Was reading one of my friends blog just now.. In a sudden, got many feelings wanted to say out.. That's the reason why I decided to sign in my blogger.. :)
Don't blame me, already told you guys don't scroll down jor... hehehe :p Anyway, I took this while I am doing my revision, so the expression got abit weird? keke and I know I fat already.. so, my diet plan on back.. ^^ ok la, have to go back to my revision now le, take care dudes!

today very tired, but don't know why still feel so energy..
many things happened in a day..
if can, I will choose not to care..

met up with my best buddy today..
planned of doing revision with her..
then recived Dad's call.. (it's a bad news but I will skip it cause is out of the topic)
so we went to Old Town White Coffee..
and then she told me about her love problem..
so this is the reason why I am here..

yea, I asked her to give up cause the fella ain't worth to love with..
somehow, if a guy really likes a girl, he will understanding the girl, care about the girl, not to dump nor leave the girl in that way..
sometimes treat the girl so good, sometimes treat her so cold..
It is really hard to know what is HIM thinking about..
so I immediately ask her to give up..
I know is hard and really needs much time..

after finish listen her story, I feel like I am having the same situation like her..
I really mind the two sentences that he told me..
even though it is just a small matter, but still it's hurt.. deeply hurt..
He will never never know how hurt is that..
sometimes, I really don't know what he is thinking about..
I know he does everything sure got a purpose..
izzit including our relationship?
now, I got the answer already and I know 'how much' he really likes me..
is not that I don't want to trust..
is I feel that I am not even as your friend..
I am worst than your normal friend.. ( not to say no, I can proof it!)
If a guy really likes a girl, he will feel like wanna protect the girl..
he will wanna share the girl's problems with her not leave her alone to face all the problems..
so that day in the phone, i asked about that question, I got the answer now le..

what's really in your mind??
I really want to know..
if you really feel not happy, just tell me you don't feel happy at all..
i don't want everytime when I ask you, you say happy..
but at the end?
I just want an honest answer, not to have lies in a relationship..

well, if you think you will be more happy without me, I will let you go..
if I never bring any happiness to you, then I will just tell you that, I did my best already and tried to create those memories belongs to us..
but now, it seem like all my effords are not working..
until now, still you don't understand me enough..
if not, we won't have so many misunderstanding in between us..

If you are reading this, you might be thinking this is a bad news or whatever.. but I just wanna pour out what I am really thinking of and I really don't want to force you doing the thing that you don't like.. maybe without me, you will feel more happy..

so?

finish my feelings le.. can be another sleepless night for tonight? maybe yes or maybe no... good night dude!

Basically everyone knows that Iphone 3Gs is going to launch in Malaysia in coming 4 days, which is on this coming friday.. Well, can't deny that I am one of the APPLE's fans.. XD haha, so IF i got money, I sure go and buy the Iphone 3Gs, ELSE I can go to my dreamland and steal the Iphone from maxis le.. :p

And when I read the advertisement in the newspaper, it's really a miracle that maxis is having such a reasonale price for the Iphone.. yea, kinda shocked.. :):) Anyway, I haven't get into the point that why I like Iphone so much right? here we go~~

• Many company try to plag Iphone's design, but still~~~ no comment. That's why at last I still like the design of the phone XD
• I've been tried for SOME phones which are touch screen series, and seriously, I touch until very frustrated and wanna throw the phones.. I need to press kinda hard only can proceed.. That's another reasons why I prefer the Iphone as their touch screen very sensitive XDD
• really improve alots compare to the first series of the Iphone xD
• 90% of the Iphone users will continue using the latest Iphone. On the other words, they are satisfied with the phone products.
  
• the features are getting more and more such as : video recording and speed increasing
  
• I am one of the Iphone lovers... keke :p

I am currently waiting for the price to drop drop and drop even though now the price is reasonable.. hehehe ( I know I still need to wait for half or another one year, never mind, since I am very patient geh, I can wait =D ) anyway, I can't wait until this friday weh... I sure go maxis there and nosy around there :p

yeah.. I did promised to someone that I will open my blog back after my birthday..
But I am really busy at this moment..
many things happened to me..
I hate it..
the feeling is just like: get out!!
I don't trust everyone in this world..
even the person that I love..
The only person that I can believe is in myself, at least at this moment..

since you already decided to close your blog..
then just go..
I don't care anymore..
I most hate to force people doing the thing that he/she don't like..
anyway, I am kinda emo right now..

For those readers who still read my blog..
I will post a new post up by this week..
bye and take care..

