so I will just spend 10 minutes here..
arrghhhhhh..
wonder why I feel that I am so bad..
exam is coming so so soon and yet I still got no mood to start with my revision..
maybe my mood is in chirtsmas mood already? or I've lost my motivation..
shit la... I can't ruin my last semester in this way BUT I really need some MOTIVATION!!!

there is only one motivation that can motivate me to go on... but I am so shy to say it out.. haha oh, and sunny guy is not the motivation, never ever! XD

ok la, actually I don't have the mood to study today is because of I am feddup on something.. the whole day, my mood not good anyway.. but it's a long story to write out so I decided to post here some other days..

ok.. I think time's up already right? I have to go for my study now even though I don't feel like doing it.. take care~~ :)

A warmly welcome to November... :p
So before I continue, I wanna wish two people happy birthday..
First person is, my very old friend from high school, a pretty plus adorable girl, a hardworking girl, a friendly girl, a sweet girl which is Missy Adeline Boey!! keke (possibility for her to read this post is 0) XD anyway, all the best in everything.. It has been long time since we last met in high school... :( If not seeing her in future, I am going to forget how she looks like.. hehe hope to catch up soon... :)
Second person is, my ex-high schoolmate plus National Service(Delta) same batch and group which is Mr. Yin Hoo.. and he is such a busy guy.. haha.. anyway, may ur dreams come true... XD

The starting of this blog is so damn lame? yeah, agree! I have so many things to write down, but don't know where to start of.. So, step by step, will start with November.. Oh great, it is such a busy, stressful,headache month.. one assignment is going to deal in this coming friday.. and I haven't started yet.. (good student, isn't it? :p) class test and other assignments are coming up... and I still feel so lazy... gosh, please get rid of this lazziness..... anyway, the only assignment which attracting me is accounting, and I wonder who will be my assignment-mate.. *wink wink*

My youngest aunt came back to Malaysia and work for few months.. she will be going to perlis on 4th Nov, if I am not mistaken.. so currently, she will be staying with me and my mom.. even though we are staying together, but hardly can meet up.. By the time she reaches home, I already in my dreamland.. and when I wake up in the morning, she is still sleeping.. so yeah, the timing is really upside down.. oh ya, one thing, she bought a white Iphone 3GS few days ago... *sigh* I wish that she will come to me and say: girl, this phone is for u as ur Christmas's present! XDD nothing is impossible right? hehe

Don't knnow why suddenly no mood to continue writing.. maybe now I am headache-ing with my managing service's assignment.. TT ok la, will back once I finish my college stuffs.. take care dudes!

well well well, I can't deny that I am getting lazier day by day... :)
thanks to the APIIT's holiday lor..
First, is Raya's holiday, then after a week, is our semester break..
Our syllabus still haven't cover until half.. let's see this semester what kind of result I can score.. keke!


I had 2 bad dreams in this weeks..
seem so real..
scared until I woke up in the early morning..
hopefully, it's just a dream, won't happen in reality.. XD

so, let me recall back what kind of wonderful and fun activities I had in this few weeks..


09-10-2009
Hang out with Andrew, Jue Lin, Kelly and Kelly's friend-Guo Bing.. We had sushi zamai for our lunch.. so much of non-stop laughter, from sushi zamai brings to Garden mall, then brings to midvalley and carry the laughter to Andrew's car.. me and kelly really laugh like a mad girl, if you people don't know us, somehow, you guy will think that we got problem, a BIG problem.. lol!enjoyed anyway!! XD


11-10-2009
Kenneth suddenly organized a gathering for 5P1's member.. Those people who joined this gathering were Corey, Choon Yip, Yap Ning, Chee Jong, Billy, Kok Wai, Gee Hau, Gui Yang, John, Siew Ching, Hui Yee, Kit Ying, Hui San, Weng Fei, Kai Yean, Kenneth, and me.. After the lunch, we went for a movie called rebellion? (not sure the spelling is correct or not) The worst part was, THEY ALL throw me to sit with my gor. zzz even yap ning also joined them to bully me.. sad sad... =.=" anyway, overall the gathering is nice.. haha have so much fun ... XD hope we will have another gathering before the Christmas like last year..
*group pictures are in my facebook, lazy to upload here.. hehe*


13-10-2009
This is sui poh, Miss Phyllis's big big day... means she old already, aww~~ fiinally!! :p so, I brought her to pyramid.. my plan was, we will have our lunch at Asia Cafe, then have snowflake, then only go pyramid.. while eating at Asia Cafe, I suddenly remember that snowflake open at 1pm.. but not that sure, so I sent a message to Chen chen for the confirmation.. When I received Chen's message, my heart breaking into many pieces... my snowflake~~~~~ :( ok, we continued our shopping plan in pyramid.. we went to HTC retailer to check out the HTC Hero.. ask ask ask, then the person told me that, if I don't like the chin of the Hero, I can wait until the HTC Tattoo, which is almost same with Hero, but this phone is chinless.. furthermore, they still not sure that HTC tattoo will launch in Malaysia or not.. but when I surf the websites, the Tattoo's features is not as good as Hero.. So, I still prefer Hero.. wait a minute, I think I go out of the topic already.. pai seh, hehe.. After HTC retailer, we went to search for some beg.. Saw a nice beg in treat, well I aim for tat at this moment, waiting for sales or anyone is so kind-hearted can sponsor me that beg? hehe.. then Phyllis spotted a handbeg in playboy, and it costs RM499.. @@ we stayed in Pyramid for 4 hours, then brought her to another place and treated her a cake.. hehe.. may ur dreams come true.. hahaha!
*pictures are in my phone, lazy to upload again.. hehe*


17-10-2009(today)
Happy Deepavali to all my Indian's friends... :):)
Went to Maha's open house this afternoon with my mom.. total got 6 people joining this celebration.. hehe .. had a delicious cookies and food by Maha's mom and aunty.. enjoyed so much and thanks to Maha and her family once again.. XD
*pictures are in Maria's phone.. hehe*

after that, went to Jusco Maluri, and shopping with my mom..
They are having a super mega sales lor.. All the branded beg are having mega discount..
nice but after the discount, still over my budget, RM500 plus plus leh, how to buy o...
so end up, bringing empty hand back.. XD

oh ya, I got my last semester result few days ago..
seriously, I am extremely not satisfied with my result..
somehow, I can do better than what I did..
because of this poor results, my CGPA drops until I got no eyes see.. TT
anyway, I will work harder, harder and harder in this semester..
wish me luck dudes! :)

ok, have to go for my accounting homework..
if not, have to see his bad face on tuesday..
tada~~

Fuyoo!!
So long didn't update my blog already.. hehe
To make sure that I am still alive in this world, so I've decided to get rid of my lazziess.. :)
Well, I am pretty good, or should say I am very enjoying my life this few months..
cause:

1. I am now in my last semester of the diploma, once finished, I can scream like hell:" I've finally completed my diploma.." It really takes such a long long period to finish this 'wonderful' course..

