kuey"..

Not bad, but I still prefer Klang's Bah Kut Teh

Tada, my grandmum, mum and my satisfaction.. xD

Three of us full until cannot move already.. But we still have to go for a walk, if not got tummy already then not so good loh.. So we continue our window shopping.. Genting's weather not that shocked! So~~~

We went to snow world

The temperature is in between -3 to -4. It's depends on how many people inside

Tickets~~~

Free yogurt drink from them

It's around 6 something when we came out from snow world.. The sky is getting darker.. My mum worried that I can't handle to get down from the hill since it's going to dark.. So she went to book a room.. *lucky I didn't listen what she said at first.. haha* After bringing my things into the room, my mum want me to ready myself, she will bring me in to Star World Casino (The new Casino).. What??! I didn't bring my makeup things here.. I kept changing my clothes until my grandmum said:" ok, you now look like 21 years old." Before entering the Casino, my mum want me to act nature, don't be too nervous..

I did actually like my mum told me when I saw the police.. Who know, at last, the police stopped me..

Police: Cik, boleh tengok IC tak?
Me: IC? Saya tinggal di dalam hotel. Macam mana sekarang?
Police: *he looked at my mum and my grandmum, then turn to me again* Berapakah umur kamu sekarang?
Me: ~~Dua puluh satu~~..
Police: * he looked at me from my head to my leg and from my leg to my head*
Me: *Then I started to sweat, trying to find some solutions.. But my brain was totally stucked! I could only gave him a very sweet smile to him*
Police: *he looked at my smile, and smile back to me* masuklah!
Me: *phew, my legs were shaking, you know*

Well, he actually knew that I am under age.. But I am lucky I met him, such a kind people.. My mum went to replace her World Card and register a yellow card. My grandmum sponsored RM10 for us to play Jackpot. But both of them really made me speechless.. They don't know how to play, but they still simply press the buttons, making us loss until RM 1 something, then I earned back to RM2 and asked them STOP PRESSING THE BUTTONS ANYMORE!! We loss RM8 then quickly get out from the Casino..

Nice weather...

Took this picture from my hotel room..

My grandmum

My mum and my grandmum

Tagged by Chee Jong and Yaw Kwan

2008-10-13T20:13:00.012+08:00

1. what's the relationship of you and her/him ?
~Chee Jong- my gor gor
Yaw Kwan- friend

2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him ?
~Chee Jong: -hardworking -brave -helpful -sporting -stingy (bluek)
Yaw Kwan: -loyal -helpful -hardworking -smart -talkative (lalala~~~)

3. The most memorable things she/he have said to you
~Chee Jong: *~~oops, secret~~* =p
Yaw Kwan: there is always a better guy waiting for you

4. The most memorable things she/he had done for you
~Chee Jong: *~~hehe... secret again~~... *
Yaw Kwan: When I was down, he fetched me out for mamak even though he was sick..

5. If she/he became your lover, you will..
~Chee Jong: hahaha, no comment on this..
Yaw Kwan: will rap up by pui pui... =p

6. If she/he become your enemy, you will..
~Chee Jong: less one people to fight on..
Yaw Kwan: no people fetch me out to mamak..

7. If she/he become your lover, she/he has to improve on..
~Chee Jong: too many... lazy to list out..
Yaw Kwan: nothing

8. If she/he become your enemy, the reason is..
~Chee Jong: would not happen
Yaw Kwan: If I fall in love to pui pui... =p

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is ?
~Chee Jong: treat me BBQ Plaza
Yaw Kwan: TONY ROMA xD

10. The overall impression of him/her is...
~Chee Jong: a nice gor gor
Yaw Kwan: a nice friend to be

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you ?
~crazy, talkative, always FFK

12. The character of you for yourself is ?
~no idea, I also don't know what kind of character I have..

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is ?
~not enough confidence? too easy to believe on other people?

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is ?
~not too good and too bad for my outer and inner...

15. For the people who care about you and likes you, say something about them.
~thanks for caring and always be my side whenever I was down. I will cherish each of you every day. minutes and seconds..

Ten people to tag
1.Yee Feng
2.Shelby
3.Zheng Kang
4.Hui See
5.Corey
6.Shu Ying
7.Kok Wai
8.Sheng You
9.Kit Ying
10.Ivy Loh

who is no.2 having a relationship with ?
~LOL! SHEBLY arr... mentally is HIM lo... xD

no.3 is a male or female ?
~male

if no.7 and no.10 were together, would it be a good thing ?
~both of them knew each other since form 1.. not bad.. haha

no.5 and no.8 ?
~impossible... they are not gay...

what is no.1 studying about?
~form 6

is no.4 single ?
~not sure wor... but I think she has alot of admirer.. =p

say something about no.6 ?
~a sweet girl, helpful, sporting, responsible, good in art and design and hardworking... Unfortunately, she is no longer available.. =)

Welcome

2008-10-13T10:07:00.000+08:00

Aloha dudes, I am back~~~ xD

I am sure you guys were doubting why am I suddenly deleted my previous blog and open a new one.The answer is because: I am a lousy user to blogger la. Wanna change template at first, change and change, change and change until deleted my blog already.

Since my mum doesn't like the princess theme and linkie, so I changed them together. Well, actually the theme that I am using now, is not what I have chosen at first. But after uploading the template, I felt that I am getting boring with that skin, so I uploaded another template which is: unravel mystery of life. Then I found out that the fonts are damn small, me myself also can't stand it. So at last, I choose this skin.

Oh ya, also don't forget to thanks Shelby and Ken Wai for the coding. Shelby delaying to update her blog because of my coding. *So Bi, now you don't have any excuse for updating your blog already since I have done... xD* Another person is Ken Wai. Keep disturbing him when he is watching Hong Kong drama.. haha and he asks: Why everytime when I am watching drama you need my help want... lol Thanks alot to this two person..

Don't worry dudes, I wouldn't change my blog link anymore.. =) Will update frequently since I owed so many of tagged... So, stay tune!! xD