today very tired, but don't know why still feel so energy..
many things happened in a day..
if can, I will choose not to care..

met up with my best buddy today..
planned of doing revision with her..
then recived Dad's call.. (it's a bad news but I will skip it cause is out of the topic)
so we went to Old Town White Coffee..
and then she told me about her love problem..
so this is the reason why I am here..

yea, I asked her to give up cause the fella ain't worth to love with..
somehow, if a guy really likes a girl, he will understanding the girl, care about the girl, not to dump nor leave the girl in that way..
sometimes treat the girl so good, sometimes treat her so cold..
It is really hard to know what is HIM thinking about..
so I immediately ask her to give up..
I know is hard and really needs much time..

after finish listen her story, I feel like I am having the same situation like her..
I really mind the two sentences that he told me..
even though it is just a small matter, but still it's hurt.. deeply hurt..
He will never never know how hurt is that..
sometimes, I really don't know what he is thinking about..
I know he does everything sure got a purpose..
izzit including our relationship?
now, I got the answer already and I know 'how much' he really likes me..
is not that I don't want to trust..
is I feel that I am not even as your friend..
I am worst than your normal friend.. ( not to say no, I can proof it!)
If a guy really likes a girl, he will feel like wanna protect the girl..
he will wanna share the girl's problems with her not leave her alone to face all the problems..
so that day in the phone, i asked about that question, I got the answer now le..

what's really in your mind??
I really want to know..
if you really feel not happy, just tell me you don't feel happy at all..
i don't want everytime when I ask you, you say happy..
but at the end?
I just want an honest answer, not to have lies in a relationship..

well, if you think you will be more happy without me, I will let you go..
if I never bring any happiness to you, then I will just tell you that, I did my best already and tried to create those memories belongs to us..
but now, it seem like all my effords are not working..
until now, still you don't understand me enough..
if not, we won't have so many misunderstanding in between us..

If you are reading this, you might be thinking this is a bad news or whatever.. but I just wanna pour out what I am really thinking of and I really don't want to force you doing the thing that you don't like.. maybe without me, you will feel more happy..

so?

finish my feelings le.. can be another sleepless night for tonight? maybe yes or maybe no... good night dude!