2. Tried something new such as went gym with Phyllis.. *at the end, still~~~ FAT!!*

3. Catch up with many friends such as my dear Yap Ning, my dear NS gang etc...

4. Went back JB twice and enjoyed myself there..

5. shopping shopping shopping~~~

6. eating eating eating~~~ (my grandmother's food, sushi zamai, haagen dazs)

7.dreaming dreaming dreaming~~~ (HERO, handbag, shoes) kekeke!

so yeah, basically I have many things to update..
but I have to cut everything short and use 7 words to summarize everything~~




I just back from JB..
I've been spending my raya holidays in my hometown..
last saturday morning, once I woke up, I was so semangat to drive back to JB..
but today, once I woke up, I was so lazy to drive..
I don't want to leave my grandmother.. (sounds like I am still a kid..)
now, I miss my grandmother so badly.. :(

yeah, everytime when I go back to my hometown,
my grandmother will cook my favourite food for me..
whatever I feel like eating, she sure will cook for me..
my beloved grandmother, take good care of me very well since I was a baby, even until now..
but this time, when I went back,
she is getting old, thin and very forgetful.. heartache.. :(
when I hold her hand, I really wanna cry out already..
I love her more than anyone..

but now, she is very easy to feel tired..
this morning, she looks so tired, yet she still insists to prepare a wonderful lunch and some food for us( me and my mom) to take back to KL..
and guess what?
she is actually not feelings well as she is having fever.. :(

so yeah, if I won't continue study in APIIT, I might be going back to JB once I completed my diploma course for some reasons..
I think my mom also will agree with me.. hehehe
anyway, it's still early to conclude and made any decisions now..
so one thing I can do is : go back to church and pray hard..
and God, please give my grandmother a good health...

oh ya.. I am wondering how come so many people are getting marry this few months..
I got many invitation.. should be happy for them but sad for me.. hahaha!
I went for a wedding ceremony last Sunday..
Had a great food, enjoyed their happiness.. (most important, the environment damn nice-the wedding held at Danga Bay..)
and one thing that cannot be missed- both of them really very cute and pretty..
next tuesday, is Fann Wong and Christopher Lee turn..
Congrats.... XD

went many shopping centers in JB..
spot some handbags..
but still, out of my budget..
so, I am saving my money now.. hehe

ok la, drove for 4 hours today, pretty tired now...
gotta go to my lovely bed..
tada~~

Was reading one of my friends blog just now.. In a sudden, got many feelings wanted to say out.. That's the reason why I decided to sign in my blogger.. :)
Don't blame me, already told you guys don't scroll down jor... hehehe :p Anyway, I took this while I am doing my revision, so the expression got abit weird? keke and I know I fat already.. so, my diet plan on back.. ^^ ok la, have to go back to my revision now le, take care dudes!

today very tired, but don't know why still feel so energy..
many things happened in a day..
if can, I will choose not to care..

met up with my best buddy today..
planned of doing revision with her..
then recived Dad's call.. (it's a bad news but I will skip it cause is out of the topic)
so we went to Old Town White Coffee..
and then she told me about her love problem..
so this is the reason why I am here..

yea, I asked her to give up cause the fella ain't worth to love with..
somehow, if a guy really likes a girl, he will understanding the girl, care about the girl, not to dump nor leave the girl in that way..
sometimes treat the girl so good, sometimes treat her so cold..
It is really hard to know what is HIM thinking about..
so I immediately ask her to give up..
I know is hard and really needs much time..

after finish listen her story, I feel like I am having the same situation like her..
I really mind the two sentences that he told me..
even though it is just a small matter, but still it's hurt.. deeply hurt..
He will never never know how hurt is that..
sometimes, I really don't know what he is thinking about..
I know he does everything sure got a purpose..
izzit including our relationship?
now, I got the answer already and I know 'how much' he really likes me..
is not that I don't want to trust..
is I feel that I am not even as your friend..
I am worst than your normal friend.. ( not to say no, I can proof it!)
If a guy really likes a girl, he will feel like wanna protect the girl..
he will wanna share the girl's problems with her not leave her alone to face all the problems..
so that day in the phone, i asked about that question, I got the answer now le..

what's really in your mind??
I really want to know..
if you really feel not happy, just tell me you don't feel happy at all..
i don't want everytime when I ask you, you say happy..
but at the end?
I just want an honest answer, not to have lies in a relationship..

well, if you think you will be more happy without me, I will let you go..
if I never bring any happiness to you, then I will just tell you that, I did my best already and tried to create those memories belongs to us..
but now, it seem like all my effords are not working..
until now, still you don't understand me enough..
if not, we won't have so many misunderstanding in between us..

If you are reading this, you might be thinking this is a bad news or whatever.. but I just wanna pour out what I am really thinking of and I really don't want to force you doing the thing that you don't like.. maybe without me, you will feel more happy..

so?

finish my feelings le.. can be another sleepless night for tonight? maybe yes or maybe no... good night dude!

Basically everyone knows that Iphone 3Gs is going to launch in Malaysia in coming 4 days, which is on this coming friday.. Well, can't deny that I am one of the APPLE's fans.. XD haha, so IF i got money, I sure go and buy the Iphone 3Gs, ELSE I can go to my dreamland and steal the Iphone from maxis le.. :p

And when I read the advertisement in the newspaper, it's really a miracle that maxis is having such a reasonale price for the Iphone.. yea, kinda shocked.. :):) Anyway, I haven't get into the point that why I like Iphone so much right? here we go~~

• Many company try to plag Iphone's design, but still~~~ no comment. That's why at last I still like the design of the phone XD
• I've been tried for SOME phones which are touch screen series, and seriously, I touch until very frustrated and wanna throw the phones.. I need to press kinda hard only can proceed.. That's another reasons why I prefer the Iphone as their touch screen very sensitive XDD
• really improve alots compare to the first series of the Iphone xD
• 90% of the Iphone users will continue using the latest Iphone. On the other words, they are satisfied with the phone products.
  
• the features are getting more and more such as : video recording and speed increasing
  
• I am one of the Iphone lovers... keke :p

I am currently waiting for the price to drop drop and drop even though now the price is reasonable.. hehehe ( I know I still need to wait for half or another one year, never mind, since I am very patient geh, I can wait =D ) anyway, I can't wait until this friday weh... I sure go maxis there and nosy around there :p

yeah.. I did promised to someone that I will open my blog back after my birthday..
But I am really busy at this moment..
many things happened to me..
I hate it..
the feeling is just like: get out!!
I don't trust everyone in this world..
even the person that I love..
The only person that I can believe is in myself, at least at this moment..

since you already decided to close your blog..
then just go..
I don't care anymore..
I most hate to force people doing the thing that he/she don't like..
anyway, I am kinda emo right now..

For those readers who still read my blog..
I will post a new post up by this week..
bye and take care..