Well, well,
when i wake up this morning,
i wasn't in a good mood actually.
maybe,
headache with my assignments and class tests..
starting from tomorrow,
every week, I will be having one class test and hand in one assignment..
month of July~~
I should be happy cause it's my month..
but, this year is different..
unless got people can give me some surprise.. =)
unfortunately,
3rd July- Business economics test
7th July-Business economics assignment
13th July-Organization Behaviour test
14th July-Managing in Information System assignment
20th July-Networks & Networking assignment..
God Bless me plsss. :(:(

maybe too stress in my assignment le..
this morning, when I bathing that time,
guess what I did?
I apply the body shampoo on my hair..
DAMN!!!
argh, maybe when people who are not in a good mood, do what also that blur.. ==

then went tuition..
after the tuition,
go dinner with my gor..
hahaha..
long time didn't meet him up already..
the last time i met him was on Christmas day..
so, we choose some place where are not that jam..
(wanna come back early to do my assignment)
while inside his car, i told him that i feel like eating Madam Kwan..
and whatever food I mentioned, he also say no problem..
anyway, he promised he will treat me REAL shark fin soup just now.. :p

when we reached Madam Kwan..
woah~~~
damn full, if you didn't made a booking,
you won't have a chance to eat it tonight..
so we changed our dinner to fish manhattan!!
whee whee~~

since gor said I can order what I want and there is no limit,
and I am so hungry..
so I order two dishes..
hehe

the first dish, since I am too hungry already, so didn't snap the photo down..
the second dish, taa deng~~~



while waiting for the food to come, hehe show you guys who is my gor.. hahaha



he said I changed already oo..
well, for me, he changed alot also..
(or perhaps, I don't observe he is having this attitude?? lol)
he is getting more and more gentleman le..
hahah, *eh, happy or not, i praise you weh :p*
when i bought a packet of sweet, then while we are walking, he asked me: you need I help you to take or not?
then, when he sent me back to take my car, he insists of sending me to my car but I rejected cause I think of only few steps and since I ate until very full, so I wanna do some exercise..
who know?
he really follow me at the back and SEE me getting inside my car then only he went back..
lolx, how sweet he is neh..
feel so lucky to have a gor gor like him.. =)
class going to start next week right?
know you will start busying le, all the best in your studies..

haha, enough crapping le..
so now, have to go back to my assignment..
take care everyone.. :)

I just want a peaceful life..
Is that so hard for that?
Is that consider a too much request in a life?

I respect you..
but can you just stand on behalf me and think of it?
when you don't have enough money that time, I give you my money..
I never ask you to pay for the petrol money..
but you treat me just like your driver, demand me to send you here and there..
you don't even appreciate me..

Do you really think that I need a part time job if I really have enough money?
when I have a car, service, parking tickets, toll, incurance, road tax, everything just need money!
and my saving is going to finish soon..
I am not a bank that produce money..
but what you said to me?
I like money so much, so I teach tuition.
why wouldn't I spend the time to other places such as hanging out with friends or do revision?
hurt..

you scolded my tuition students..
do you think they will respect you?
you switch on the television and increasing the volume..
what they will think of you?
you already chase all my previous tuition student,
now if this tuition also gone, will you responsible it and pay the money to me?
no, you won't cause I know you extremely well..

I need freedom.
I just want to do the thing that I should do.
but everytime you just control my life..
I have to follow what you want me to do..
this is suffering..
can you being more understanding a little bit?
and stop banging the door, switch off the light while i am bathing..
I just want you to respect me back..

Ever since my gor wanna know my latest life, so here is my latest post.. =)

today..
my mood is damn happy..
the whole day, spending my time with someone special..
for someone, he might be crying now..
(you should know the reason why? hehe :p)
take out the receipt and calculate it.. XD

the first time, go hang around inside ikea with him..
It was his idea and I don't keen it when he told me his idea..
BUT,
when we enter in, we test and play alot of their furnitures..
we enjoyed ourselve there..
fun, really fun..
and you know what?
it's a great feeling when you hang out with the one that you like in a furniture shop..
cause you will hope that, one day, you and him will have a sweet sweet home.. =)

you know what's the moment that I hate the most?
the moment of saying goodbye to him..
I don't know when I will be having such a great day with him again..
so, I don't want to say goodbye to him..

leaving him just for the past 1hour and 30 minutes,
yet I started to miss him so badly..
I hope he will just right besides me now..
hug me tightly like how he usually hug me..
give me a goodnight kiss like how he usually kiss me..

ok le..
got to log off now as I am going to meet him in my sweet dreams now..
heheh
xoxo



p/s: my semester break is starting from tomorrow, anyone is free, can ask me out for a drink ya..
:):)