yvonne chew
* Well, I have to thanks the person who purposely send this article to me..
and you are right, I am this kind of girl, exactly what I always think, exactly what I always did..
wonder why you can know my inner characterise so well?
haha.. anyway thanks for the sharing..
and I think it is a good article and for those who wanna know me well,
u should read this.. :) *


有这这样一种女人,她们很傻。
貌似很花心,其实很专一;
貌似很坚强,其实比谁都要脆弱;
貌似很开心,可是笑容背后的哀伤谁又能懂呢?

其实很多时候,这一类人都是在自我折磨。
明明很爱很爱对方,却宁愿心痛也选择放手。
然后转身离开,任眼泪随意放肆。

其实很多时候,这一类人很好懂。
她们很害怕孤单,因为一个人的时候,她们会胡思乱想,
她们会想起那个没有结局的故事,会想起那个模糊却又清晰的脸庞;
因为一个人的时候,她们会觉得很没安全感。
她们的要求总是那么的低,只要爱着的那个人陪着她们就好。

其实很多时候,这种女人都很敏感,都很容易猜疑。
一个眼神、一个动作,都会让她们神经兮兮一整天。
所以如果爱她们,不要让她们恐慌,不要让她们伤心,

其实很多时候,这一类女人都在感伤。
不是她们多愁善感,只是容易触景生情罢了。
她们喜欢用文字来刻画她们的心情,这也是她们的一种寄托方式。

其实很多时候,这一类人都处在矛盾之中,
是继续,还是暂停;是放弃,还是坚持。
看似感性的她们,却往往于最后让理性驾驭整个思维。

其实很多时候,这种女人害怕看见别人的甜蜜,
不是嫉妒,只是会觉得和以前的自己好像。
然后会陷入整个回忆,等待过往的疼痛唤醒自己的意识,
再一个人慢慢舔舐自己的伤口。

其实很多时候,这种女人都很执著,有时候不明白她们在坚持着什么。
她们是在期待那个没有结局的故事的结局还是在等待更大的伤害?
她们就是傻,爱上了,就会像个洋娃娃,任意被摆弄。

这种女人,缺点太多,脾气太臭。有点任性,而且敏感多疑。
所以要么不要靠近她们,要么就用真心对待她们。
因为她们的心脆的,很伤不起。
yvonne chew


谢谢惜黎及慧仪。。
因为她们,
我们团聚了
:)

小学六年,我已经换了五间小学。。
新山吉隆坡两边跑。。
五间小学,最让我充满快乐的就是新山班兰华小。。
级任老师,也是我们的华文老师~ 许松菁老师。。
她让我们拥有非一般的上课乐趣。。
如果她的节是在最后一节,她会要我们全班唱歌,才回家。。
印象最深刻的就是‘萍聚’,因为那是她最喜欢的歌。。
她也自创了‘班兰5B知多少’。。
可惜的是,我在这学校只有仅仅的九个月。。
然后,我又转回吉隆坡读了。。

我只与数位朋友写信联络。。
其中一位还有联络到现在,她就是慧仪。。
而另一位是很特别的,值得回忆的。。
但是最后还是失联了。。
十年了。。。
期间,我尝试去找回他们,还是失败。。
在我脑海里,就只有他们小时候的样子。。。
现在看回他们的照片,如果在街上遇见他们,我们也只能擦肩而过,
因为我完全都认不出他们。。
他们都变了。。
全部同学都变瘦了,变漂亮了,变英俊了。。。
上个礼拜的班聚,我错过了。。
来临的班聚,我很想参与,可是~~~
我真的真的很想念他们。。

说真的,
这次联络回他们,
班上有80%的同学对我的印象‘模糊’。。
所谓的模糊,也就是不记得的意思。。。
直接一点嘛!呵呵

见到老师,
第一见事情就是:
许老师!我是周奕雯同学,成绩不理想,常常给你头痛的那位!
哈哈哈。。
那天与老师在面子书交谈。。
还好,老师还记得我的名字,只是记不起我的样子。。
接着,有许多同学陆陆续续问着同一个问题:
老师,你还记得我们吗?
老师说了这一句:你们是我的第一批学生,想要忘记你们还真难叻!
我想我们这一批,是另老师最头痛的吧!

小学,真好!
尤腾的这一句真好!!
每个人都变了,或许性格,行为也变了吧!
唯一不变的是,我们在一起所拥有的回忆及快乐时光!
长大了,
现在的我,依然保留着同学们小时的样子,因为:
那时我们的童真。。
想念你们,希望能尽快与你们相聚。。:):)





yvonne chew
Dear Heavenly Father,

I am facing many dilemma now.. You know my current feeling the best.. I know, I have been stop attending church since many months ago.. I am just like a lost lamb, turning here and there, just to find my shelter, but I know I let you disappointed deeply..

I don't like this kind of life.. not enough sleep, entertain people until late night just because of wanna earn few more thousand.. Money will never earn finish, but if you still not satisfied with the money that you earning, sorry to say that, the biggest mistake that you have ever made in you life is earning unlimited money.. I really wonder what kind of mind is this.. To earn more money, can even scarified your own health? Do you think that healthy life can't use money to buy back? This is just a wrong way of earning money.