Well, well,
when i wake up this morning,
i wasn't in a good mood actually.
maybe,
headache with my assignments and class tests..
starting from tomorrow,
every week, I will be having one class test and hand in one assignment..
month of July~~
I should be happy cause it's my month..
but, this year is different..
unless got people can give me some surprise.. =)
unfortunately,
3rd July- Business economics test
7th July-Business economics assignment
13th July-Organization Behaviour test
14th July-Managing in Information System assignment
20th July-Networks & Networking assignment..
God Bless me plsss. :(:(

maybe too stress in my assignment le..
this morning, when I bathing that time,
guess what I did?
I apply the body shampoo on my hair..
DAMN!!!
argh, maybe when people who are not in a good mood, do what also that blur.. ==

then went tuition..
after the tuition,
go dinner with my gor..
hahaha..
long time didn't meet him up already..
the last time i met him was on Christmas day..
so, we choose some place where are not that jam..
(wanna come back early to do my assignment)
while inside his car, i told him that i feel like eating Madam Kwan..
and whatever food I mentioned, he also say no problem..
anyway, he promised he will treat me REAL shark fin soup just now.. :p

when we reached Madam Kwan..
woah~~~
damn full, if you didn't made a booking,
you won't have a chance to eat it tonight..
so we changed our dinner to fish manhattan!!
whee whee~~

since gor said I can order what I want and there is no limit,
and I am so hungry..
so I order two dishes..
hehe

the first dish, since I am too hungry already, so didn't snap the photo down..
the second dish, taa deng~~~



while waiting for the food to come, hehe show you guys who is my gor.. hahaha



he said I changed already oo..
well, for me, he changed alot also..
(or perhaps, I don't observe he is having this attitude?? lol)
he is getting more and more gentleman le..
hahah, *eh, happy or not, i praise you weh :p*
when i bought a packet of sweet, then while we are walking, he asked me: you need I help you to take or not?
then, when he sent me back to take my car, he insists of sending me to my car but I rejected cause I think of only few steps and since I ate until very full, so I wanna do some exercise..
who know?
he really follow me at the back and SEE me getting inside my car then only he went back..
lolx, how sweet he is neh..
feel so lucky to have a gor gor like him.. =)
class going to start next week right?
know you will start busying le, all the best in your studies..

haha, enough crapping le..
so now, have to go back to my assignment..
take care everyone.. :)

I just want a peaceful life..
Is that so hard for that?
Is that consider a too much request in a life?

I respect you..
but can you just stand on behalf me and think of it?
when you don't have enough money that time, I give you my money..
I never ask you to pay for the petrol money..
but you treat me just like your driver, demand me to send you here and there..
you don't even appreciate me..

Do you really think that I need a part time job if I really have enough money?
when I have a car, service, parking tickets, toll, incurance, road tax, everything just need money!
and my saving is going to finish soon..
I am not a bank that produce money..
but what you said to me?
I like money so much, so I teach tuition.
why wouldn't I spend the time to other places such as hanging out with friends or do revision?
hurt..

you scolded my tuition students..
do you think they will respect you?
you switch on the television and increasing the volume..
what they will think of you?
you already chase all my previous tuition student,
now if this tuition also gone, will you responsible it and pay the money to me?
no, you won't cause I know you extremely well..

I need freedom.
I just want to do the thing that I should do.
but everytime you just control my life..
I have to follow what you want me to do..
this is suffering..
can you being more understanding a little bit?
and stop banging the door, switch off the light while i am bathing..
I just want you to respect me back..

Ever since my gor wanna know my latest life, so here is my latest post.. =)

today..
my mood is damn happy..
the whole day, spending my time with someone special..
for someone, he might be crying now..
(you should know the reason why? hehe :p)
take out the receipt and calculate it.. XD

the first time, go hang around inside ikea with him..
It was his idea and I don't keen it when he told me his idea..
BUT,
when we enter in, we test and play alot of their furnitures..
we enjoyed ourselve there..
fun, really fun..
and you know what?
it's a great feeling when you hang out with the one that you like in a furniture shop..
cause you will hope that, one day, you and him will have a sweet sweet home.. =)

you know what's the moment that I hate the most?
the moment of saying goodbye to him..
I don't know when I will be having such a great day with him again..
so, I don't want to say goodbye to him..

leaving him just for the past 1hour and 30 minutes,
yet I started to miss him so badly..
I hope he will just right besides me now..
hug me tightly like how he usually hug me..
give me a goodnight kiss like how he usually kiss me..

ok le..
got to log off now as I am going to meet him in my sweet dreams now..
heheh
xoxo



p/s: my semester break is starting from tomorrow, anyone is free, can ask me out for a drink ya..
:):)

1. Besides your lips ,where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?
hmm, forehead i think..

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning ?
will wake up 10 more minutes later.. :p

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with ?
pam.. using Afey's mac air.. lol

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled ?
probably yess..

5. Will you ever donate blood ?
can u imagine a person will faint immediately when she sees blood can donate blood? so, what do u think? :p

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex ?
lolx.. yup

7. Do you want someone to be dead ?
nope..

8. What does your last text message say ?
to snuffel de, so it's S.E.C.R.E.T =)

9. What are you thinking right now ?
what I will be doing the whole day..

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right now ?
definitely la..

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
around 1.30am

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
my grandmom bought it from pasar pagi (morning market)..

13. Is someone on your mind right now ?
yes, wonder he is still a pig now.. XDD

14. Who was the last person who text you ?
snuffel XD

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz:
1.Chee Jong
2.Kok Wai
3.Su Chen
4.Hui See
5.Chin Han
6.Phyllis
7.Chee Hoe
8.Kit Ying
9.Keh Huat
10.Yee Feng

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with ?
single.. (kok wai, I guess it correct or not? :p)

16. Is no.3 a male or a female ?
female

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together , would it be a good?
well, I don't think both of them are gay.. xD

18. What is no.1 studying about ?
ACCA in sunway college

19. When was the last time you chatted with them ?
so many, who do u mean wor?

20.Is no.4 single?
not sure wor, only know she got many admirers.. xoxo(dear, don't kill me ya hehe)

21. Say something about no.2
well, he is really a nice friend to be.. very loyal to the one he loves and well, will very easy to get hurt as well.. not a bad guy but is a mature guy..

22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being together ?
lesbian =)

23. Describe no.9?
LOLX.. I used to call him as 'huai zai' when we were in high school time.. a very quiet guy.. like to smile when i bully him.. == his handwriting damn neatly de, at least neatly than me.. xoxo very good in drawing.. =) enough? or still want me to continue? ;p

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight ?
can't imagine that.. no7 will lose cause he will never fight with a girl, somemore is a leng lui.. ;P

25. Do you like no8 ?
definitely, what a cute and nice baby she is.. =)

It's time to update my blog..
I also don't know where to start.. hehe
Well, I will just start with~~


oh no.. that means I am gonna let him 'zat' back in class already.. :(
anyway, welcome back and where is my present?
I want big big de present ya!! Don't forget to bring it on Monday.. hehe :p

Can't wait until next week..
for three reasons..
first one, not to release at this moment..
second one, my dearest aunt will back to KL for two days..
means, I will have many handbags, cap, watch, and some clothes.. xD
and she came back actually got another thing to do..
hopefully, she won't say: girl, you fat alot already, start keep fit now!! :(
and for the last reason will be: BUH bye to my SAD module..
so after next week, I can watch night at the musuem 2 le.. anyone interested, can ask me along ya.. ^^

was staying at my best friend's house last week..
when I reached her house, her brother came out and bring me in..
and when I step inside her house, her dad and her were waiting me there..
then her dad touch my head and say: silly girl, everything will ok soon..
I really feel so touch..
uncle somemore say: this is part of the experience in life.. when you can overcome it, you are actually learning something on it, this wil make you grown up and be more mature.. don't care about your family stuffs at this moment, be what you should be, do what is your responsibilities..
actually, I knew this principle long time ago..
sometimes, it's just hard, hard to go through it..
but don't know why, when uncle told me that time, I feel so warm, so calm..
and I feel like calling uncle: dad..

let me explain first..
I read an article about friend vs best friend long time ago..


