Dear Heavenly Father,

I am facing many dilemma now.. You know my current feeling the best.. I know, I have been stop attending church since many months ago.. I am just like a lost lamb, turning here and there, just to find my shelter, but I know I let you disappointed deeply..

I don't like this kind of life.. not enough sleep, entertain people until late night just because of wanna earn few more thousand.. Money will never earn finish, but if you still not satisfied with the money that you earning, sorry to say that, the biggest mistake that you have ever made in you life is earning unlimited money.. I really wonder what kind of mind is this.. To earn more money, can even scarified your own health? Do you think that healthy life can't use money to buy back? This is just a wrong way of earning money.

Stressful life is making me can't breathe. You don't allow human to be greedy.. We can't get everything we want. Therefore, we need to learn how to sacrifice. but I believe that you will always besides me, leading me to the best, cause you know me the best.. :)

Why am I still having these feelings? When he is having fun with his friends, I am abandoned.. His friends will always come first instead of me.. He will never rejected his friends but me.. Stop telling me how important I am for you cause you just say, no action at all.. Stop giving me all that empty promises, I am terribly sick of it.. Besides that, I finally can understand the feeling you are having last time cause I am facing the same feeling too.. I can insist of continue but too bad the feeling u r giving me is getting more disappointed.. But I believe, dear father, the right guy you are preparing for me is waiting for me in my future.. I should learn to obey and wait..

That's the end of my feelings..

sitting on the sofa,
listening songs from my laptop,
looking at my laptop..
I just feel no mood~

have been working in this restaurant for 2 months..
I...
still can't get used in this field..
a lot of time, I keep question myself..
:"Yvonne, did u really put on ur effort in it?"
seriously, working in a restaurant can face many interesting problems..
can learn how to grow up..
can improve myself..
can see different stages of employers..
but now, I don't think I have any improvement at all..
I am just standing at the beginning..
I am just a loser?
maybe..

April is coming tomorrow..
Hopefully everything will run smooth in this month..

*signing off silently*

给于一个对我很重要的人：

我们终于有了第一次的吵架。
很多事情都瞒不过你，你总是比任何人都了解我！
知道我在想什么。
很坦白对你说，我被你宠坏了。我渐渐地变得野蛮，任性！
吵架后，心情当然很不好过！
收到你的短讯，虽然没生气你了，但还是不想妥协， 因为你还是伤害了我。
我也从没想过会跟你有吵架的一天。
当然，我也不是那么的不讲道理！
不会因为这次的吵架而在我们的关系花上句号。
因为少了你，我想我的生活会少了一份色彩！
今天的你，因该还很担心着我是否还在生你的气吧！
我想对你说：我接受你的道歉，但我也想对你说声对不起，让你担心了！




给于一个在我心里占了一部分的人：

大忙人！你真的真的很忙 。
老实说，明天很期待能跟你一起吃晚餐。
所以我留了晚上的时间给你。
我想我们也已经一个月没见面了吧！
可是。。。
我能对你发发牢骚吗？
不知为何，对你总是恨不起来！
可是有时候，我真的很讨厌你！
因为我不知道你真正在想要什么。
你对我说的话，有时我真的没有勇气去相信了。
我们错过了很多时间，因为我们不珍惜彼此。
你有你的忙，我有我的忙。
可是有时为了见你，我牺牲了一些节目。
因为没有任何事情比见你一面来得重要。
可是。。。
回想起来，好像只有我的付出，我看不见你的付出。
这能算爱吗？
因为你真的很自私
到最后换来的是你对我说：我们在一起的时间不够
我无话可说，因为我真的是尽了我的能力。
我想对你说：机会，我会给你最后一次。可是我必须要看到你是真心的对我。
我要看到你愿意为我而改变！不是只用口说说，而是以行动证明，可以吗？

I hate you for ruining my day up!

suddenly I have a 'feel' to update my blog.. so here I come..
time really passes so fast for this year, now only I realize that it's march now!
maybe this year, I am really busy with restaurant stuff..
went for so many restaurants, and I never notice that there are actually many problems that will occur in a restaurant.
after came in this restaurant, one sentence to conclude: I am not suitable in this field.. :)
If u know me well, u will know that I am actually wanna get into a bank, and be a banker and getting higher position. maybe after few years, I got enough money, I will open my own business but definitely not a restaurant especially focus in services. It is very tiring, trust me.
what is if u serving a very troublesome customer? It will made ur day more worst.. so I won't open a restaurant in the rest of my life..

yesterday, I had a 'feel' for traveling. lol
feel like going with my beloved.. =)
my aunt and her bf already 7 years but they are still so sweet..
both of them knowing each other so well until can he predict what she is thinking in her mind..
sometimes, they really made me feel to have a bf just like her bf, caring and protective enough..
for me, if I really wanna get into a relationship, I am serious in it, I will consider the person as my future partner...
and I hope HE is... =)
I hope this time I really can get HIS protect, HIS full love, I hope everything will work out successfully..
I hope to be HIS princess who can share all the happiness and sadness..
I hope to get a secure from HIM..
I hope to see HIM when I wake up every morning..
I hope HE is belongs to me and ONLY me..
can all my hopes come true?
the only thing I can do is, pray hard loh..
only God knows how much I love HIM and miss HIM everyday... :):)

ok, enough for here, I think I should go back to my work.. have a good day!

happy chinese new year to all my beloved friend.. =)
seem like I abandon this blog for such a long time, very sorry..
so yeah, I had graduated from diploma and I got my diploma results few days ago..
many of my friends keep asking me this: so wat's ur decision? where to continue ur study? really don't want to continue ur study meh?
and after I told my decision, that's it! please don't try and convince me anything, I won't change my mind.. =)

so what am I up to? being an artist assistant and assistant manager in a restaurant..
in these 2 months, I learned alot of things, get alot of experiences. somehow, I believe experience is more important than a cert. Even if u get a bachelor or master cert, but u don't even have an experience is equal to useless.. Therefore, what for I should proceed my degree so fast? let me step into a working world and seek for different kind of experiences. Please don't misunderstood my meaning, I didn't say a degree cert is not important, it is important but experience will always comes first if u go for an interview.. =)

enough crapping I think? haha..
anyway, new year I have many wishes.. *wink wink*



so may all my wishes came true this year. XD

well, actually I got a lot of things wanna share with you guys here..
about my taiping's trip and some working experience there, and some secrets.. =)
but, I know the post will be a super long post and since my finals coming in 2 more days, so I decided to write it once I finish my finals, I promise..

so guys, now wish me all the best in my finals.. ermm, especially business law subject..
gotta go for my revision already..
see you guys soon~~