Stressful life is making me can't breathe. You don't allow human to be greedy.. We can't get everything we want. Therefore, we need to learn how to sacrifice. but I believe that you will always besides me, leading me to the best, cause you know me the best.. :)

Why am I still having these feelings? When he is having fun with his friends, I am abandoned.. His friends will always come first instead of me.. He will never rejected his friends but me.. Stop telling me how important I am for you cause you just say, no action at all.. Stop giving me all that empty promises, I am terribly sick of it.. Besides that, I finally can understand the feeling you are having last time cause I am facing the same feeling too.. I can insist of continue but too bad the feeling u r giving me is getting more disappointed.. But I believe, dear father, the right guy you are preparing for me is waiting for me in my future.. I should learn to obey and wait..

That's the end of my feelings..

Love,
Your precious child- Yvonne
yvonne chew
sitting on the sofa,
listening songs from my laptop,
looking at my laptop..
I just feel no mood~

have been working in this restaurant for 2 months..
I...
still can't get used in this field..
a lot of time, I keep question myself..
:"Yvonne, did u really put on ur effort in it?"
seriously, working in a restaurant can face many interesting problems..
can learn how to grow up..
can improve myself..
can see different stages of employers..
but now, I don't think I have any improvement at all..
I am just standing at the beginning..
I am just a loser?
maybe..

April is coming tomorrow..
Hopefully everything will run smooth in this month..

*signing off silently*
yvonne chew
给于一个对我很重要的人:

我们终于有了第一次的吵架。
很多事情都瞒不过你,你总是比任何人都了解我!
知道我在想什么。
很坦白对你说,我被你宠坏了。我渐渐地变得野蛮,任性!
吵架后,心情当然很不好过!
收到你的短讯,虽然没生气你了,但还是不想妥协, 因为你还是伤害了我。
我也从没想过会跟你有吵架的一天。
当然,我也不是那么的不讲道理!
不会因为这次的吵架而在我们的关系花上句号。
因为少了你,我想我的生活会少了一份色彩!
今天的你,因该还很担心着我是否还在生你的气吧!
我想对你说:我接受你的道歉,但我也想对你说声对不起,让你担心了!




给于一个在我心里占了一部分的人:

大忙人!你真的真的很忙 。
老实说,明天很期待能跟你一起吃晚餐。
所以我留了晚上的时间给你。
我想我们也已经一个月没见面了吧!
可是。。。
我能对你发发牢骚吗?
不知为何,对你总是恨不起来!
可是有时候,我真的很讨厌你!
因为我不知道你真正在想要什么。
你对我说的话,有时我真的没有勇气去相信了。
我们错过了很多时间,因为我们不珍惜彼此。
你有你的忙,我有我的忙。
可是有时为了见你,我牺牲了一些节目。
因为没有任何事情比见你一面来得重要。
可是。。。
回想起来,好像只有我的付出,我看不见你的付出。
这能算爱吗?
因为你真的很自私
到最后换来的是你对我说:我们在一起的时间不够
我无话可说,因为我真的是尽了我的能力。
我想对你说:机会,我会给你最后一次。可是我必须要看到你是真心的对我。
我要看到你愿意为我而改变!不是只用口说说,而是以行动证明,可以吗?
yvonne chew
I hate you for ruining my day up!
yvonne chew
suddenly I have a 'feel' to update my blog.. so here I come..
time really passes so fast for this year, now only I realize that it's march now!
maybe this year, I am really busy with restaurant stuff..
went for so many restaurants, and I never notice that there are actually many problems that will occur in a restaurant.
after came in this restaurant, one sentence to conclude: I am not suitable in this field.. :)
If u know me well, u will know that I am actually wanna get into a bank, and be a banker and getting higher position. maybe after few years, I got enough money, I will open my own business but definitely not a restaurant especially focus in services. It is very tiring, trust me.
what is if u serving a very troublesome customer? It will made ur day more worst.. so I won't open a restaurant in the rest of my life..

yesterday, I had a 'feel' for traveling. lol
feel like going with my beloved.. =)
my aunt and her bf already 7 years but they are still so sweet..
both of them knowing each other so well until can he predict what she is thinking in her mind..
sometimes, they really made me feel to have a bf just like her bf, caring and protective enough..
for me, if I really wanna get into a relationship, I am serious in it, I will consider the person as my future partner...
and I hope HE is... =)
I hope this time I really can get HIS protect, HIS full love, I hope everything will work out successfully..
I hope to be HIS princess who can share all the happiness and sadness..
I hope to get a secure from HIM..
I hope to see HIM when I wake up every morning..
I hope HE is belongs to me and ONLY me..
can all my hopes come true?
the only thing I can do is, pray hard loh..
only God knows how much I love HIM and miss HIM everyday... :):)

ok, enough for here, I think I should go back to my work.. have a good day!