Friend: calls your parents by mr. and mrs.
Best friend: calls your parents dad and mom.

Friend: has never seen you cry
Best Friend: has always had the best shoulder to cry on

Friend: never asks for anything to eat or drink
Best friend: opens the fridge and makes herself at home

Friend: asks you to write down your number.
Best friend : they ask you for their number ( cuz they can't remember it)

Friend: borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back
Best friend: has a closet full of your stuff

Friend: only knows a few things about you
Best friend: could write a biography on your life

Friend: will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing
Best friend: will always go with you


At first, I can't get it..
why you will call your best friend's parents as dad and mom?
now, I completely understand it as I can feel it..
thanks God, let me to meet this friend up..
always be my side no matter what..
cry with me when I am crying..
and I learn one thing from her family, tolerate with each other..
Thanks Phyllis dear..
appreciate many things that you did to me..
I wanna wish you all the best in your final and must update after your exam..
Don't dump your blog in this way wei.. so pity.. xD

Oh ya.. Von von is having a semester break in 3rd week of June..
and I feel like wanna go vacation..
anyone is free, do let me know ya..
ok la, I think I have to get back to my thing..
have a nice weekends.. =)

突然间，
有很多我的想法，我很想把它抒写出来。
我真的很想知道你们觉得我是个怎样的人。
现在的我，
真的觉得很辛苦，真的!
我很想大哭一场。。

最近，实在发生太多事情了。
终于，
我再也不能承受了，累到我真想睡了就不想再起身!

我想我在朋友们的眼中，
应该算是乐观，脸上常带着笑容的吧!
对我而言，
我的烦恼，我的问题，我从不让我的朋友知道。
除非，那个朋友值得让我 信任。。

我的父亲，脾气还是那么的坏；
我的母亲，还是老样子。。
那一天，
我在忍无可忍的情况下，
打了通电话给文诗。。
我竟然说出了这句话: 文诗，我现在很想自杀!
我真的失去了安全感，对这个世界，人为，感觉到十分的厌倦!

可能是我家庭的关系，
使我不想待在家中，
使我很想早点组织一个家庭。。
很可惜，
我在我的感情世界里，受了重伤。。
对任何一个追求我的人，防有戒心!
因为只有这样，我不会再增加我的伤痕。。

突然间，
我很想念我的阿嬷。。
从小到大，她把我照顾得无微不至。。
到现在，每每我遇到问题时，
她都会很紧张的联络我。。
听到她那紧张的声音，我觉得我真的很没用，
我都这样大了，还需要阿嬷担心我。。

很多真实的事情，
并非像你们所看见的酱。。
表面上，我很开心，很乐观；
私下的我，开心，快乐都不存在我的字典里。
真我，
只有那些看过，听过我的泪水声。。

人生，
充满着希望，梦想，美好的事情。。
我对我的人生是:
我只希望我能得到真正的快乐，知道‘幸福’，这两个字是怎样写的。

yeah, due to my laziness,
so I wanted to close my blog..
too many things happened on me lately..
annoying, stressful, almost wanna burst already..
plus my friends are concerning about my blog,
I decided to re-open back..

lately, very tired..
my mom lost her car..
klang and cheras,
running here and there..

got my result on last friday..
thanks God, I pass all my subjects..
at least I no need to worry about my result..
but, 5 assignments are coming..

anyway,
my blog is back now..
and I hope I can update more often..
take care dude.. :)

曾经何时，
我问过一为朋友，

我: 如果她真的有了你的孩子，你会如何去解决?
他: 能怎样解决，不就把孩子拿掉啦!

我顿时傻了一下。 也难怪他会有这样的想法，现今的社会你问同样的问题，十个有八个会这样回答。
男生到底把女生当成是什么啊?
利用完了，就酱把她们抛弃吗?
有没有想过她们的想法是什么?

曾经何时，
我遇过一位女生愿意为了她的男友，什么事情都做。
可是，他的男友根本就不值得她这样的牺牲啊!
她根本不知她的男友在她的背后做了许多对不起她的事。
我看见了，只能把自己当成哑巴。
因为，
当她知道后，她会说:没关系，我相信他，他会改的。
又或着，
她根本就接受不到这个事实!
看了真辛酸。。。
是否觉得这位女生很笨?
她并不是无条件，何必把自己弄得这样不开心呢?
不论你有多喜欢他，可是他所带给你的伤害，足以让你能真正的放弃他。
理由就是:他不值得你这样为他!不值得!!

女生真正内心的想法，只有女生才能了解。
也就因为酱，
情侣们，夫妻们，都会为了有的没的吵了起来。
被自己喜欢的人，一而再，再而三的伤害自己，
没亲自体验，是不能了解那是多么的痛!
一次一次的道歉，一次又一次的原谅，
伤上加伤，已形成了一道无形的疤痕。

女生，是否该为了自己而学自私一点，
狠下心肠，拒绝原谅?

或许，女生们自私一点，才能保护自己。
或许，女生们自私一点，才能显示出我们的自尊。
或许，女生们自私一点, 才能让男生们觉得， 女生是需要被尊重的。
女生，是被保护的 ‘动物’。
女生，是需要被疼，而不是被伤害的!


是否要等到失去后，才发现她的好，才发现她是多么的重要?
很可惜，机会不会常有，一旦失去了，他们就开始觉得很惋惜。
为何不在失去前，去珍惜她们?
好好对待她们呢?

我是为女生，我想我是时候在感情上学自私了吧! :)

Went Jogoya with Phyllis dear, Jane, Jasmin and Sharon.. 3 monash gang and me alone is from APIIT.. haha so, while waiting for Phyllis's dad come UM to fetch me, I took some camwhore.. ^^


Since the late lunch is the cheapest,2pm-4.20pm, and Jane got the buy 2 free one ticket, we appointed to meet at 1 something at the KL sentral monorail.. So yeah, everyone just didn't take their brunch.. the food is not bad, and each of us only paid RM48.88 including service charge and tax.. I know it's cheap cause we met up a kind-hearted and handsome uncle.. XD so, the group photo, is still with Jane, can't upload here.. hehe

nothing special.. as usual going to college.. at night.. my mom brought me to connaught pasar malam and she bought 2 rabbits.. lazy to take photo.. hahaha

'dating' with Phyllis dear dear.. buy a creme dress with 10% discount.. and a formal trousers for RM39.. then while having McDonald, accidently saw Kit Wai, Ee Tuck, Chummy and ~~~ hahaha.. so shocked..



