Dear Heavenly Father,

I am facing many dilemma now.. You know my current feeling the best.. I know, I have been stop attending church since many months ago.. I am just like a lost lamb, turning here and there, just to find my shelter, but I know I let you disappointed deeply..

I don't like this kind of life.. not enough sleep, entertain people until late night just because of wanna earn few more thousand.. Money will never earn finish, but if you still not satisfied with the money that you earning, sorry to say that, the biggest mistake that you have ever made in you life is earning unlimited money.. I really wonder what kind of mind is this.. To earn more money, can even scarified your own health? Do you think that healthy life can't use money to buy back? This is just a wrong way of earning money.

Stressful life is making me can't breathe. You don't allow human to be greedy.. We can't get everything we want. Therefore, we need to learn how to sacrifice. but I believe that you will always besides me, leading me to the best, cause you know me the best.. :)

Why am I still having these feelings? When he is having fun with his friends, I am abandoned.. His friends will always come first instead of me.. He will never rejected his friends but me.. Stop telling me how important I am for you cause you just say, no action at all.. Stop giving me all that empty promises, I am terribly sick of it.. Besides that, I finally can understand the feeling you are having last time cause I am facing the same feeling too.. I can insist of continue but too bad the feeling u r giving me is getting more disappointed.. But I believe, dear father, the right guy you are preparing for me is waiting for me in my future.. I should learn to obey and wait..

That's the end of my feelings..