today very tired, but don't know why still feel so energy..
many things happened in a day..
if can, I will choose not to care..

met up with my best buddy today..
planned of doing revision with her..
then recived Dad's call.. (it's a bad news but I will skip it cause is out of the topic)
so we went to Old Town White Coffee..
and then she told me about her love problem..
so this is the reason why I am here..

yea, I asked her to give up cause the fella ain't worth to love with..
somehow, if a guy really likes a girl, he will understanding the girl, care about the girl, not to dump nor leave the girl in that way..
sometimes treat the girl so good, sometimes treat her so cold..
It is really hard to know what is HIM thinking about..
so I immediately ask her to give up..
I know is hard and really needs much time..

after finish listen her story, I feel like I am having the same situation like her..
I really mind the two sentences that he told me..
even though it is just a small matter, but still it's hurt.. deeply hurt..
He will never never know how hurt is that..
sometimes, I really don't know what he is thinking about..
I know he does everything sure got a purpose..
izzit including our relationship?
now, I got the answer already and I know 'how much' he really likes me..
is not that I don't want to trust..
is I feel that I am not even as your friend..
I am worst than your normal friend.. ( not to say no, I can proof it!)
If a guy really likes a girl, he will feel like wanna protect the girl..
he will wanna share the girl's problems with her not leave her alone to face all the problems..
so that day in the phone, i asked about that question, I got the answer now le..

what's really in your mind??
I really want to know..
if you really feel not happy, just tell me you don't feel happy at all..
i don't want everytime when I ask you, you say happy..
but at the end?
I just want an honest answer, not to have lies in a relationship..

well, if you think you will be more happy without me, I will let you go..
if I never bring any happiness to you, then I will just tell you that, I did my best already and tried to create those memories belongs to us..
but now, it seem like all my effords are not working..
until now, still you don't understand me enough..
if not, we won't have so many misunderstanding in between us..

If you are reading this, you might be thinking this is a bad news or whatever.. but I just wanna pour out what I am really thinking of and I really don't want to force you doing the thing that you don't like.. maybe without me, you will feel more happy..

so?

finish my feelings le.. can be another sleepless night for tonight? maybe yes or maybe no... good night dude!

Basically everyone knows that Iphone 3Gs is going to launch in Malaysia in coming 4 days, which is on this coming friday.. Well, can't deny that I am one of the APPLE's fans.. XD haha, so IF i got money, I sure go and buy the Iphone 3Gs, ELSE I can go to my dreamland and steal the Iphone from maxis le.. :p

And when I read the advertisement in the newspaper, it's really a miracle that maxis is having such a reasonale price for the Iphone.. yea, kinda shocked.. :):) Anyway, I haven't get into the point that why I like Iphone so much right? here we go~~

• Many company try to plag Iphone's design, but still~~~ no comment. That's why at last I still like the design of the phone XD
• I've been tried for SOME phones which are touch screen series, and seriously, I touch until very frustrated and wanna throw the phones.. I need to press kinda hard only can proceed.. That's another reasons why I prefer the Iphone as their touch screen very sensitive XDD
• really improve alots compare to the first series of the Iphone xD
• 90% of the Iphone users will continue using the latest Iphone. On the other words, they are satisfied with the phone products.
  
• the features are getting more and more such as : video recording and speed increasing
  
• I am one of the Iphone lovers... keke :p

I am currently waiting for the price to drop drop and drop even though now the price is reasonable.. hehehe ( I know I still need to wait for half or another one year, never mind, since I am very patient geh, I can wait =D ) anyway, I can't wait until this friday weh... I sure go maxis there and nosy around there :p

yeah.. I did promised to someone that I will open my blog back after my birthday..
But I am really busy at this moment..
many things happened to me..
I hate it..
the feeling is just like: get out!!
I don't trust everyone in this world..
even the person that I love..
The only person that I can believe is in myself, at least at this moment..

since you already decided to close your blog..
then just go..
I don't care anymore..
I most hate to force people doing the thing that he/she don't like..
anyway, I am kinda emo right now..

For those readers who still read my blog..
I will post a new post up by this week..
bye and take care..