Today is the third classes of Organisation Behaviour.. and yea the lecturer is making me so pissed off with him.. and not only me alone dislike him.. he is such a sucks lecturer.. the story begins~~
Group 1: when the members wanna explain their points, he determine their point is incorrect without finish listening thier explaination..
Group 2: which is me! when I wanna present our points, he stopped me from presenting and said: Kugan, you present it cause you are the one who write it.. wtf?
come one la please, we discuss and clearly understood each of the points before he write on the paper.. and before Kugan wrote on it, he did asked my permission also.. what the stupid reason you stop me from presenting?? next time when I am not doing anything, please don't say that I am not contribute myself! WHAT A BIAS LEATURER HE IS!! one more time he treats me at the same way and I will do feedback on you..
Group 3: without any asking, straight away scold them didn't listen what he is saying during the lesson.. wtf?
Fine.. I was like: today is monday leh.. why he wanna make each of us so so emo.. then I met my ex-classmate's best buddy in the foyer.. A very long time I didn't meet him already.. so today when I see him, I go and greet with him.. guess what is his first word to me? you changed alot.. "I know I fat already.. I wanna cry jor, so don't mention it anymore.." I answer.. "No ar, you are not fat ar, you change until very pretty only.." He continue.. I was like @@, he very seldom praise people pretty de wor.. LOL made my whole day up.. haha.. happy until I pull Ee Tuck and say: got people praise me pretty leh... wuahahha... very 38 I know.. XDD then while waiting my mom come and fetch me, I meet him up again, and he praise me once again to my another friend.. whee~~ hahahha

haven't finish my blog yet actually, will be continue soon.. good night~~

Was back from JB yesterday..
My "jiu mu'' gave me some helpful advised few days ago..
seriously I am so so happy when I was at JB..
but when my grandma said: von, it's time to go back to KL now..
my heart starting to beat so fast.. :'(
still, I have to face it no matter what..
even though I wanna go back JB to continue my study, I still have to settle my studies in APIIT now..
so, this is reason why I am here.. :):)
once I graduate my diploma course, then only I think again which college to register in JB..
hehe..

This semester timetable..
I hate it so much..
espeacially Monday, from 10.30am to 6.00pm..
then when I reach home, my tuition kid standing outside the door already..
don't even have a chance to take my bath or rest..
so so tired..
starting from next week, made me can't even breathe..
slot in SAD 's timetable..
made me feel more tiring.. @@

While waiting for my mom to come and fetch me..
chatting with Woon, which I long time didn't have a good chat with him..
seriously, what he scolded me really hurt me even more..
no need to feel sorry for being so straight forward..
Now, when I think back what he scolded me just now,
I feel so so sorry to him and Joey..
(I'm really appreciate I got this 2 friends.. :) )
I am letting go now, trust me..
I need time, just give me 2 weeks time(the max) and I know I can do it.. :)
My timetable for this 2 weeks already FULL of lot of activities..
see, when girls ain't in a good mood, they will go for shopping and eat alot..
and I am one of them.. hehehe
I will update what I eat, what I will buy, what I will do when I am free.. so just stay tuned! ;p

so tired now..
probably is because of it's the first day of the class..
and this afternoon, having such a great day with Maha, her sister and her sister's friends..
they made me laugh until I stomach pain..
the happiness covered my sadness..
thanks for bringing all the joy...

ok, that's all for now..
really cannot stand already...
will be back soon..
good night dudes.. =)

so yeah, I am now in JB..
It's actually a very sudden decision of my mom..

these two days,
happened an unexpected thing..
seriously, I am so scared..
now, my heart still beating so fast..
It's so hard for me to calm myself down..
My grandmom, my neighbour, they think it's a kinda serious case..
but my mom, she said I over worry..
I really really wanna tell what's happening to me to Shuffel..
but he is like so busy..
I couldn't have a chance to talk with him..
make me feel even worst.. :'(

When I reached my grandmom's house,
my grandpa, grandma and grandgrandma so happy when they see me..
make me feel like I don't want to go back to KL anymore..
I wanna throw all my sadness in KL..
really, I am really very suffering when I stay in KL..
only a person I don't bear to leave..
I don't know how to make my decision now..
so if you guys ( my classmates) didn't see me in APIIT for a week,
then you guys what's my decision already..
ok le, I got no mood to continue writing..
Ciao!

another untitled post..
lazy but still have to update.. hehe
so, this post will be a very short and quick post for my kor and Eugene =)

Kor,
so sorry, yesterday wasn't in a good mood, so I released my anger on u..
my bad mood really up to the max, seriously, I also cannot stand it anymore..
called Phyllis in the evening and night for more than an hour..
say until half, then my tears drop down..
when you asked me what's happening that time, I really very angry because my mood still has not back to normal.. that's why I treat you so badly..

Eugene,
aiyo, wondering why each time when you come and find me to chat, I sure in a super down mood.. bad luck.. ;p
I am so so sorry for making you so worry about me..
thanks for be my sides even though you can't help me to settle my problems..
and thanks for still concerning me while you are doing your revision today..
seriously, I am really really touch.. =)
you are really such a nice friend to be.. ^^
tommorow your exam is coming right?
wish you best of luck.. and you always have my support..
looking forward to meet ya soon..

I read this from an email few days ago..
For those who haven't read this, let's check it out.. :)

1. Fine
This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2. Five minutes
If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3. Nothing
This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

4. Go ahead
This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

5. Loud Sigh
This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6. That's Okay
This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7. Thanks
A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' .that will bring on a 'whatever').

8. Whatever
Is a woman's way of saying F*** YOU!

9. Don't worry about it, I got it
Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.

For guys, they must be 100% agree with this.. :p
Funny? True? or not true?
Anyway, you guys judge on it! :):)

Whee~~
First day of April, also known as April Fool.. hehe
But, when we are getting older, we usually don't have any mood to 'celebrate' on this day..
We will think of, you still playing with this ar, so childish?
So yeah, today I won't say something about April Fool..
Anyway, it seems like April will be a good month for me.. XD
becuz in this month got easter day la, will be starting my semester 2, approaching my brithday *wink wink* and so forth..

