yeah.. I did promised to someone that I will open my blog back after my birthday..
But I am really busy at this moment..
many things happened to me..
I hate it..
the feeling is just like: get out!!
I don't trust everyone in this world..
even the person that I love..
The only person that I can believe is in myself, at least at this moment..

since you already decided to close your blog..
then just go..
I don't care anymore..
I most hate to force people doing the thing that he/she don't like..
anyway, I am kinda emo right now..

For those readers who still read my blog..
I will post a new post up by this week..
bye and take care..

I just want a peaceful life..
Is that so hard for that?
Is that consider a too much request in a life?

I respect you..
but can you just stand on behalf me and think of it?
when you don't have enough money that time, I give you my money..
I never ask you to pay for the petrol money..
but you treat me just like your driver, demand me to send you here and there..
you don't even appreciate me..

Do you really think that I need a part time job if I really have enough money?
when I have a car, service, parking tickets, toll, incurance, road tax, everything just need money!
and my saving is going to finish soon..
I am not a bank that produce money..
but what you said to me?
I like money so much, so I teach tuition.
why wouldn't I spend the time to other places such as hanging out with friends or do revision?
hurt..

you scolded my tuition students..
do you think they will respect you?
you switch on the television and increasing the volume..
what they will think of you?
you already chase all my previous tuition student,
now if this tuition also gone, will you responsible it and pay the money to me?
no, you won't cause I know you extremely well..

I need freedom.
I just want to do the thing that I should do.
but everytime you just control my life..
I have to follow what you want me to do..
this is suffering..
can you being more understanding a little bit?
and stop banging the door, switch off the light while i am bathing..
I just want you to respect me back..

this morning, wasn't feeling so well,
so, my mom stop me at APIIT..
then, when I am trying to go up the stairs,
there are three dogs wanna climb the stairs too..
(black dog, white dog and brown dog)
when they see me wanna climb the stairs,
they come and follow me... zzz
hey, is not ONE dog, is THREE dogs follow me!!
doggies, if you wanna bite me or wat, can you guys just give me a signal such as barking?
if you remain silence there, how would I know what you guys wanna do to me??
so, I try to turn another way to escape them..
they still follow me so closely!!
APIIT guard is sitting there..
I was thinking: couldn't you come and help me?
In a sudden, I step the wet soil and fall down into it..
guess what happened?
they quickly turn away to keep distance from me..
then when I stand up, they turn back and look at me, like telling me:
'you are so embrassed us!!'
zzzzz
laugh laugh laugh!!
APIIT guard is like watching a funny scene there..
fine!!
(lucky still early that time, so no one see what's happening to me..)
then quickly run up to my classroom..
the worst part is: I am wearing white skirt and white shoe!!
before cleaning myself up, I do take few pictures..


Mrs Kwan likes to bully people, everyone knows that..
I already no mood, she still wanna bully me in class.. =(
taxi driver also the same!!
I can't even feel that single of the words that come out from his mouth is actually fooling at me!

then because of meeting some people up,
made my mood feels so happy and temporary forget what happened in the morning..
even though it's just a few second..
when I enter into my classroom, many people come and asked me:
"yvonne, what happened to you? you looks so happy!"
hehehe..
one of my seniors even say this to me:
"eh, you happy that time, look pretty leh.."
LoL

then received an unexpected news!!
we changed our SAD lecturer..
well, it's a good news actually..
but when we checked our timetable..
EVERYDAY also have to go for the class leh..
haih...

go to find my mom in her office after class dismiss...
Mom want me to wait for her an hour as she wanna go and do exercise..
when she comes back, she want me to help her withdraw money from her bank..
on the way to the ATM machine, hell, two motorcyclists whistle at me!!
I was like: you two whistle again and I will yell as loud as I could!!
really damn humsup people!! >.<

yeah... Everything that I wanna settle up, finally all done by today.. I am suppose to be happy.. but actually I am not.. maybe the last settlement wasn't like what I expected.. anyway, I won't mentioning here as I know each of my friends hear until very boring already... As I always say: Truth is always the cruel thing! Since it's the final decision, I am going to delete all the pictures later.. I just don't want to leave even a little bit of the feeling in my mind.. nah, I got no mood to continue writing here, I better go find my darling Wen Shi.. Ciao!

Today is the last day of October in year 2008.. I AM SO ~~~



My mum's car got an accident this morning! She bang her car toward the parking wall.. Need to find extra money to repair her car. My face immediately became black colour. I was so frustrated at that moment.. Then, went to pay the maintenance with this kind of mood.. After paying it, called some church's members for help.. Then waited until 11.45am, after Uncle Adam checked the whole engine, he fetched us down to the nearest workshop and asked them to go and checked what's the problem.. The guy asked us to drive slowly to the workshop and have to trouble Uncle Adam to fetch us back.. Thanks a lot, uncle Adam!

Maybe recently, didn't have enough sleep plus so many things happened.. I am getting so hot temper.. better stay away and have a mile of distance from me! The kindergarten students were doing a bit wrong, I started to use my cane(scared them only, wouldn't beat them anyway) and raised up my voice.. They scared until forgot how to write capital t and l.. making me more angry and scolded them again.. My grandmother keep saying:" Don't yell la, tomorrow you sure lost your voice and will having sore throat! Teach them slowly la"

Result had released two days ago.. One word: WORST! My result didn't hit my target.. and I have to decide weather I wanna stay at APIIT or change college.. If I continuing in APIIT, what course I should take! DAMN!! God, please lead me.. I am going to mad..

There are too many things which consider as privacy, making me stressed like hell.. Adding on my own problems, I am going to CRAZY!! Wanna release in my blog, don't know is my laptop problem or streamyx problem, the websites are loading so damn slow, type words also appearing on the screen so slow, MSN messenger keep hanging until making all my browsers and files hang also.. Making me wanna throw my laptop away!