Oh ya, I changed my blog template already.. =)
very obvious, I know..
cause the previous template, I see until very boring already..
so, how is it?
JJ said: you got a bad taste for choosing your previous template.. ==
Phyllis dear said this template very nice..
for me leh, I think this template is much more better than my previous template..
actually, I wanna design the template out by myself,
but I have no idea at this moment plus those coding stuffs, so I temporary use this template.. =)

By the way, I am having 2 weeks of holiday now.. ^^
Ee Tuck so good loh, holiday-ing in Japan now.. T.T
I wish to go Genting.. =(
if can go with someone then lagi best oo.. :p
so leh, I am actually quite free want..
Anyone is so so free and kind-hearted wanna bring me out for yum cha? hehe

Ok la, crapping enough..
Wanna go sleep early tonight as I will be meeting snuffel tomorrow.. ^^
will be back soon.. =)

001. Real Name :: Chew Yi Wen
002. Nickname(s)::Yvonne, Von, Vonney
003 Age :: 19+
004.Horoscope :: Cancer
005. Male or Female :: Female
006. Elementary :: Forgot already oh..
007. Middle School :: SRJK(C) Yoke Nam, SRJK(C) Foon Yew 4, SRJK(C)Chen Moh, SRJK(C) Pandan, SRJK(C) Yak Chee
008. High School :: Catholic High School, PJ
009. College School :: APIIT/UCTI
010. Hair colour :: Black
011. Long or Short :: Short
012. Loud or Quiet :: depends mood de wor..
013. Sweats or Jeans :: Jeans
014. Phone or Camera :: Phone and camera
015. Health Freak :: not at all =)
016. Drink or Smoke :: Drink
017. Do you have a crush on someone :: LOL
018. Eat or Drink :: eat and drink
019. Piercings :: hehe
020. Tattoos :: never
021. Social or Anti-Social :: Social xD
022. Righty or lefty :: Righty
023. First piercing :: N/A
024. First relationship :: standard 6
025. First Best Friend :: form 2, Phyllis
026. First Award :: primary 3, QUIZ BM
027. First Kiss :: LoL..
028. First Pet :: Dog (Gigi)
029. First Big Vacation :: Standard 5 (Thailand)
030. First Love at first sight :: none
031. First Big Birthday :: standard 1
032. First Surgery :: none
033. First sport you joined :: swimming

This or That
034. Orange or Apple juice :: orange juice
035. Rock or Rap :: rap gua..
036. Country or Screamo :: Country
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys :: Backstreet boys.
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera :: Britney Spears
039. Night or Day :: Night ( I hate sun )
040. Sun or Moon :: Moon
041. TV or Internet :: TV and Internet
042. Playstation or xbox :: both oso not..
043. Kiss or hug :: i prefer hug..
044. Iguana or turtle :: Turtle.
045. Spider or bee :: neither
046. Fall or spring :: Spring?
047. Limewire or iTunes ::iTunes
048. Soccer or baseball :: baseball

Currently
049. watching nba game :: nope
050. Drinking :: nope
051. Excitement level :: 5/10.
052. I'm about to :: sleep
053. Listening to :: 特务J
054. Plan for today :: watch drama
055. Waiting for :: someone's sms
056. Energy Level :: 5/10
057. Thinking of someone :: Yes =)

Future
058. Want kids? :: of cuz
059. Want to get married? :: no married wheregot kids.. ==
060. When? :: when both are ready of cuz..
061. How many kids do you want :: no idea..
062. Any name on the mind :: nope
063. What did you want to be when you were little :: mummy? LOL
064. Careers in mind :: businesswoman..
065. Mellow future or wild :: mellow future?
066. Something you would never try :: be friend with cat
067. When do you want to die :: see when God says: Yvonne, I am going to take you up!

Which is the better in the boy/girl you like (in the future)
068. Lips or Eyes :: lips and eyes
069. Romantic or Funny? :: both
070. Shorter or Taller? :: taller
071. Protective or Caring? :: both
072. Romantic or Spontaneous? :: romantic and spontaneous
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms? :: arms, can hug me warmly.. ;p
074. Sensitive or Loud? :: sensitive
075. Hook-up or Relationship? :: relationship
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant? :: neither..
077. Muscular or normal :: normal..

Have you ever
078. Kissed a stranger :: no
079. Broken a bone :: no
080. Lost glasses or contacts :: yes
081. Ran away from home :: yes
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence :: yes
083. Killed somebody :: if yes, then I won't be here..
084. Broken some one's heart :: yup..
085. Had your heart broken :: yes..
086. Been arrested :: nope..
087. Cried when someone died :: yes..
088. Liked a friend more than a friend :: yes..

Do you believe in
089. Yourself :: half half loh..
090. Miracles :: yes..
091. Love at first sight :: nope..
092. Heaven :: yes..
093. Santa Claus :: nope..
094. Tooth Fairy :: nope..
095. Kiss in the first date :: yes but never try before.. lol
096. Angels :: yes
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now? :: definitely..
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now? :: not really..
099. Do you believe in God? :: yes
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people
-Chin Han
-Kok Wai
-Hui See
-Su Chen
-Yee Feng

This post supposed to be here on 13th March 2009..
But when I reached home, my mom is using my laptop..
She is not using for her work or chatting with my aunties in Canada/Hong Kong..
She is playing facebook!!
and yeah, she is addicted to facebook..
When I say I wanna use the laptop for awhile, she push me away and ask me go to sleep..
I can't go to sleep cause I am too full already..

I appointed with Phyllis on Thursday night since both of us were in a bad mood..
So, when my mom reached home, I SMS her and ask her to ready herself and wear BLACK shirt..
why black? cause it represents our mood loh..
when she got into my car, I told her that I wanna go NZX..
so yea, if you are the first time going to NZX, you sure will lost the way..
We reached there at 8.30pm, then decided to eat the steamboat..




To save our cost, we ordered one set and two plain waters at first.. But when the food came, it's not enough for us.. So, I add on one more set..







guess what happened while we are enjoying our food?
I broke their spoon!!
I know it's extremely embarrasing..
I also don't wish it happened ok..
luckly at that time, not much people there..

next next, look at our expressions..




We asked for the bill at 10.30pm..
then decided to have a walk cause both of us really full die..
all the shops closed except FULLHOUSE..
we went up to look for the clothes..
next time when I go NZX, I will go and try the FULLHOUSE..
before leaving there, we took some pictures with minnie..


Two little girls with the minnie.. Well, if you think we are FAT, you are absolutely wrong! We are just finish our dinner, so the effect, you know la.. =)

we are not only enjoying our food, we chit-chat alot of things also..
like hanging out with Phyllis.. cause I sure will feel better after that..
enjoy myself alot on that day.. =)

sorry for making you guys worry about me..
especially to my gor..
I am not telling anyone is because I think it's the problem between me and him..
The decision made me had a sleepless night..
miss him even more..

anyway, my final exam coming next week..
wish me luck..
especially visual basic..
visual studio, I am back!!
@.@

I promised my darling phyllis to blog about our new hair style long time ago..
but since I have been occupied with my assignments last few weeks, so I am delaying to post this up.. sorry dear, and here is it.. =)

well, in my class, Yi Lin is the first girl who cut her hair short.. but, I cut my hair short DEFINITELY is not because of her.. I made up my decision when I saw the picture that I took with Phyllis.. I really can't believe that's my hair!! Then the next day, I immediately went to cut my hair off.. She said my new hair style very nice and I think it's not that bad after all, hehe so I am actually quite proud with my new hair style.. But, when I go to college, GUYS gave me comments that they don't like my new hair style.. ok, I have to made the conclusion that: 99.99% APIIT guys like girls who are in long hair!!



Then, after a week.. It's Phyllis turns to cut her hair.. =)




Pictures below shown how we currently look like.. better recognize us!! ;p

Mom came back from JB this afternoon..
Well, I should be happy..
Instead, I am really happy especially my grandmother bought me Annie Chicken Rice and asked my mom to bring back for me..
yeah, I love Annie Chicken rice very much..
have been eating it since I was a kid..
until now, the uncle and aunty still remember me..
each time going back JB, sure will ask my grandmother bring me there..
Besides that, my grandmother knows that my voice wasn't feeling that well, so she brought me an organic honey..

After giving tuition, mom wants me to fetch my three tuition student back as their father is not free.. guess what? While driving my mom's car, I realizes that I am having DRIVING FOBIA!!! =( maybe mom made few times of accidents, plus I made few times of accidents, made me don't have any confidence to drive her car anymore.. I am so scared when I drive her car.. T.T

After that, my mom suddenly asked me a question.. which made my mood totally changed!
I tried not to think..
so I go and play my piano..
but, it made me feel more suffering until I immediately stop my fingers..
what to do?
I got a secret which I promised my dad not to tell my mom..
but I don't want my mom look so upset..
In between them, I can only choose ONE!
somehow, I am not really sure what I want..
If I know, I won't feel so suffering..
I really don't know what to do..
T.T



*snuffel bunny, can I lay in your arm and cry as loud as possible? =/*

WHEE~~ =)
I can't believe myself has been gone through the hard period.. hehe
come come, a big applause to von.. xD
In a sudden, I feel so proud of myself...
and I can relax now already..

so, where should I start?
ok, I sick already.. =(
my voice totally changed!
guess what my friends said to me?
"Von, I more prefer your current voice leh.."
ZZZ
and yesterday, after taking the medicine,
I slept 16 hours!!
when I meet my dad this afternoon,
he said my voice is getting better..
for those freinds who like my 'sexy voice',
have to disappointed you guys already.. xD
definitely I MUST get well by this weekends as~~~
I can't wait to hang out with someone who is so important in my life..=)
next thursday, come faster weh..

besides that, von von has been home alone since last thursady.. =(
her mom went back to JB..
coming Monday only come back to KL..
she got no transport to go shopping..
haih
what to do? stay at home to wait 'fa mou'..
santa claus, can I have a car right now?

These few days, received many calls from college friends..
thursday, since morning until night,
non-stop SMSes and calls..
"Yvonne, my flash cannot run!", "Yvonne, my flash is so cacat, how ar?", "Yvonne, what's the code for this and that.." bla bla bla
@.@
I have to put my own flash aside, then settle their problems one by one..
worst of all, when I wanna save my flash, the program stop at that time..
made me have to redo again and again
keep doing the same thing very sien de..
and ya, overall, i think my flash is sucks..
is just good in interacting with the user only..
hahaha...
I know my drawing is so lame..
what to do as I got no talent in drawing also..
friday morning, received a call from *hem* a friend..
well, it's not a good news anyway..
he is just pissed off for something...
and I hope that some some one can STOP hurting other people..
you already hurt me so deeply, and I can still pretend I what also don't know..
but I HATE you keep hurting other people...
your attitude is getting too much!!
hrmmmpt...
please change your attitude..

next, I am going to write an acknowledgement for those people who helped me in my VB assignment..
first, I wanna thank Joey.. he teaches so patiently and really help me alot alot alot.. ok, I owe you a meal and you got my word!
second, Mr.Calvin.. (surprised that your name will appear here? hehe) I keep asking him what are the errors mean when I can't debug my program..
thirdly, Eugene... support me by mentally.. when I wanna give up my VB, his words will appear in my mind.. made me can't give up at last.. so scary.. @@
ok la, I think no more jor..

Just taken medicine, now feel so sleepy..
I have to log off now..
will be upadate soon...
buenas noches! XD

不知不觉，已经有一周年了..
去年的今天，
真的不是一言一语能表达出我的心情.
当我知道真相后，
我尊重他的决定..
眼泪开始流了下来。。。

我哭，
不是因为我生气他!
是因为我讨厌我自己!
一直以来在我身边的这位男友，原来他有着自己的苦衷，自个儿的承受下来..
而我却一点都不谅解他，一直向他述说着我的不满!
我真的是一个很失败的女朋友，所以我放手了。。。

今天，
一周年了。。
对他的爱不但没有减少，反而增加了...
原因是因为我们彼此的坦诚，
使我们更了解对方。。。
千万别问我为什么还爱着他!
因为我回答不出。。。
所为他付出的，从没想过要有回报!
只是希望能尽我的能力，来解决他的难关。。。
只要能看见他的笑容，我觉得所付出的，一切都是值得的!

每每看见他时， 我真的有股冲动想要紧紧的拥抱他..
因为，我真的很想很想去保护他那受伤的心灵!
别以为男生是很强壮的，所有的问题都能自己去面对，尤其是在他们的感情世界里。。。
我不允许任何一个人去伤害他，
决不允许!!

如果我们还能再从来一次，
我不会让他一个人去面对自己的问题，我会伴着他，牵着他的手一起去面对!
我不怕辛苦，因为能陪伴在他的身边，是我最快乐的一件事情!
会有这一 天的到来吗?
我不知道。。
不敢抱着太大的希望，因为我害怕失望的越大!
最后，
衷心的祝福他能在来临的考试做到最好! =)

this morning, wasn't feeling so well,
so, my mom stop me at APIIT..
then, when I am trying to go up the stairs,
there are three dogs wanna climb the stairs too..
(black dog, white dog and brown dog)
when they see me wanna climb the stairs,
they come and follow me... zzz
hey, is not ONE dog, is THREE dogs follow me!!
doggies, if you wanna bite me or wat, can you guys just give me a signal such as barking?
if you remain silence there, how would I know what you guys wanna do to me??
so, I try to turn another way to escape them..
they still follow me so closely!!
APIIT guard is sitting there..
I was thinking: couldn't you come and help me?
In a sudden, I step the wet soil and fall down into it..
guess what happened?
they quickly turn away to keep distance from me..
then when I stand up, they turn back and look at me, like telling me:
'you are so embrassed us!!'
zzzzz
laugh laugh laugh!!
APIIT guard is like watching a funny scene there..
fine!!
(lucky still early that time, so no one see what's happening to me..)
then quickly run up to my classroom..
the worst part is: I am wearing white skirt and white shoe!!
before cleaning myself up, I do take few pictures..


Mrs Kwan likes to bully people, everyone knows that..
I already no mood, she still wanna bully me in class.. =(
taxi driver also the same!!
I can't even feel that single of the words that come out from his mouth is actually fooling at me!

then because of meeting some people up,
made my mood feels so happy and temporary forget what happened in the morning..
even though it's just a few second..
when I enter into my classroom, many people come and asked me:
"yvonne, what happened to you? you looks so happy!"
hehehe..
one of my seniors even say this to me:
"eh, you happy that time, look pretty leh.."
LoL

then received an unexpected news!!
we changed our SAD lecturer..
well, it's a good news actually..
but when we checked our timetable..
EVERYDAY also have to go for the class leh..
haih...

go to find my mom in her office after class dismiss...
Mom want me to wait for her an hour as she wanna go and do exercise..
when she comes back, she want me to help her withdraw money from her bank..
on the way to the ATM machine, hell, two motorcyclists whistle at me!!
I was like: you two whistle again and I will yell as loud as I could!!
really damn humsup people!! >.<

If now, u are asking me: mei, don't angry with me la..
I will tell u this: gor, i really forgot what I angry with you jor..
really.. these days i am super super busy..
in the way of sleeping.. lol
ok let's be serious..
I really scared of VB class test on coming monday.. =(
but everytimes when I just open the visual studio,
I feel so dizzy and headache..
I totally cannot face to the laptop..
so, I head into my bed and sleep..
thought of rest for half and hour then continue VB back..
who know? each times of the resting time, ended up at least an hour and half.. =(

VB, really cause me very very stress..
I am so helpless..
like what Eugene said:" where's the princess von's dignity?"
and thanks to him that let me find back a little bit of confidence in my VB..
and thanks for always be my side when I feel so down and helpless.. THANKS.. =)
tell you guys, 24 hours in a day is NOT ENOUGH for von von!! =(

yesterday night, I ignored you..
sorry gor, I was so so emo that time..
as I was doing my assignments and other things are bothering me..
lucky I have two of my bestest friends who accompany me and teach me what to do..
thanks lot ya yap ning dear and phyllis darling..
just feel so hang fok when I think of two of them..
always be my sides whenever I am super down..

see, i know you are having your own stress too..
busy with your dad's work..
that's one of the reason why I don't want to tell you what happened to me recently..
and I know you need me to help you to release your stress down..
(I got read your private blog weh.. hehehe.. see I so good, no matter how busy, also care for you de loh.. xD)
i am so glad that now, you know how hard your dad worked to give you and your family such a wonderful life..
I am so admire you actually, I want this kind of life also don't have..
(sleep less few hours won't die want, just for few days only ma right? because of rushing my assignmnet, I can't even sleep for few days yet I still have to attending morning class, more cham loh.. you got see I am complaining or not? I only complain I sick jor.. hehe)
so, less complain and more appreaciate, you will find out your life is different..
and then about *ahem*, you know who I meant.. XDD
how's you two going on?
you two look so miserable..
and please don't made me blur, I am now lacking of brain cells weh...

ok la, I sure will contact with you once I have gone though this hard period..
take care ya..

I just hate you visual basic!!
making my whole day so sucks..
so headache...
yet I still gonna deal with you!

when I think of you,
I got no more appetite for my meal..
why are you so cruel?

once I sign in my MSN..
here come eugene's message..
then my reply to him, very obvious that I am so down..
really wanna cry out at that time..
wish some people can just right besides me and hug me tightly..
I am so sorry to eugence actually, really wasn't in a good mood that time..
not purposely wanna ignore you de.. sorry..
and don't worry, I promised you I will get at least a pass back..
pray hard for me ya..
and all the best in ur exam...

so dudes..
how's yours valentines day?

yesterday, my mom brought me to Jusco..
While eating at Mcd, I saw :

1. many guys gave roses to their girlfriend and hugging each other tightly..
2. best friends were talking so happily there..
3. the family members were enjoying hanging out.. (they came from China)
4. single? erm.. very very hard to meet a single people there..

I woke up at 12 noon today.. xD
yesterday, wanna do all my lab visual basic exercises.. but!
I ate my medicines at 9stg pm, at 10pm, my eyes totally cannot open!
decided to lay on the sofa awhile then be continue later.. who knows?
after ahwile, when my mom wake me up, I can't even stand properly,
so my mom chase me back to my room and sleep~~
until early the morning, my mom gave me the medicine again..
made me wake up at 12 stg... zz

then, when I checked my phone..
damn!
valentines wishes from my ex-colleague..
ZZZ
was actually thinking, what's so special on this day?!
If as couple, basically everyday is a valentines day for you guys..
we can also cherish and be with the dearest everday if we want..
I just don't understand why on this day, many guys will buy roses for their girlfriends..
buy chocolates and other things to make their girlfriends happy..
dudes, please don't tell me that you guy do all these only once in a year and it's on valentines day!!
until five something, received a msn Valentines wishes from other friends..
some even feels weird when I said I just staying at home..
what's wrong for a single girl staying at home?
ZZZ

anyway, I did happy for 'something' for awhile, then emo back!!
hrmmmptt..
always dump me in this way..
yea, I use 'DUMP'..
somemore say me always afk pulak..
fine la, suddenly feel so hungry,
I go and eat my supper now..
ciao~~

Now, is 7.26am..
Many people are still in their sweet dreams..
don't have any mood to blog anyway..
but I choose to continue writing here cause I don't know what else I can do in APIIT..

Yesterday, I had a sleepless night..
don't know is because of I slept too long for my nap or is because something else is bothering me..
I did something that out of my expectation yesterday..
and there is ONLY one people who know what I did..

To someone ( you know who you are ),
please don't feel bad for telling me straight forward..
I know you told me so is just for my own good,
and I am actually 'purposely' not 'accidentally' made up that decision..

I cried..
even now, while I am blogging in APIIT,
each of the words that I am typing now, still could not stop me from thinking of him..
Each of my firends is getting sickness to me, I know that..
Someone, if your intention is just to wake me up, well, you are successed!

Later, I will be having 4 classes of visual basic..
making my mood getting even more down..
what to do? have to thanks to Miss Debra..

Lastly, wanna write out one sentece that I used to tell my NS friends..

sound innocence, I used to think of it when I am in super down mood..
At least, better than I think in negative way right?

A very quick update..

Von von fallen sick already.. =(
and I know, for those who saw me in APIIT today, 100% won't believe this..
cause I look so well and still very hyper active tim..
I won't blame you guys cause when I told my mom that I am not feeling well, she also doesn't believe me..
(but I have proof!! )

so, after class dismiss,
my mom brought me to see doctor cause I kept complaining not feeling well non stop.. hehe
then, when the doctor see me, her first question is: why are you here?
ZZZZ
I am here of cause I sick la, if not? come here to play with you ar..
got extra time, i rather go sleep better..
then she checked whether I got fever or not..
when she takes the termometer out, she said: got fever ar! who said no fever?
I was like: damn, then u still asked me come here for what? ZZZ
She continued: If your fever still no lower down in these 4-5 days, come back again and take a blood test!!
@_______________________@
My mom was besides me..
now, she finally believe that I really not feeling well..
(my mom and the doctor quite close want actually)
then, my mom asked her whether she is going to UK soon..
she answered this friday..
then I asked her going UK as travelling or staying there..
then she said she has 3 children, 2 boys 1 girl..
2 boys working there, going there just to visit them..

I requested for more stronger medicines.. as I gotta recover faster..
(3 assignments are still waiting me leh..)
Then she gave, and asked me wanna take MC or not..
tomorrow 4 classes of visual basic, if I take MC, i sure will miss out alot of things..
So, I said no!!
she praised me- HARDWORKING leh... LoL!

ok la, so it's proof time...